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TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER: Child abuse, vague descriptions of assault, neglect, religious abuse. 

I avoided writing this chapter because I knew it would be hard, but I also wanted to do my due diligence for Sharkie, and for all survivors out there. I hope that I have done it justice, but as always with my work, if I have missed the mark of representation and veered into glorification, PLEASE let me know. 

Sharkie's story is based on an amalgamation of stories from friends that I had in college, people I have talked to (and received permission to use pieces of their stories in my work), and research I have done. No one person that I spoke to experienced all of the same things as Sharkie. 

In delaying the writing of this chapter I got caught up in the whirlwind of life, with my car deciding to pitch the Big Fit, weather insanity, family happenings, adulting hiccups, and my own mental health. I am beyond thankful for your continued support, and I am so sorry to have let my schedule slip by the wayside. Creating is my absolute joy, and sometimes I self sabotage by convincing myself otherwise. The joys of imposter syndrome. 

I will be posting chapter 14 this Saturday, time and tide willing, and I'm planning on starting to write some other fun stuff for you guys, like one shot short stories, and possibly, POSSIBLY a modern day coffee shop next to a tattoo parlor (across the street from a church) Alternate Universe story. I'll be putting up a poll to see what you guys might like to see first. 

And finally, if you are willing, please support @goblingrimmgifts on TikTok, as his original account was banned for no reason at almost 50k followers. He is the official Hells Belles artist, and he has tons of HB art, as well as awesome original art available! He also has a Patreon, and patrons get first and exclusive access to so many cool things. We created a short comic book together, and he will be selling copies that are signed by both of us in his shop soon! He's been a wonderful friend, beyond patient in putting up with my bullshit, and has helped keep me confident enough to create.

As always, thank you all for this wonderful ride you've allowed me to go on, and I can't wait to see where we, and our beloved characters get to go in the future. 

Also, I'm both dying to write smut and absolutely terrified. Better read more books of a certain genre. For research of course. 


Comments

AlyssaC

Take all the time you need! Adult life can suck, we all know that. Sorry your car had The Big Fit 😔. We'll all happily wait for you, don't let THIS be a big stressor too. Very excited for another chapter but also sad for poor baby sharkie 🦈 I definitely teared up at this one. But the line about sharks being crunchy snacks was great 🤭 even if sharkie might not appreciate it

Ana-Elizabeth Arnao

Welp as the survivor of some very heavy amounts of serious childhood trauma and abuse + religious trauma, I can say you handled this very gracefully. Very empathetically. Very gently. And it helps. It eases old wounds to see someone talk about trauma like this. Sharkie and I could have a gallows humor trauma bonding time of it all.

Kristiane Laucht

My heart, Jaysea! My heart! What did you...how did you?? Why?!

Nikolas

Poor sharkie! Poor baby. Sweet baby, sweet angel. I love mama Lily tho, and I love bel being his supportive self, this was a great, If not sad, chapter.

Amy Cushman

Awwwe poor baby Sharkie! My heart hurts now but love Lily and Bel being there for her.

Megan Rupp

I love all of these characters so much. Your ability to make all of them so layered and real is wonderful. Thank you for all of the time and effort and care that you out into telling their stories. Even when you do make us cry.

malsherlocktyrion

I second Ana-Elizabeth. I have similar trauma that started around that age. With a certainty that I was going to hell because what was being done to me was sinful and sinful people went to hell. It's a tough line to walk. And you handled it well. Coincidentally, a lot of Lily's responses were my reactions in therapy when asked to address my sharkie-aged me. So even that side was accurate.

Van Brewer

So damn good. It’s wild about how imposter syndrome works - it’s obvious that creating is just part of who you are. You create this universe and pull us into it and get us invested and make us laugh and snort and cry and bawl over these characters who have somehow become our friends. Your creations have become some of those small daily things that I really look forward to seeing. Anyway, great story – I thought it was very carefully handled, definitely very moving.

Kristiane Laucht

Page 2 Another house. She'd pitched a fit* Page 8 line 6 the meditation line. The wording seems a bit off. I'm going to go try to put my heart back in place after you so thoroughly displaced it.

Savanna Haley

My heart! Poor sharkie! Amazing chapter as always

Delia Isaac

Like always you write good story. You're very good at sprinkling Bel and Lily interactions without being too heavy handed especially given the sharkie situation. Like, it's "realistic" "human" behavior... In that they have lived outside of each other. As for the sad shit. The shit was sad. Not too detailed, but enough context to draw some conclusions. I appreciated the way you handled it. Lily thinking for sure her friend would punt her across the universe for fucking up in comforting a child made me chuckle despite the tears rolling down my cheeks. Lily is going to be primo MILF material for Bel. I can't wait to see all the growth!!!

Delia Isaac

I totally forgot about that line! I'm so glad someone drew attention to how absolutely clever it was.

Jen

Jaysea!! I can't speak to Sharkie's experience but it feels like you handled it with grace. But oh my gawd, everything after had my whole heart! Luci handling it without question, Bel turning into a teddy bear, not to mention his speech 🫠. Literally had me melting. It was do easy to immediately see 'Mom and Dad' form from nothing. When her foster mama told her to "go to hell" she had no idea that it meant that baby girl was going to find so much love and acceptance. 😭😭

Sarah Erickson

Oh, the weeping. For Sharkie's fear and trauma, for Lily's brokeness, for Bel's gentleness....Now my eyes are all red and swollen and I have to process all this emotion. Beautiful job with a difficult chapter.

Nya

Dude... We're not actually in hell. You can't just rip my heart out like that. Though I don't have any personal experience with trauma like this I still think how Lily handled Sharkie was perfect. Just being there as a solid presence is enough some times. Lily might have no idea what she's doing but she's doing and that's what matters. Thank you so much for that absolutely perfect chapter! Please make sure to take care of yourself first and foremost. We'll be here happy to hear from you with a story update, life update, or anything in between or other.

Peter Psareas

Oh my god. I love this. The best yet. I’m crying and happy. Sharkie’s real life started with her death. Lil I’d too. You can let bell in. I believe real life Jayden will be a great mom. Thank you so much for sharing this. It’s fantastic

Stormy

Heartbreaking but I love how everyone loves Sharkie from the start 💕 this was beautifully and respectfully done.

Peter Psareas

Of course I meant Lily’s and Jaysea. I’m blaming the tears making it hard to type

Mykal Neff

First chapter to make me ugly cry. You are so talented and amazing!!!!

Elizabeth

You did it again suck me in and leave me wanting more it was that good. This puts the sharkie and the afterlife vs foster mother into new perspective and I love it.

Emily Barteaux

My whole heard just shattered. Omg poor baby sharkie. I can't wait to watch sharkie grow and lily grow into being sharkies mom. Omg my heart. This was so so so well written.

Aj Holder

This is definitely my favorite chapter so far! And I’m so ready for Bel and Lily to get together and for Bel, Lily, and Shakrie to be a family!

Lucy j Magnuson

always make more hells belle stuff and side storys

Peter Psareas

Please write about Sharkie meeting Steve Irwin

Terri Crawford

I can't wait to hear about all of Sharkies adventures growing up.

Aj Hawkins

Ma’am if I didn’t know that sharkie, the foster monster and the pastor all got what they deserved, I would be very upset with you. Excellent work as always

Helena Wigforss

Poor Sharkie! 🥺🥺 This was an amazing chapter! And i’m so glad that fostermonster and the pastor got what they deserved and that Sharkie is a happy feral rocking the gate.

Anjuli

Excellent

Rixi Urdaneta

bel in research mode 🥹💕 sharkie deserves all the love she gets.

Caz

I didn't need to cry at 8 o'clock in the morning, and yet here I am, bawling into my coffee! Beautiful stuff.

Judy Sullivan

It’s 5am. I should be sleeping. But I noticed this showed up when I checked the time. So now I’m laying here, impressed as fuck about Bel in research mode, Lucifer being gentle, and Lily just being herself and caring so much! A few spelling oopsies that I don’t normally see, but superb content!

Jessica Curtis

If Sharkie meets Steve Irwin, can we get that story? I want the best for Sharkie!

Nancy Martin

Crying at 5am for the best possible reason, my mom heart is absolutely wrecked for Sharkie and so proud of Lily. Bad parents don't worry if they're good enough, I ran with that as a mantra when I had my daughter, because parenthood is scary stuff. Jaysea you have and portray the heart of a mom so well and I'm sure you will use it so beautifully in every life endeavor.

BadWolf-BadDog522

It’s 2:45am here, I should be asleep but had to read the new chapter. And I’m trying really hard not to wake my husband up crying over something I’m reading…. Again. My heart is breaking for Sharkie, for the hell she had to live through and all of the mortals that failed her. Your description of a (forgive me if I get the wording wrong), “wildflower being trampled for the very beauty that makes it a flower”, was absolutely spot on. Your portrayal of Lily’s fears about not knowing how to be a good parent for Sharkie, that shows me that she’s going to be a great mom. And bless Bel and Lucifer for their reactions to the situation. I love seeing Lily fall more in love with Bel every chapter… please keep it up, I can’t wait for the next chapter to drop, and I’m seriously looking forward to the comic book too!!

Illana Navas

Don’t mind me, I’m just over here trying not to sob. Beautiful job with everything ❤️

Coleen WhiteLightning

This was....it healed a little part of me that I never thought could be. Thank you

Jennifer Cathren

Amazing chapter! I can’t wait to read more!

Embeth Arreyn

It's okay, I can be a little late to work this morning. I'll just tell them I was crying over a book <3 It's so worth it

Cheryl Meyer

I relate to Sharkie, and Sharkie’s story just a little too much, so I think I need to pass on this chapter. But thank you for sharing this story with us, I love the characters you’ve created!

Samantha Johnson

Worth the wait, I can't stress enough my love for this story and how it's unfolding!

Elle

Absolutely spectacular, as usual. Crying at 7 am was not expected, but appreciated. Seeing not only Lily but Bel jump in to do what they can for Sharkie feet first makes my heart happy.

Maria Elkhoury

crying while trying to get ready for school is not what i expected to do this morning, but anything for my helles belles. i’m so in love with this chapter. thank you!!

sally barter

I’m not crying! I love this, just ordered the Hellp Desk tumbler! I love it!

Trish Ramey

Well, nothing like waking up to read and have a good cry. I get to the end of every chapter and wish there was more. Wonderful job as always. I definitely think you did Sharkie justice. Would LOVE to know what Lucifer said to her.

Rin Deal

Crying laughing GREAT JUSTICE and bel and lily officially just became parents

_jackieeeee

The memory of Sharkie's mom tore me to pieces. That makes those parts of Hell's Belles that much more bitter sweet. You are doing amazing & did Sharkie justice❤️

Embeth Arreyn

I keep reading the chapter over, trying not to cry at work. Because I have an 11 year old son who loves sharks. When he was a baby, he had a bear onesie, and I've called him Bear ever since. Which is relevant because I got him a shower curtain for his window, bc it had a cooler pattern than normal curtains: a bear riding a shark on a huge wave. And now all I can picture is little Sharkie coming to live with us, getting the top bunk in Bear's room, seeing the curtain as soon as they walk into the room and me having to explain the dynamic duo of Bear and Shark: the apex predators. The night light I got for my son, now for both of them, that projects an image of a school of sharks onto the ceiling that rotates slowly. Being able to cuddle up with the giant shark plushie we have (his name is Sharky Malarky) and binge Discovery+ shows. And now I'm literally tearing up at work singing "Bear and Shark do do do do do do" (to the tune of Baby Shark) in my head, imagining making them roll their eyes at me by singing it all the time, and then singing increasingly frantically when I let them chase me out of the room like the feral predator creatures they are... so yeah. Thank you for breaking my WHOLE heart with this tiny fierce creature who's a perfect fit for our family but I can't adopt them because they're not a real person 💔 My husband and I can't foster in real life until we get our finances in better order... but I'm going to start looking into it. We've talked about it a lot... we need to get our lives together a bit more, but it's not too soon to start doing footwork. There are real babies out there like Sharkie who need love. Thank you for the push.

Kat 💜

Oh, sweet little Sharkie. My heart breaks for her 💔 I'm so proud of Bel for standing up to Lily and letting her know how amazing a Mom she'll be for Sharkie. And watching Lily and Bel fall more and more in love with each other is exactly what we all need. And, love, please stop apologizing to us! You take care of YOU. You can't apologize when life happens. We ALL live it everyday and we'll always be here. We love you... and we mean it 💜

Robin Reed

Though I’m sure it was a private conversation, I hope we get some snips of what Luci says to Sharkie. This just ripped my heart to shreds. Poor Sharkie 😞💜

AD

Oh dammm. This chapter …. was just amazing. I am lucky to never having known the kind of abuse you capture here, but it sure as hell looks like you did it more than justice. My heart simultaneously broke and was enraged at the fact that there are children who suffer this (and sadly much worse) and that there are grown ass adults who see nothing wrong in treating them that way. Lily is going to be an amazing mom (and Bel as dad is going to be the bomb). You’ve captured Lily’s voice so well. And you’ve proved to me again that no matter how good video is, the written word is even more powerful. I can’t wait to find out what Luci and Sharkie talked about and pray to one day read chapters covering - in very good detail - how that pastor and foster mom are treated on arrival to Hell. Pardon me as I go sit in the corner with my support bear and have a good cry over how we’ve failed (collectively) to make life better for our kids “than we ourselves received.”

Kimberly Griggs

Oh my goodness… my heart broke for Sharkie and I wanted to strangle the bad foster monster all over again. I love how sweet Bel was and that he just knew what Lily would have done to Lucifer if he did something to Sharkie. I am so enjoying this and love how much time and effort you show with each posting. 💜💜💜

Wolfie

her real name is Wicked Bitch of the West. Gods, I love Judy

Gabriel Hoffman

For other writing or videos, I’d love to see some more of the old big shovel gardening again. If you wanted to branch out some.

Juliana

I read this at 1 in the morning trying desperately not to wake up my roommates. I was already willing to fight to the death for sharkie before but oh my gods after reading this my heart is so broken for them. I'm so happy they get to be the embodiment of feral joy they are in the present. Genuinely thank you for sharing these stories. <3

Krysta Hurley

Aweee i love sharkie!! And this was so well written! The relationships being so strong in an instant of sharkie and lily then the push and pull between bel and lilly making it so lovingly frustrating you just want them to be a thing already lol just absolutely love it 💕

Thornblade

Okay, this was beautifully written but füq... It's been a long time since I've had to stop reading something for a minute. That says a lot about your writing and not in a bad way. I stopped out of anger. Partially due to how well Hell's Belles is done that the prequel to the Sharkie we know in love tells me that everyone was too nice when foster monster showed up. Then partially because I have friends that have shared parts of their pasts with me and have heard similar pieces of this (not all). All that to say, beautifully written and you have an amazing talent, thank you for sharing it with the world. ❤️

AmazonV

This was amazing, I cried. Thank you for writing this.

Jillian Leathers

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🦈🦈🦈

Gary L Helmers

This had me in tears several times. I am in love with your vision of the afterlife. I loved the telling of Sharkies story here, it both tears me up and motivates me about the human spirit. Anyone who treats a child the way they were treated deserves to suffer forever. The caring that Lily, Bel and Luci show here is marvelous and should be the model of how we all deal with children.

Shay

So crying at my job to your work is just a thing at this point. Like my coworkers don't even blink about it anymore. This was AMAZING, Jaysea! The hug in the elevator is something I feel like we have all needed in our lives. I want so badly to hug baby Sharkie! She has the best mom in all the universes on her side. ❤️

Stuart Grosse

As a writer, this story is just perfect. Keep it going!

Jessica Tanner

You never fail to disappoint with your storytelling. I was getting irritated that I had to keep interrupting reading to do my job as I work at a call center (from home thankfully) but now I am thankful. This chapter had me crying like a baby more than the others. As much as I wish to adopt baby Sharkie she got the best mom with Lilly. Can't wait for the next chapter 😎

Phil Mangefrida

Anyone else feel the need to go to a certain pocket dimension. I’ll bring the sharpened hockey stick and exploding hockey pucks. I’ll drive the bus but y’all gonna have to bring your own weapons.

Peter Psareas

I love your stuff and look forward to it. I’d love it if you wrote a chapter a day. That said, you are not an imposter. You are a creative wonder. Millions of people see your stories and love them. Don’t rush creativity. Go at your pace. We will love it today, tomorrow, next month whenever we get it

Kat Waterflame

Small typo on page 15: it says "paren’t" instead of "parent"

Wildfyr69

So let me just say that the next time the "Imposter Monster" shows up, just holler and I'll drive up the freeway quicker than you can put on one of your crowns and kick it's cowardly bitch-ass! Jaysea, you are an AMAZING creator. You just handled a very difficult topic in a way that didn't glorify the bad details, but did give enough information for anyone to understand how horribly hurt children can become when they are being "disciplined" for being who they are inside their beautiful little souls. You pour your heart and soul into your writing, just like any talented author and it shows. I can't wait until these chapters become a book so I can buy a first run (with author signature, of course!) and tell my grandkids that I read Jaysea before she became famous!

Ellie

Well done. You are an exceptional wordsmith!

Kelly Jackson

I’m a picky bitch, but three sentences into your first chapter, I set the pen down and read for pleasure. You’ve chosen/created hugely complex characters, and that’s one of the reasons we all love them so much. You worry because you have high standards for yourself…and you’re hitting those heights. Worry, because it keeps you sharp. Have confidence, because you are quickly becoming a master craftsman.

Briana

Sharkie's backstory rips my heart out every time we get hints in the videos, but I'm excited to see them grow into the fierce person they've become!

Laura Rennhack

I just about started crying over Shakie's backstory!! I love how you approached it so well.

Phil Mangefrida

“Drag them down to level 9 by their eyeballs” LOVE IT!!

Jim Brady

Great story, love seeing how it all began

Artwish

About to cry at work. Thank you 😭😭😭

Krystle

Oh, this chapter did things to my heart.

Ivy Lyn

JAYSEA. My heart 😭😭😭😭 sweet Sharkie…I am loving the slow burn of Bel and Lily

KaeLee Newton

FYI this does not have the ForWhomTheBelleTolls tag. So I finished 12 and went to 14 and knew 14 couldn’t be the next chapter by the opening. So excited to read this!

Nick

Finally catching up. If you'll excuse me, I need a tissue... My eyes seem to be leaking... And then onto Chapter 14. It's midnight, and I have work, but I'll sleep when I'm dead

Keith Frederick

So good. Seriously, I’ve read the whole series in the last two days and you’ve grown leaps and bounds as a writer. From the videos, I knew you were a storyteller, but it’s difficult to transfer ideas to page. (12 years of newspaper writing and longer of writing fan fiction here.) Keep it up!

Jordan Yeager

Hey I hope you see this! Can you please add chapter 13 to the FWTBT tab so it’s easier to find when I’m rereading them! It’s easy now but I’m already picture in the future it will be hard to find! Absolutely in love with your work!!

Guipago Mailand

I'm not bawling, you're bawling. I love this world you've created and the stories you tell <3

Katy

😭 I love you

Felicity Shields

I'm bawling. And I love it. You are a master. I will buy the shit out of this when you publish.

Felicity Shields

And the ONLY error I spotted was "pitched a pit" where I *think * you meant "fit"

Grace

omg sharkie I literally couldn't stop crying by the time the second page ended

Ninjaman775

This chapter had me sobbing. You did such an amazing job writing this.

Cassie Tudor

Holy shot did I bawl! My Parents did foster care and the amount of bullshit that happened to the kids that came into our broke my heart. I know it’s a thing that happens but reading it and reading the worst on paper struck a nerve I didn’t know was there. I think thank you shed light on something so real and you did it so well.

Kat

😭Googling all shark facts in solidarity.❤️❤️❤️

Rebekah Neal

Went to the aquarium today. Made me think of Sharkie. Even got an emotional support shark un their honor. 🦈

Samantha Pare

I didn't think I could love Bel any more than I already did from the tiktoks... but this just made my cry. Also Luci has my heartstrings as well.

BaconVader

I thought the comic by @goblingrimm1 was tear jerking enough about Sharkie’s origin and connection to Luci was tear jerking. But this brought tears of pain, sadness, anger, and absolute rage. Sad for Sharkie, but blind murderous rage for those who hurt our beloved feral avenger for her short 9 years in the mortal world and those who truly exist in the world today. Personally believe there should be a lower level in hell…maybe a level 12 or 50…for these monsters. Well written.

BaconVader

Sharkie May be our feral inner child made visible in the Hells Belles series, but that avenger status came from somewhere. Her story is a lesson is that sometimes the worst monsters this world has hides their evil behind closed doors. People who use a false image of faith to justify their evil. I will admit that I am a Christian, and I am ashamed by those who use Christianity to promote hate. Are there things I feel go against my faith…yes. But to use that as attack instead of living within the tenants of my faith is wrong. There are actions I cannot condone, but to do this with an attitude of hate is wrong. I have seen people falsely use faith to justify violence, hatred, and self righteousness. They will see hell and maybe meet Greg in person. But a true person of faith lives to bring love and show how lives can be transformed. I believe in justice, but also believe in the price paid for me. I am sorry for what self-righteous idiots did and said to promote trauma. On behalf of my faith, I am so sorry.