your may demo is not ready (but here is another demo while you wait) (Patreon)

HELLO SDC GANG

just a note to say in this laate end of the month hour that I sadly won’t have your demo ready for you tonight as I'd hoped. I've been diving in but my ears are fried after being in a rehearsal all day and this demo deserves a set of tweaks on fresh ears before it reaches you. everything sounds like mush !!!!! (my own voice is wigging me out !!!!! helpppp)

SO I’ll have the MAY demo that I've been working on up for you asap - likely the day after tomorrow, june 2nd or 3rd. in the meantime here's another demo, a song co written with my friend Doug a few months back called ‘ragdoll’. it's about yearning for a love to be so perfectly want you want that you try and control the other person completely. yikes.

honestly this one isn't an album contender for me.. it’s not SUPER ME in the way I like but there’s still something fun about it.. this kind of writing and trying things is aaalll part of the process, so thought I'd share while I put finishing touches on your may demo. :) 

lyrics:

happy, when I say it out loud

but sometimes i freak out, i freak out

fold you! like you’re clay in my hands

go so far that i tear you in half

it’s the kinda feeling that i’m meant to ignore

getting so much worse that i can’t anymore

i know it’s pathetic and you’ve heard it before

sit. down. now. tell me

why don’t you fall in love w me

why don’t you play along?

ride shotgun for eternity

ahhhh ahhh

don’t care what anybody thinks

we’ll call it what we want

i’ll love you like my little ragdoll

promise, yeah I swear on my mom

that something that feels this good can’t be wrong

i could be your freak show at the end of the day

cover myself in tattoos of your face

god i would to anything to get you to stay

you want that - right?

why don’t you fall in love w me

why don’t you play along?

ride shotgun for eternity

ahhhh ahhh

don’t care what anybody thinks

we’ll call it what we want

i’ll love you like my little ragdoll

ah ah ah you’re not my little ragdoll

no more sadness

just like i imagined

hold my hand and kiss my face

true love, passion

just like i imagined

hold my hand and kiss my face