demo no74: 'brave face' (Patreon)

hey SDC! new demo alert. quick hello to any new folk who have joined us on here this month. I am grateful for u + u are so welcome here:)

may brought a stripped back song out of me - I've loved experimenting w production & sound worlds on the last few demos but something about coming out of the sensory overload that was TOUR made me come home and just want to write something honest and simple. after the main live take I tried adding more layers and the song simply said NO - so I listened.

this song features my new rubber bridge guitar who I'm calling 'bones' (thanks Faith for the name idea). this guitar was a little post-tour treat to myself at the end of dodie's US run and just now am I getting to scoop it up and really see what it can do. it is truly a plinky plonky dream.

this song is about being nostalgic and a little regretful. you can stream the song on the patreon website, IOS app, download the mp3 or in your apple podcast app (if you've linked it all up via the patreon RSS feed then my demos will appear in there for you automatically - well worth doing) as always I'd love to know what you think in a comment below.

lyrics:

I felt fucking nervous

meeting you that day

like when you leave it too long

there’s too much to say

10 whole years of friendship is a victory

suddenly I’m sixteen

when you look at me

emotional whiplash

memories

fold out

in front of me

I’m always putting on a brave face

I still think about

if we had tried a little harder

swam a little further

would we get there?

do you think about

if we had tried a little harder

just hung on a little longer

would we get there?

I can’t bring myself to think about that

blindly optimistic

in an awkward way

like walking through arrivals

thinking someone there is waiting for me

I don’t think that ‘grateful’

really makes the cut

should I even thank you

for not fucking me up?

I still think about

if we had tried a little harder

swam a little further

would we get there?

do you think about

if we had tried a little harder

just hung on a little longer

would we get there?

I can’t bring myself to think about that

I play it out all the time

pull your mom’s car out

drive to my house

I play it out all the time

oh I’m just being sentimental

for a time so monumental

I guess I think about

if we had met a little later

would it all be different would we get there:?

I can’t bring myself to think about that