new song: 'it's not you' (written by some of YOU) (Patreon)

HEY. how are u! hope you're good. (I haven't forgotten about the art competition.. it's the next post I promise). something else special for you this Sunday..

so remember my covers-a-thon, like a month ago? I played a bunch of covers in return for donations to NHS charities together. we raised £3500+ and it was a wild & wonderful time.. a triumph and highlight of lockdown life for me. and alongside the covers, I had a lower tier donation price of £5, where the giver could suggest a lyric for an original song I promised to life, with the loose theme of 'life in lockdown'. 

I naively thought I might have time to start writing this song during the actual live stream.. but then received about 50 more covers than I anticipated and so had to prioritise them! but FINALLY this weekend I got around to stringing these suggested lyrics together and writing a brand new song with them. it was a fun challenge - here is the resulting song! I'll be sending this out now via email to the folks who donated on JustGiving, but wanted you legends of the secret demo club to have it too. 

so here are the final lyrics.. and at the bottom of this post I'll leave the lyrics as suggested by the folks who donated.. see if you can spot where I slotted each one in! (you'll see I often had to change some of the wording to make em work!) :

on my 5th cup of tea by 2pm

oh I’m living my dream life, through my sims

streets are empty, nothing to do

and I’m back here looking, at old pictures of you

I lost my mind in a two-day span

I was crashing through the walls like the cool-aid man

the paths from my door, never tried before

my daily pilgrimage, I never needed them more

CHORUS: (I guess the thing is)

can’t rewind or fast forward

just let it play right through

so I sit in my corner

waiting for something not so blue

stare at the phone screen

if it’s all that we can do,

but it’s not the real thing.. 

it’s not perfect, it’s not you

too many episodes, start to slouch

Mom said I’ll soon be wide as the couch

I couldn’t work from work, so can’t work from home

so I’m fucked, out of luck, always stuck on the phone

I’ll cry over everything, not alright

can we find past love in this lonesome time?

I’m sick of baking cookies for this family

I’ve eaten too much chocolate, please stop me

like a tiger in a cage, unruly child

my thoughts are loose cereal running wild

(CHORUS) 

I miss hugs and laughs and tea with you

I miss holding hands, all the things we do

days feel muted and start to sting

I’m fantasise bout the simple things

my cat’s pretty happy that I’m here more

spends a lot less time now scratching the door

I wonder right now what he’s thinking about?

he looks back at me and opens his mouth

he said I KNOW YOU FEEL LONELY BUT YOU’RE NOT ALONE

AND WE’RE STANDING HERE TOGETHER BY STAYING AT HOME

BUT GO FOR A WALK, MAKE SURE YOU’RE FINE

CAUSE I’M WORRIED THAT YOU’RE GETTING WEIRDER OVER TIME

(CHORUS)

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your lyric suggestions, from the Justgiving comments: 

- Footpaths from my doorstep, never tried before, are now my daily pilgrimage, never needed more’

- how you cant rewind or fast forward just have to let it play

- my hand needs holding

- i miss hugs and laughs over warm cups of tea

- living the dream life through my sims

- crying over everything

- Staring at you through my screen, this is as close as we'll ever seem to be

- I'm looking at old pictures of you

- is it just me, or am i getting even weirder over time.....

- lost my mind in a two day span felt like crashing through the walls like the cool-aid man

- Circling like a tiger in a cage

- To find past love from this lonesome time

- I've eaten so much chocolate it's given me a headache- what more will it take to get rid of this heartache?

- loose cereal running wild

- some days everything feels muted

- sick of baking cookies for the family

- the streets are empty

- on my 5th cup of tea and it's only 2pm

- work from home? I don't even work from work

- my cat keeps wondering why I'm home

- If you feel lonely know you're not alone, were standing together by staying at home

- Truculent wheelbarrow! (the only one I couldn’t fit in lol)

- waiting for something

- stuck at home, always on the phone

- fantasizing/fantasize about the simple things

- watched too many episodes

- we're starting to slouch, asses wide as our couch