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Gavin Early Access (Patreon)

Published:
2022-05-23 23:01:01
Imported:
2026-06

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[references to trauma][references to fictional tragedy and loss of life][survivor guilt]

the youtube version, if you prefer:

https://youtu.be/D9rI8F8SOW0

and the file and transcript have been added to the Redacted Records Index: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/15XmPOR_yGyWBvfWvQBoCWSH6oc-o9X0H-D37YRNgq9A/edit?usp=sharing

NOTE - if you're on my Discord please don't post any spoilers about the contents of the video until after the public release has fully elapsed. We don't want to ruin any surprises for anyone. Just keep it to the comment section of the video itself or here on Patreon until then! Any spoilers on Discord will be removed and the poster will be issued a warning. Thank you!

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heather

i am crying.

CINnamon

“You are my sky, deviant, the space between my stars” i am in tears

Whistler

I think that “Old habits given new life” is genuinely one of the most beautiful and perfectly-phrased descriptions I’ve ever heard to describe trauma aftermath. Tucking that one away for a rainy day.

Tracy Turner

Gavin is one of my favorites...ughhhh...there is just something about him 💜🥰 thank you again Erik I love your videos 💜 you are awesome dude 😎😁🥰💜

StrayDryad

Ooh boy we're in the feels tonight! Between Gavin's soothing voice and comforting words, I'm just so absolutely soft for him. Also the "your feelings are safe with me, in whatever forms they take," has me devasted. Another excellent audio I'll be replaying for awhile

RainyDay

Ohhh Gavin. Realizing now how much danger he was really in under the Ward was like a punch to the gut. And hearing him comfort the freelancer like this hits me so hard because I do the same thing they do; carry everything for everyone and never feel safe enough to put anything down. It's been years since I actually cried and longer since I did it in front of anyone else. I'm not even really sure I could anymore; my body and mind just go numb when I feel overwhelmed with emotion. Imagining being in a place where I could let go like that, hearing these words spoken to me is so deeply cathartic its kind of hard to put words to. Really amazing work as always, I'm so impressed with the commitment and care given to letting these characters grapple with everything that's happened. Its been hard to see them struggle and so rewarding to see them start to heal under the care of their listeners and friends. I'm gonna go ahead and scoop my guts up off the floor now 😅

Elliott K.

Well that one is going in the back pocket for when a real breakdown happens. I see far too much of myself in these characters 😅

Shana

When I first got into the freelancer series, I didn't know what to think of Gavin. Now I've come to really love him and all I can say is that I really appreciate his comfort and I'm glad that he too is getting professional help. They all need it more than ever and it's amazing to see Gavin so freely open up to Freelancer after his reluctance to open up to them when they first asked what he wanted.

GravityRose

You are my sky, Deviant….be still my heart! Gavin has grown so much as a character.

Syn Unknown

yo I don't even care who the question mark is. this demon right here is all I need. ^^

Eleanor Curtis

God this was beautiful. Im sobbing. Your utterly amazing Erik

Nikki 5¢

I’m not even surprised that I fall more and more for Gavin after each coming video of his. Slowly seeing him display different sides of him that he’s afraid to show and him just being vulnerable just leaves me so infatuated by him. I love how he tells freelancer how much he trusts and confides in them. his constant reassurance and reminders towards Freelancer’s feelings and emotions matter just as much as their friends. This audio had me crying by how raw and real these types of emotions and taunting thoughts are. I appreciate Gavin very much :,) “Your feelings are safe with me. In whatever forms they take. You honor me by trusting me with them. By feeling safe enough to share them with me.” (Just had to add this bc it attacked my heart)

Robin

I'll be listening to this one on repeat for the rest of my life 🥹

Lovely Deviant Alyssa

💕 Gavin!!! 💕 I've missed him so much, and this was the perfect soother for that heartache. The audio was truly beautiful. It was so indescribably amazing, that I'm honestly at a loss for words. And as I sit here, all teary-eyed at my keyboard, I know that this is one of those installments that will forever stick with me. There were things said in this audio that I didn't know I needed to hear, until I heard them ❤️ Every word of this is gorgeously written, and perfectly expressed. The variety of subject matters discussed here are handled with such compassion and authenticity. And hearing it from Gavin...😭❤️😭❤️ It was the best! This audio radiates warmth and love, comfort, vulnerability, trust and safety. Again, this is an absolute masterpiece — Even now, I'm still struggling to put my feelings fully into words, this installment is just THAT INCREDIBLE! Mentioning that, oh my goodness... The audible sob that erupted from me when Gavin revealed the truth about unraveling...🥺💔 That's utterly terrifying, and I now want to hug him tightly for the rest of time! Plus, the talk of Xavier... It all made my heart just crumble to bits. Still though, in balance, there were many moments that also made my heart so happy: Any time Gavin uses the phrase, "My love," or, "I'm here," I just...💖😭💖😭😍😍😍 And when he referred to Freelancer as his, "sky"... Oh, then the happy tears arrived! So, in conclusion: This audio is the most beautiful thing ever. It made me feel a waterfall of emotion, to the point where I am now just a babbling, weepy disaster — And I genuinely love that! It's so impactful. Also, I adore Gavin more and more, with each passing second, haha 💖 This was a great continuation to the storyline, and I can't wait for more. Favorite lines: "You don’t have to hold it all together right now. You can just hold onto me. I’ve got you." "You know just how much I mean it when I say if anyone understands how hard that’s going to be, it’s me." "Your feelings are safe with me. In whatever forms they take. You honor me by trusting me with them. By feeling safe enough to share them with me. They are not a burden. And neither are you. You are loved. You’re my sky, Deviant. The space between my stars. What I feel for you… in a lifetime of sensing the emotions of others, I never imagined I could feel like this. This much. And I am so grateful for it. And for you. Of course. I’ll hold you all night if you want me to. You’re safe. And loved. And known. Here, in my arms."

Robbiemarie
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Thank you for putting into words exactly my thoughts. A perfectly written, incredibly moving piece of perfection.

RainyDay

I'm still coming back to this often to help me sleep. Something about this one is so bone-deep calming and comforting I can just close my eyes and fall straight out of my own body