demo no41: oh GOD (Patreon)

well here we go. I present to you a further along (but not yet final) version of 'oh GOD', a song which *I can confirm* will appear on my next EP !

I had so much fun with this one and it was so cool to take elements from my home recording in May into the studio & build on it. plus write a second verse!

lyrics: 

I look at you and I know how I felt

all those summers ago, then I swore not to tell

I’m swallowed up whole by this catholic guilt

oh GOD

If I always do what I am told

i’ll be bitter at fifty years old

I wasted my youth

I wasted my time

I wasted my worry on the little things

If you always just laugh it off

oh I won’t be opening up

we kissed on the bed

It messed with my head

Does that mean nothing to you?

I look at you and I know how I felt

all those summers ago, then I swore not to tell

I’m swallowed up whole by this catholic guilt

I don’t want to think about it

I’m trying to shake off the shame

When I’m wearing nothing but blame

Not easy cause when I close my eyes

I just think of touching you 

This can’t be easy on his side 

Laying there motionless each night 

A head full of heat, skin, sweat and sin

Tangled up feet, clutching at sheets thinking

I look at her and I know how I felt

All those summers ago then I swore not to tell 

I’m swallowed up by this catholic guilt

oh GOD