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The sun arrived.It's still miserably cold outside, but - when I sit by the window and close my eyes for a little while, I can so easily pretend it's summer.

So delightfully bright and warm. The birds are lively, too.

My eyes hurt after a little while.I took a little unannounced break from streaming - finding myself busy with day-to-day things I ended up realizing just how much time I had been spending in that windowless basement. I'll be back live on twitch soon enough, but perhaps it'll be back up in my office next to my window.

Hmm.

I might just be a plant, one who requires lots of light to function at my best.

Or just a person. We need light too.

I think I'm just a person.

I am wrapping up both exclusive audios, I'll spoil one - a shower audio.! I've been alluding to a shower scenario for a while, all the meanwhile trying to figure out a good way to get the ambient sounds just right. I'm excited to hear what you think of it.

I get excited by a lot of things these days! I am especially excited about my newfound ability to spend less time doom scrolling the news. It's a tall ask for a lot of people around me, and I try my best to encourage my friends to take regular breaks away from the grim mood sucking algorithms. Grim means ugly in danish, but I think I prefer the complexity of the english definition. Either way - less time spent on things that are upsetting.

Someone pointed out the other day that I say yes by inhaling. Apparently it's something called an "Inhaled affirmative" - A type of ingressive sound common in lots of languages. Here's a wikipedia page on the topic. We do it in danish - do you do it, too?

Tell me all about it. Maybe you could lie your head on my thigh while you do? Or sit on my lap? I can sit on yours too, straddle you and pay great attention to any and all things you'd like to tell me. I'm a good listener, I promise. I provide kisses to, if you would so desire.

The rest of my night calls for some masala chai with whatever snack I can scavenge from the kitchen. Have myself a little candle light now that it's dark, and maybe just watch some interesting interior design videos on youtube. Maybe some carpentry? Decisions decisions.

Perhaps you could ramble a little in a comment here?

I would love to hear what you have on your mind.

🤍

Comments

Amazing_Thanks

I am thinking of joining a sailboat racing team. This is very unlike me, but I figured I need something to get me out of my normal routine and away from all media. There’s a meeting tomorrow for new people.

Mrs. Dubose

I don't have any ramble in me tonight, I'm afraid. It's been a pretty anxious week for various reasons. 😕 Just trying to make it to the finish line each day. A shower audio you say? Now *that* is exciting. Can't wait!

Anubis

WAWAWA I do that too! (Inhaling inhaling ) Mmm ramble, I haven’t been able to do that a lot recently. Man there is so much going on, mmm mainly stressful with work, school and family but that’s why I am here I guess >:] It genuinely feels like a space where I can be free and have a good time. OH Just became the president of the regional organization I am part of which it’s super exciting!I am really happy to be the first uhhh black queer Hispanic immigrant women to take that role HAHAH ( bro I am collecting all the tags) I have also been feeling more connected with my culture which is always nice. AHH yapping yapping what a yapper, might delete I don’t ramble online often who knows. Also can’t wait to get to YouTube and watch people play INZOI guys! Inzoi looks so fun omg ! I wish I had time to play. ALSO ALSO omg if you haven’t watched before there are videos of coders making games but they can’t talk to each other ITS SO FUN and INTERESTING! ALSO I got two “blind date with a book” sets so uhh that’s fun I haven’t read them yet, CANT WAIT THO! It keeps my mind off of things… well that’s a lot of yap…yea that’s too much yap HELL NAH JIGSAW ( sorry I am all over the place king) MASSIVE LIKE TO THIS POST THO

Nradova

I would love for the midwest to make up it's mind on the temperature. Rainstorms are great I just don't want to feel cold, then hot. Hopefully you'll be enjoying your summer sunlight soon enough. I wouldn't mind sitting on your lap and braiding your hair I can even find some pretty bone beads to tie the ends with.

livia

Reading through this while walking home with friends at the rather ripe time of 2am… The sun has reappeared in London, and everyone made it their mission to do the exact same thing… Missed you streaming, but glad you’ve been enjoying life recently, so happy to hear. Being in a sunlit space sounds oh so appealing at this moment. Hope you enjoy your chai and chill! Hugs 🫂🌞

Odreh

Ugh would kill for some Crunchy cuddles right now 🌹 looking forward to the new audios!

Danya Grace

I'm thinking of going on an adventure. Maybe something completely unlike me or totally expected. Maybe a physical journey or an exploration of a new idea. What will it be? I don't know yet.

Hyk1

Spring is not a good season for me, because I am always allergic🤧. I'm thinking about whether to go back to the gym. I need to lose weight, but my lumbar disc herniation makes me unable to do so much exercise. I also hope that I can pass the exam on Saturday smoothly.

larrylia

I really missed you. The last weeks my head has been full of anxious thoughts more than usual, because there was only one sunny and warm day outside in the whole of March. So I'm glad you'll be back on Twitch. Your voice helps me feel the ground beneath my feet better, you know..... Sending you lots of digital hugs. (as always sorry for the mistakes, I'm really trying to write better, but it's hard)

Chloe O

I spent a lot of time outside today, it was warm enough (here in FL) to wear shorts, though I felt a bit chilly in the shade. I wore them anyways, something about the sun on my skin just feels right. I think you were onto something with the whole "people need light" thing. I was wondering if you could perhaps share a few of your favorite songs, I love collecting them like they're puzzle pieces to the people I've met. I'll listen to them in the sun for you if you want. Okay, that's enough for now. Sending sunshine your way <3

Phantasm Cat

Hold up, before I ramble, I need to find a comfortable chair for my bottom while you sit on my lap. Will my legs be deprived of proper circulation during the duration of this ramble as you look intently into my eyes while I ramble on and on and on and..? Possibly. But it's for the greater good o7 I'd be more than happy to provide you with some warmth. It's been all too hot in this part of the world for March, it would only be fair to provide you with the summer warmth you so rightfully deserve. I've had my fair share of mixed weather, from the hottest to the colds, and right now I'm craving a little chill. Maybe you could bring some of that coldness here? They can probably cancel each other out, and we achieve something in the middle. Only one way to find out.. Well, sunlight does help boost serotonin levels, and without it, it can lessen your energy. It makes sense to think of yourself as a plant (and a mighty cute one at that) and wish for more sun. It helps keep you calm, positive, and focused, so I think future streams next to a window would be lovely and beneficial for you. You are greatly missed, but knowing that you are prioritizing yourself and your needs is always lovely to hear 💙 Ah, a shower audio!! I remember all the times you'd talk about wanting to get the setting and the sounds just right. I have a feeling you nailed it on this one, and I can't wait for us all to experience it. I had to read the entire wiki article, that's so interesting! I can't think of any that we have in English besides certain sounds of shock or displeasure (like the 'tsk tsk tsk' sound is a good example). I tried saying yes and no while inhaling, and goodness did it feel strange in my lungs at first. Something random and completely opposite end of the spectrum and has nothing to do with inhaling, a coworker (and a few family members throughout the years) noticed that when I feel stressed or disagree with a situation, I tend to say "nay" instead of no whenever I'm talking. It comes out so quickly, I don't tend to notice me saying it at all until someone points it out. No one else around me says it, not many people that I'm aware of have said it in such a way growing up. I just.. say it. It's weird, to put it simply. Yesterday, I was looking over all the plants that are finally coming back to life in the backyard. Last year, I planted some beautiful native plants that would help bring some more pollinators, but the heat wave last year had other plans and dried them up a bit. I'm noticing the plants popping back in, and it looks like they'll be in full bloom in no time.. but I also found some stinging nettle in the mix (and it got my arm pretty good when I was looking through. Thats how I found out what it was :,} ), and I am mentally preparing myself to remove them from the bunch soon. Gorgeous plant, but fuck does it pack a punch when touched. I heard it's edible if you're able to neutralize the sting in the cooking process.. but do I dare?.. It's currently dark, contemplating if I should make some champurrado (despite it being hot) or if I should just lay in bed for a while and read. Maybe sneak frijole into bed with me for a cuddle. You're more than welcome to join us, if you'd like. I'll make sure to provide you with gentle head scrtiches and soft kisses wherever you'd like them~ Well.. I still have some feeling in my legs. Thank you for this sweet update, Crunchy. Sending many kisses your way in return (and carpentry videos, I vote for that big time! They're so fun to watch). Stay safe, meow meow~

Mari

The sun has indeed arrived sweetheart. Unlucky for me, I’ve been spending too many of my nights working in this windowless strip club, which means many of my sunny mornings are then spent sleeping my tiredness away. And most of my afternoons spent working at my desk, before returning to behind the bar once more. Bartending has become my element in more ways than one. I find great fulfilment in it but I think part of that comes from the knowing that it’s temporary - the hope and work I’m putting into future goals always on the back of my mind. I’ve also unknowingly taken a short break from my streaming and audio endeavours - I miss it, so hopefully I can get back to it soon. I hope I’m able to enjoy more sunlight soon too. I’ll make sure to think of you the next time I feel the sun on my face okay darling? Thank you for the cosy little break in this shared headspace of ours. I’ll get back to tending the bar now, and fantasising about the gentle touch of sun rays on my skin, and maybe the gentle touch of your fingertips on my skin too? Please?~ 🤍

cosmicdreams

i always enjoy these textual rambles and getting a glimpse into what you’ve been up to. it’s nice to hear you’re enjoying the sunshine and time spent offline 🌻🌿 my thoughts currently: - i’m so, so tired. maybe we can just exist together in comfortable silence? - “buddhism” in victoria ratliff’s (white lotus character) accent has been living in my head rent free - i have a silly little crush on a guy who works the front desk at a gym i recently joined. he gave me a tour when i was looking into joining, and i left feeling all giddy with butterflies in my stomach. i can’t remember the last time i’ve had a crush like that and how fun it can be 🥰 it really is the perfect scenario because i now have motivation to go even when i don’t feel like it 😂 have a good night crunchy, digital hugs 🌱🤍

leithskye

Sweetness, I invite you to straddle me so I can look into your warm eyes as I ramble on and on to you. I know you are a good listener. Is it ok if I rest my forearms on your shoulders as we talk, my hands casually locked behind your neck? I also have missed your streams, selfishly, for the warmth and grounding they bring. But I'm so, so happy that you are using this time away to center yourself, get excited about things, and feel the sun. I think streaming by a window will look lovely! The sun is here where I live as well☀️. It streams into my sunroom in the mornings and I'm lucky enough that the room doubles as my home office. We've put up 4 different bird feeders just outside the windows so a variety will join me each day throughout the day. It's precious to watch them feed and fight, but especially to listen to them sing to me now that I have my windows open. I've been thinking a lot about my career path and changes I might want to make to maintain my sanity and health. This is a midlife "reconsideration" and not at all a crisis. But watching you and some other creators really dive into what you're passionate about has been an inspiration to take some chances in my world, so I thank you for sharing your journey with us. Oh, I didn't realize that I was running my fingers through your soft hair. My apologies at that familiarity. You are the man who says he wants to help me feel good and your kindness, your softness, your thighs on mine, your listening ear (and your hair, I guess!) all certainly hello to make me feel good. Here's to a warm, sunny day tomorrow!

Acedia

Been missing your streams, but a break for sunlight and fresh air is much more important. Take your time. Plant ramble: I planted some little morning glories in a pot this past weekend. Most of them sprouted already. My mother's greenhouse is doing all the work. I had plans for them to decorate the back fence around the garden, but they've already been banished to the front yard far away from any other plants lol That's where I feed the birds anyways, so maybe they'll appreciate them. We used to have two huge lavender bushes that attracted hummingbirds every morning. I wouldn't mind having them again, but the morning glories should work too. (Are there really no hummingbirds in Europe? Crazy. I wonder what other animals and things I just kinda take for granted.) There's also these pink trees here called eastern redbud trees. They're one of the first signs of spring, because redbud and dogwood trees are the first trees to flower late winter. I've been wanting one for the yard for ages but not sure if I want to pay astronomical tree prices for a sapling that might not make it. There are plenty of them growing along the road tho. . . Is it stealing if I take a baby one from the highway? I have a good shovel, are you down for a tree heist? Lol Gonna pack a shovel/tarp/rope in my trunk, scope out low traffic wooded areas, and then get the cops called on me for looking way too suspicious lmao "It's not what it looks like officer, I'm only committing tree related crimes." End yap. Imagined I was laying my head in your lap if that matters. Mostly to have my hands free to Google tree laws and pictures of hummingbirds lol. Excited for the audios, and thank you Crunch 💙

althea ♫︎

*GASP* WHAT?! Wait- Hold on- Bro– I am mind blown!! Turns out we do the inhaled affirmative too 👀 (I'm so sorry to whoever's hearing me whisper "yes" in my own language repeatedly, followed by "ehh? what??" and laughing. I promise I'm not losing my mind 🤣) This is so fascinating! I assumed the inhaling part was in the pronunciation of the word, and thought we didn't have it til I scrolled through the wiki article and saw us listed 😆 I realized we hold air on our throat and push it out quickly with the syllables when saying yes, maybe that's why we inhale after? Although not always, but still very very interesting 🤭 I wanted to invite you in this warm, sunny part of the world, but it started raining while I was writing my inhaled affirmative comment. I actually woke up bc of the heat before seeing this post. Now, the cool winds are making me cuddly, pulling me back to bed. Hmm, should I lay my head on your lap or hide in your kitchen and be a snack you find? Decisions decisions hahahaha sorry sorry 🙈 I've been watching "My Liberation Notes" recently. My first kdrama after 2 years, I think? It's a slice of life that delves into personal, career, family, dating and other relationships. Basically, the struggles of being single in your mid-20s to 40s. It's given me a lot of thoughts, but mostly comfort. ☺️ But one of the things I found so interesting, that I've also brought up to discuss with my offline friend groups, is their talk about playing hard to get in dating despite knowing that both parties are into each other. If it isn't obvious, I'm quite vocal with the things I like and doing things for the people I like 😂 so I find it fascinating hearing the side of people who play hard to get. Thoughts? Oop, looks like I've yapped too much. Haha! Thank you for the update, Mr. Crumch 🌻 Looking forward to your exclusive audios ☺️ Please take your time with streaming. Your comfort is most important! Hoping for sweet dreams when you rest tonight 💗 Love-love 🥰

Saint

Reaaally looking forward to the new audios! I don’t really have much to say since almost nothing interesting or POSITIVELY interesting, I should say, happens in my life anymore. BUT I did get a puppy tonight out of the blue lol. My aunt brought her over at like 9:30pm with no warning and gave her to me :333 She’s a little less than a year old and she’s the sweetest lil thing. I love her sm already 😭 She’s a goldendoodle and she’s this pretty shade of brown (I believe in her breed she’s called an apricot color, just this beautiful light brown.) Some lady was just giving her away for free and my aunt knows how badly I’ve needed a companion to hopefully get me at least slightly out of my deep depression (been going on for 10 years now so it probably will never go away but at least I have a dog now lmfao) Her name is Honey :3 which is very fitting for her since she’s so damn sweet n sticks right to you everywhere you go. I wish I had more to ramble about but oh well. Thanks for letting me yap a lil bit sweetheart <3 Hope you have a wonderful day/night! Get some rest and stay safe n healthy :3

Ange

I was wildly ill earlier this week, sicker than I’ve been in a long time, and being better now is that joyous feeling of appreciating things you take for granted like eating a solid meal or leaving the house (especially now that fresh spring air is so lovely). I’m super excited about a shower audio because the long winding all over the house come in out of the rain audio has long been a favourite/comfort audio for me.

Mel

I'm so glad you took a break to soak in some spring sunshine! My spring has been very eventful - busy both with work and personally. Not bad, just a bit overwhelming. So, I decided to pause. Right now, I’m writing this while sipping coffee on the coast of Sicily, nestled under a tree, gazing at the marina and the old town. Stray cats, who i made friends with last night (crazy cat lady travel tip-always carry some cat food in your backpack), are lounging around me. And I'm doing a lot of thinking... I started my holiday yesterday and caught myself grinning like a fool all day. Traveling fills me with so much joy—I really need to make more time for it. That’s a little snapshot of my state of mind: peaceful, soft, and overflowing with positive energy. Sending you all my love, my brightest vibes… and a few soft kisses. xx

agaslumbers_

yes I’d like to lay on your lap and talk about languages 😌 for example I believe “tak” doesn’t have this attribute; “ja” on the other hand is a word in polish, but it’s not affirmative and the wiki article doesn’t mention it, hmmm curious yes, go be outside, but first let me say that I found it so cute how in winter you immediately transformed that basement into such a cosy space, hauling lamps, chairs, blankets and fake plants there, and the streams turned out to be such a lovely way to survive the cold months 💚

Labrini

I’m SO glad you took a break, Crunch. After that shy weekend you took for your little road trip, it was clear you were tired and needed a breather. And not having a window where you work? You can only ignore that for so long. So please, soak up all the sun you can get—you look rather dashing under it. Personally, I kinda like the idea of you going back to your old setup without the cam for a little while. I don’t know how else to explain it, but it feels cosier. You feel more relaxed, more present in that space with us, rather than focused on entertaining. Does that make sense? (But don't get me wrong, I do miss you miserably~) We had amazing warm weather over the weekend and Monday—warm enough for long skirts—but unfortunately, Monday night it started raining, and it still hasn’t let up. We’ve been stuck in doom and gloom all day, except for some lucky little sunny breaks here and there. I just want to wear my skirts! Why is the weather acting like this!! >.< As for Ναι (Nai), "yes," it's not inherently an "inhaled affirmative"—it depends on the person and their mood in the moment. For example, when I’m feeling so-so or tired, I’ll exhale my Nai like a long sigh, but in general, it actually is an inhaled affirmative. I have to admit, it wasn’t something I had thought about or noticed before. What an interesting thing to learn! 😊 I’ve been taking some trips to bookstores, trying to find something new now that I’m not actively writing. (I don’t read while I work/write because I’m afraid I’ll get influenced and might accidentally add something I’ll regret or feel like I copied an author. Sure, there aren’t really any new ideas out there, but how you deliver something still matters—it has to have your color, not someone else’s. ANYWAY.) I finished both Monk and Robot—though I can’t say I enjoyed the second one that much—and now I need something new, but nothing has caught my eye yet. Maybe I’ll try another bookstore over the weekend and have better luck. Sure, I could order something online, but I kinda want to take my time and walk around books ^.^ Until then, I’m back to my YouTube rabbit hole of book theories. I have some catching up to do with the few creators I follow. It’s such a joy watching people pour their thoughts out and seeing how their brains work. It’s amazing how people connect little details that others might miss—it just makes me giddy. Today, I decided to be a little home gremlin because I’m feeling a bit iffy. My body feels heavy, my throat is a little sore, and I don’t know if I’m crashing after the last two stressful weeks or actually getting sick. I’m hoping for the first. So I’m just staying home. I realized I still have black cherries in the freezer, so I’m making jam. Bread’s proofing as I type this. I might read something short from the 30+ ebooks I have sitting on my iPad. And since the sun is starting to peek through the clouds, maybe I’ll take my coffee to the balcony and organize my notes for the second book. All in all, I’m hoping for a relaxing day—especially if your lap is still available? Maybe you can help me with my notes? And those kisses sound lovely, please? Or you could straddle my thighs, but I doubt I’d manage to get any coherent words out that way. 😂 🤍 Really excited for the new audios, especially the shower one! One can only take SO much shower teasing😂 May everyone be doing well in their little corner of the world, finding small moments of joy, and treating themselves with kindness. I hope you’re having a nice sleep and that sweet, soft dreams found their way to you. May your morning be sunny and your day ahead soft and gentle, full of smiles. Kalimera, sweet Crunch 🤍🌺 P.S. I lost my chance to be a late-night snack, but morning snacks are good too. Heehee~ Okay, bye!

fleurfaust

Even though I dearly miss your streams, I’m very happy you take the time you need for a proper break. I get it so much. For the inhaled affirmative, in French we have the “ouais”, but since you like to use it quite a bit, I’m sure you have noticed hehe. I never noticed before, so thank you for bringing that to our attention, it is a funny thing! Currently, I’m lying in bed with the sun warming my body through the skylight and tracing rainbow colours on my skin (for real, if you don’t believe you can always come here and check for yourself, just saying). It is so delicious, and I’ve been enjoying it very tremendously since the sun has been back. Just I look, as long as I’m here, I can pretend that it’s summer already. Stretching in the warmth like a cat, hmm I can spend hours just like that, but it would be even better with you to share and listen and talk to. I could easily provide some rambles, French or English, maybe even a few Italian words here and there, and why not some Spanish too I could conjure from the depth of my memory so you could smile at my accent. Yeah I think it would do for a pretty picture… sigh. It’s okay I’ll cuddle with the kitties instead. My life has been way too busy lately (and not in a good one), I’m not going to dwell on it, but it’s so nice to take the short break here to talk and think and dream about something else. I just want to stay leisurely discussing and kissing under the skylight, at least for a little bit longer. It’s very quiet and pleasant here hm. So let me tell you a few little anecdotes about my triple Menaces: Meeko is a very polite boy and usually when he wants attention or pet, he gently taps my arm, or whatever part of my body is in his reach, with is paw to ask. He also, or at least that how I choose to see it, sometimes try to give me pets back so he taps his paw to my face (unfortunately, he never really learnt to retract his claws, so even if he’s doing it gently, I must be careful with it). Mushu can be a bit more shy, but he loves to snuggle to my legs when we’re lying down (in bed or even the couch). I think he just loves to have a little contact, sometimes he will also lay down next to me and just put in paw on my hand, or have me hold it, he’s a sweetheart. Musa is an openly snuggle bug, she doesn’t care about being right in your space, quite the contrary, she needs to be close and she also tends to follow me around all the time. She also loves kisses and gives them back, when I get close to her little face saying “bisous” she just leans towards me with half closed eyes. All right, I should probably end it now. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to let my mind wander freely for a bit, I’m very appreciative as always. Sending you many kisses and cuddles and whispers, you are a person indeed and an amazing one at that, Crunchy. All the love 💜

Vergil

Come on over, dear. *taps thighs with both hands* Strap in, I wont keep you long, but I wont pass up the potential of having you in my lap HEHEHEHEHE 🤗 It’s finally started getting colder this side. While I live for the sun and the warmth and delight it brings, us middle-of-the-year babies do identify much more to the cold than warm, and the current shift to Autumn has been well worth the wait. I am faithfully glad the sun has reached you and you can go into full photosynthesis like the sunflower-chan you are, being able to follow the sun wherever it will go. I only hope for brighter and crisper days for you, and to bring your end of the cold this side. It's so sad how news has changed at the flip of a switch, where everywhere you turn is just engrossed in sadness and fear and unknowing, fully aware that the present has its moments in not being on your side. And being able to tear away from that gruelling muscle memory takes much strength and active determination not to drown, and its highly commended. Making the choice to just be is a great choice…!! I must admit, this is the first I’ve heard of ingressive sound, and I will keep my eyes peeled for more of it in daily life. Conversations with friends have led to more questions, and I’m grateful to be learning about it. I guess it just confuses me that the inhale has nothing to do with no air in the lungs but a voluntary intake owing to diction?? That’s so interesting (or if I still have it wrong, I dearly apologise). YEAH, SHOWER AUDIO!!! I mean… yaaaaaay, a calm reaction to the exclusive that will no doubt break our brains yet again. We already know it’s gonna rock, but we shall see how hard in the coming days. The bathroom acoustics always hit a sweet spot, and I wish I could explain why. Nevertheless, it’s already oh so good and we simply cannot wait to hear it. Sorry for the yap, but you did ask. Hope you’re doing wonderfully and that your night was stellar. I do have much to do, but we can just chill here for a bit – I could offer some massages while you finish your drink?? I hear chai goes really well with… snuggles?? (whaaaaaaat am I even saying..🙈) Digital hugs and kisses. Stay safe and sweet, Crunch..🌹🌹

kimmie 🫶

hi crunchy 🫶 i’ve kind of been taking an unintentional break too? my life has been a bit of a rollercoaster during the end of last year and start of this year with some big changes. during the worst part of it, your silliness during your streams definitely kept me sane and gave me a much needed giggle 😅 it’s still not over yet, but i’m very happy to be looking towards the future now. i’ve missed you!!!! very happy to be listening to your newest audios as you know how much I loveeee being a menace 🥰😈 i’ll pop in on a stream soon to say kia ora! until then, love hearing that you are thriving in the warmer weather. it’s autumn here, so I might need to listen to some of your older audios on the colder nights… something French comes to mind, with some ‘broken’ heaters if memory serves 😉