another live demo: 'cookie cutter lover' (Patreon)

how's it going lads! :) it's almost 1am and I'm as buzzing (how).. I guess i'm just having a lovely week and hope you are too. I've been in the studio almost every day with my 2 lovely producers, writing and finishing off some previously written tracks, we had a guy come in and lay some bass down on a couple today.. AHH! it's coming alive. I can't quite believe it. but anyway.. meaningful updates on that to come ASAP.. now back to this all important club. you may remember in my post for the October demo ('why has this sadness chosen me') I mentioned that seeing as I recording the song totally live naturally took less time, so I recorded another live take of a new song for y'all. this is one I posted a couple snippets of before, called 'cookie cutter lover' - here it is, in it's acoustic entirety.

as I mentioned in the post before last, I wanted to take a step back last month from fussing over production and focus wholly on live performance, on celebrating all the magical uncertainty that comes from simply whacking the mic on and giving it a sing. this song is of course totally different from the moody piano tones of 'why has this sadness chosen me' - it's an upbeat pop-py number.. try and imagine the final track with synths, dinky drum machines and electric guitar. :) (basically.. try and imagine it with all of my fave things).

this song is actually about a couple I know, two friends of mine. she's a lovely girl but throughout their relationship unknowingly tried to mould him into her dream guy. honestly, from the outside it didn't become apparent for a long time, but once it did it was really hard to watch.. I knew (or hoped) there would be a moment where he would wake up and see what was going on. sure enough that moment did eventually come, and this song is about that moment of realisation, from his perspective.

lyrics:

I don't wanna be your cookie cutter lover

I don't wanna be yours 

You took me on as a hobby

And now you're not even sorry 

No I don't wanna be yours 

I don't wanna be your little side project

I don't wanna be yours 

You think I'm clay to be moulded 

But you don't take any notice

No I don't wanna be yours 

All the shapes that you were crying out for

I was always there to move around

Now I barely recognise myself

No I don't wanna be yours

Not like this

Remember the time you spoke to mind to me

I was feeling hopeless 

You brought me down like the weather 

You told me I could be better

No I don't wanna do this 

All the shapes that you were crying out for

Take me as I am or not at all 

I' r l take back the power in a heartbeat 

I don't wanna be yours 

Not like this 

Every little thing you said 

Has found a place in my mind

I can't face it

And every single time I kept it shut

But now is the time 

To say it

I won't change for no one 

I won't change for no one 

I don't wanna be your cookie cutter lover

I don't wanna be yours

I just hope you've got the sense 

To not hurt someone else

I don't wanna be yours

love you guys lots. as always would love to hear what you think! have a fab week

xxxx

og

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