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hello my dears.

i’m in maine, with 13 of my immediate and extended family.

i feel like i am inhaling and exhaling fully for the first time in two and a half years.

it’s almost the end of the month and i haven’t put anything official.

really, truly. might do a watercolor. i feel like i can get away with that every five years or so.

maybe with a poem.

or maybe not.

i’m, like, braindead.

and i’m really, deeply happy to be home.

going slower than slow.

going at the pace of the pines.

floating in the bay.


it’s cold.

i love you all so very, very much.

breathe with me.

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SField

Family first.

Rebecca Starodub

Do a cover of In the pines, sorry actua title is Where did you sleep last night, and put that out. 😉

Melissa Lockhart

“You must understand, young Hobbit, it takes a long time to say anything in Old Entish. And we never say anything unless it is worth taking a long time to say.” J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers Take all the time you need.

Anna McCotter

Just float and breathe. Nothing feels better.

RiverVox

In the car with my family on the way home from the Cape listening to Lost and thinking about how I miss you. Enjoy that cold clear water. 💜

Aqualynne Carnahan

Dude. Being home again is an adjustment. I went through that after living in Europe a few years. It's exhausting and wonderful and full of other people. We are all grown ups (probably) and get that this is a transitional time. Right now, just knowing you're okay is enough. We can manage a month on our own knowing you will check in when you can. You will do what is good when the time is right. Just be in your life right now. Much love and Nana hugs!

Allison B

Recentering and regrouping with loved ones. As it should be. E n j o y The P a c e 🤗

Aimsel Ponti

I had a feeling you would be coming here soon! Perfect. Enjoy!

Cyn

I think you should give yourself a pass this month on producing Things, or at least a wide range of what you would consider a Thing. Because to me, taking the time to write what you did today is a Thing. It's been quite a Month and quite a last few Years. Enjoy the deep relaxation of time off with those you love.

Doug Ryan

I agree with this. Or thing the tiniest, easiest thing there is to thing. You always deserve a real rest. And now seems the most wonderful time/opportunity for one.

Joni

This counts as a "thing" in my book. Breathe baby... Breathe. ❤️❤️

Amber Dawn

Enjoy your family, the love and reconnection are so important. We are here holding space. Take the time you need. Love and Deep Breaths. ❤️

Len Tower Jr.

a enjoy being down east. love , len

Stefan Momma

Seeing, talking to, laughing with, hugging the ones that are closest to you is so much more important than sticking to an artificial schedule. Take your time and enjoy the company. We enjoy seeing you enjoying it. Take care!

Briana Cavanaugh

I've started doing watercolor. I'd love a live where we casually do a watercolor together. We paint and people can bring their art, coloring, etc to do in the gentle space. Lots of silences or gentle music and colors.

Lynn Goodman

Glad you made it back! Much love to you and yours.

Marie

Do you ever get a month completely off work, Amanda? Maybe this could be it. Or some other time. I’m fine with paying a pledge for an Althing (maybe like once a year) that simply says: This month, I was on creative/mental/whatever hiatus. <3

Robert Williams

In slowly through the nose, pull the air down deep into your belly, hold for a quiet count to four, lift it up with your stomach and out through your mouth, pause, go again … just breath and live 🥰

Jordan Gibson

Welcome back, beautiful soul. Take all the time you need. We've sure needed it

Samir Malak

Breathing with you. Live. Live fully with family. I got to hug my son and my parents back in Egypt for the first time in over two years back in December. Breathing with you.

Link Hughes

Being a Mainer in the Bay Area, unable to go home since three Decembers ago due to concerns about travelling while being immunocompromised, this picture and post gives me such warm feelings. Thank you so much sharing, Amanda, and glad to know Maine and the Atlantic are providing you space for recovering/decompressing. <3

Stacy Litwin

I think you should listen to "beyond the pines" by thrice, seems like it would fit this moment for you, calm and pensive, soulful yet still a little rock-ish

EmVT

ooh, yay for watercolor, sending warmth, stat! powerful image, love them leading lines ☀️:) ((()))

Mandy Mountain

I mean it is ok with me if you do nothing this month...I mean you came home, that could be your thing lol. But if you do a thing can you do Brianna's idea! I love this. I would love to do a follow along water color with you. You could be our Bob Ross! I assume we would just need some water color paper, brushes, and a few paints. I have all those but have never set the time aside to give water colors a try. We would get quality time with you online and a painting to remember it by, you would get to paint, talk, teach and quality time with your patreons. Win win.

Paula Carr

My brother-in-law is from Maine, and my niece and nephew were both born there. It's a wonderful place to exhale.

DebbieG

Enjoy being with your family. I saw a lot of extended family recently for the first time in 2 years, and it was very healing.

Tammi L

Welcome (back?) to Maine!

holly

i’ll be in maine (on mt. desert island) in two days, staying out there from california, for a month. we’ve been driving across the country from santa barbara, on an epic family summer vacation adventure. we haven’t done anything like this since our little one was born 6 years ago, and we are certainly making some memories. i wish you peace and calm and gentle recuperating in beautiful maine. i can’t wait to be there for the same myself. ♥️

Dave R

Love Maine. I lived there for 8 years! =)

Ria

Might be going with a BREAK. Think going home after 2.5 years is a good excuse to break your rule of releasing something official every month. Not that you need an excuse cos we love you anyway. Have fun ❤️❤️❤️

Ria

Oh yes let’s paint happy little trees together 😃

Dorit

Enjoy the calm 💜

Jane France

Have a break. We have your back x

Zoé Grin

Take a break Amanda. We'll be there. ❤️

Carlos Warner

Eagle Totem Animal The eagle totem animal is emotional and intense. People who have the eagle as their totem animal are passionate and fiery. This trait can lead to incredible careers, artistic genius, empowering leadership, and deep intimate relationships. The intensity with which the eagle totem lives, however, presents many challenges both interpersonal and professional. People with the eagle as their totem animal can struggle to stay grounded. When they lack passion for an undertaking, they often lose interest and move on. Without a clear sense of passion or direction, individuals with this totem can stagnate. Additionally, this totem animal can be quick to anger, competitive, and may experience a range of emotions that can only be described as “too much too fast.” When the eagle totem has yet to find their soul mate, they may rush into relationships headlong and find themselves in a pressure cooker of emotions. eagle When someone with the eagle totem finds a way to ground theirself, their focus and passion can be indispensable assets. In relationships that are healthy and fulfilling, the eagle totem is loving and attentive and always puts their family first. https://twitter.com/carlos_warner/status/1539127398763048967?s=21&t=kLikz0ckmybx3_jFwdkv9g

Lynn Robinson

I think this photo and your words are ample for this month. Settle back and wallow in the love, friendship & peace around you and your barefoot prince. Much love 💕

Carlos Warner

And Amanda is going to climb that hill in her own way, she will wait around for the right day. And as she rises above the tree lines in the clouds, she will look down and hear the sounds of the things people have said today. Fearless by Pink Floyd You say the hill's too steep to climb, Climb it! You say you'd like to see me try, Climb it! You pick the place and I'll choose the time And I'll climb The hill in my own way just wait a while, for the right day And as I rise above the treeline and the clouds I look down hear the sound of the things you said today Fearlessly the idiot faced the crowd, smiling Emotionless the magistrate turns 'round, frowning and who's the fool who wears the crown Go down in your own way And everyday is the right day And as you rise above the fearlines in the frown You look down Hear the sound of the faces in the crowd https://youtu.be/TeyHPAdxuy0

Cariushka

You’re in my state! It is chilly, I love that June is properly a spring month in Maine

Rhianne

No rush love, we've got you x

Anna Haasler

120% okay. I'm happy knowing you are connecting with family, nature and yourself. No deliverable needed.

Jozias

Breathing in through the nose.... One two, three, four... Back in my home country from US! ❤️ Breathing out between lips as through a straw. Four, three, two, one...

Carlos Warner

Amanda is an Eagle. @neilhimself is an Eagle. Many of you beautiful people are Eagles as well. Her call and majestic vision resonates with all of us. She is with a pack of loving forest animals now, as she is with you. Fox, wolf, hawk- there are many of you here. Eagles understand Eagles. Eagles need dogs to recover. Fill this community with love and support for our Eagle. https://worldbirds.com/eagle-symbolism/

Jacob Holzman

Just got home from ME a couple days ago. Enjoy. Yay for family. Cheers

Carlos Warner

My mental disorder is OCD. Many Eagles suffer from this. I don’t know, but I bet Anthony Bordrain, that majestic eagle we all loved likely died of OCD. I’m not a doctor but have suffered from this condition since I was a child I just left a long comment that was erased that involved me crying and taking drugs. Let me summarize. I am an Eagle. My Eagle Wife committed suicide. I went through a period of total breakdown in 2020. The goverment was crushing me., I’ll explain because this is the most important post of my life. I am a lawyer but my language is comedy. My dream job was to write for the onion. I met Amanda through my work as a Guantanamo lawyer. At the time, I was drinking too much, had a bi-polar Eagle wife and two small children. I was never a dolls fan but I really loved who killed Amanda Palmer and her Radiohead stuff: I reached out to her and as you know she didn’t say no enough. As Eagles we had some great yet to be disclosed art- Se/SW in Cuba- Amanda’s idea on GTMO. I can’t say for sure but I think this was before Neil, who sent a signed copy of AG to my family and my client. My young Eagle Amanda slept with that book because coralline is her favorite of all time. I mean she’s dark. I don’t like scary shit, but we are enjoying Stranger Thinfs. Great fucking show. I believe a signed copy is still in the GTMO prisoner library so another reason why AG is an historical text. Not much good shit gets in there (comedy rabbit hole). I know a lot of famous people, but if i could choose two to work with it would be them. My Eagle Eilish as i call her at 14 comes up with critical thoughts i use at work. Anyhow, I discussed Amanda (with her permission) with my HVD client, he’s an Eagle named Muhammad Rahim Al Afghani. ISN 10029. He is innocent and has been held without charge for 15 years and nobody cares. So it goes. Rahim loves her. He also had a match.com profile. Look that one up (Daidism Comedy). They exchanged letters, some public and some private. This is all on the internet. They were busy famous people but they took the time to help this man. So back to Amanda, I’ve been out of touch, but I saw her recent IG post and texted her just as an Eagle concerned about another Eagle. I explained how I am getting through it. I have no problem with her sharing what I wrote if she wishes. I pray to God for her to heal. We live in a simulation btw- please don’t go down this comedic rabbit hole as there are no answers and it leads to existential questions which will literally (hate the word) drive you crazy. If your interested look up Nick Bostrom on Lex Fridman In 2013, on the verge of me “making money” (whole comedy routine- on Kuwait and Crypto- you must watch the twitch of the squid game crash- hilarious) my wife had a breakdown slept with someone else and left the family. Eagles do this sort of shit especially when they are manic. I have no idea if anything has happened between them. I was where Amanda may be. Losing an Eagle she loves, and that’s complicated for an Eagle. I instantly found a a wolf to protect me and tried to replace Eagle. Dumb. That didn’t work because I was crying every night over my Eagle and listening to Prince Nothing Compares to you. I got over it and now have another Wolf, equally strong and that’s a great match. Eagles and wolves fuck and it’s great. Side note since this involves sex: I would LOVE to hang with pornstars like Adriana Chechek, she is my absolute favorite. What a fucking sexual eagle. pornstar friends would be cool but no space fucking for this 51 year old eagle. This is why they are board when they have to fuck a fat Bassett hound on a dare. Terrible. I’ll stick with my wolf. It’s tiring to hang with an eagle. We are dinosaurs and weird and annoying and nervous. Google “eagles fucking.” It’s crazy death shit like falling from space (I have a totem comedy routine- I literally (hate that word- Carlin I use nigger, rarely because it’s a fuckin word. See Carlin Amanda. Cancel me I’m not doing comedy for money.). This is why we watch porn stars. If I were Amanda I would call David Byrne, Wayne Coyne and Rick Rubin. two wise eagles and one of the wisest owls from what i know. Btw, eagles cannot fuck owls. It’s gross. Trust me i tried it several times. They are wierder. And like Eddie Murphy said in raw about fucking someone with a sense of humor you have to cover your eyes and have her tell more jokes or tell me more advice. I’m sure Rick Rubin is fucking some owl well- I don’t want to see it. Nor do I want to see elanor Roosevelt fuck. Not even curious. Ok a little morbidly curious. That should be a part of the dolls show. God idea!

Carlos Warner

Anyhow I spoke to god on Mother’s Day this year through my grief and asked it to end my suffering and now I am feeling better and my humor is back. It was gone for 14 months. I am now on Gabapentin- I can’t google meds because it will convince me I will die. I believe a Gabapentin commenter from a quanon site, i believe he actually knows what he is talking about when they give it one star and say “it made their dick shorter.” I am fine but I don’t want shorter.

Carlos Warner

And I told Amanda about this and she hasn’t responded but I know she hears me. Not about the dick thing. Comedy

Oorlab

"pace of the pines." that's acool line, for a poem or a song of sorts. keep making music

Carlos Warner

Love you all and god bless and I hope I don’t take up too much of your time. Kickstarter for Palmer/Byrne/Coyne produced by RR. 🤯

Ofel Epicorus

I am just so happy for you. You deserve to feel the relief of being where you need to be, where your heart needs to be, with who you and your heart need to be. Sending love, take the time to breathe.

Jozias

So this is like the end of a tunnel for you. You need rest and time to just breath, float and feel happy. Good to see Ash growing up so healthy and strong. He was breathing all the time. He shows comfort. He knows you got his back. And you, you are never alone, you got your family and friends close again and you know we got your back. Time is all yours.❤️