demo no18 'champ' : lyrics + explanation (Patreon)

HOW ARE YA?

I've been battling a bit of a cold for the last week so unfortunately been a little under the weather on my end; some days it's teasing me and I almost think it's gone, then by the afternoon i'm clogged up again. FUN! but apart from that i'm pretty darn swell, made even swell-er (?!) by your gorgeous response to my latest demo 'champ' :) thank you so much! if you missed it simply scroll back to my last post, or if you can't be bothered I've attached it again to this post, for your downloading pleasure.

this song is meant to sound uncomfortable from the get-go - the verse chords go between the E & D in a way that sounded a bit twisted and weird to my ears, which is exactly the scene I wanted to set. this song is about an old friend I'm no longer in touch with, someone who really wound me up.. though unlike the august demo 'over & out' it's set in a different phase of being 'done' with someone where you've past the anger, you're just sort of hanging about, fed up but barely bothered to be bothered by the whole thing. the dude in question thought the world of himself & was certainly in a world of his own.. he certainly wouldn't take on any criticism of himself, sadly the least humble person I've ever met. instead of wasting all my energy becoming frustrated with him I eventually ended up just playing along.. any time he listed his achievements off to me or rang me up just to tell me how well he was doing in his job/relationship/general LIFE I began to just play along. "omg! sounds great."

throughout these tedious and sarcastic conversations with him I noticed myself using words I would nEVER normally use.. words like "pal". lol. maybe it was my subconscious picking words from someone else's vocabulary, reminding me of how false I was being by playing along. hence, I wanted the main lyric to be something I would just never say.. 'champ' just came to me mid-writing.. it sounded so wrong coming out of my mouth, it felt like a word from a weird film set in some American high school or something. perfect.

verse 1 ponders the idea of us both never having crossed paths.. "maybe you had a past life where you lost a bet, maybe I had a past life where we never met". verse 2 yearns for an earlier time, when this lad and I had a lovely friendship.. though it "took me so long to notice when it started to slide". ultimately, despite my nasty sarcasm I did once care for this dude and all he wanted to me, which I think pokes out at a few points.. "look at you! is this what you wanted?".

despite this demo and the last being about fallen friendships, I do promise I have some wonderful friends and I do promise I'm not always such a negative person! ! ! 

hope you enjoy the tune! as always feedback is MOST welcome, I know the above situation is pretty NICHE but would love to hear if anyone can relate!

xx