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For Whom the Belle Tolls - Chapter 26. Vulnerability (Patreon)

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I've rewritten this three times in two days, and I can feel myself overthinking it more and more. 

I broke it where I did so that the folks who get squicked out by... Lily and Bel type activities won't have to be so vigilant. 

As always, I look forward to your comments, and welcome your helpful criticism! 

Thank you for your patience. 

Comments

Daniel

Bedtime reading material 🤠, looking forward to it as always!

Phil Mangefrida

Stop. Breathe. Wine. Oreo. It’ll be fine. Haven’t even read it yet. Trust yourself. Trust the force and remember, There can be only one. Sorry I’ve had shoulder surgery and on wicked awesome pain meds. Making me loopy. Thanks Miss Jaysee for all you do.

Jesse Riska

Damn Jaysee i am so glad they finally said it

Alexis Crespo

Just finished making my dinner. Perfect to go with. Thanks Jaysea

Lori Wellborn

So sweet, and I’m thrilled to finally find out who Bel’s dad was, and what happened to him. Can’t wait to see them finally get to the smutty bits!!

Elle

Guess I’m done with everything else for the next 20 minutes. 😂 so excited to read this!!!

Syd San99

Can i just say......your work brings me to tears....I have never been one to enjoy things that make me cry but your writing is so beautiful.

Rin Deal

Now I’m crying thanks Jaysea. Also SAMUEL?! THE SAMUEL?! IS BEL’S FATHER?!

Kat

You made me cry again. You get me every time with the feelings. You are so good at relaying emotions. I want to tell this early version of Bel and Lily that it gets better and works out. It is not perfect, but you get forever together. Thank you for this!! 🥹🥹🥹❤️❤️

Ginny susi

I'm crying and a little horny now. It's a weird combo.

Makayla

Amazing as always I love that we are getting to know bel a lot better.

Kat 💜

No comment on this chapter is, nor will ever be, sufficient. My heart both broke and healed in 15 pages. Damn. 💜

Kassie

I LOVE LOVE LOVE your writing!!!!! You can make someone feel so much emotion in just a few pages!

Basil

this is so fucking amazing!!!! also if your willing to write it a spicy 26.5 chapter would definitely be appreciated 🩷

Ann Sullivan

😭😭😍😍 Never before have I wanted to hug a fictional character this hard. Love your work.

Luraa Lack

Wonderfully as always!!

Peter Psareas

Wow. Superb. You are so good. I absolutely love this story. I hope we get Bel’s reaction to Lily’s file next. I don’t know what to say except holy shit. Please never stop writing. Imma go cry now. Or more truthfully cry some more

Emily Bowersox

Spicy version? Please? Beautiful work as always💖

HillArias

The feels, the heat, and the love! Such a great chapter!!!

JustSurvibing

😭😭😭😭 but also...hot damn...

Kate C

I cried and then I had to fan myself, damn!!

Jackie

Oh crud, I have no words. It was fan-freaking-tasting!

Samantha Johnson

Here I am wearing a grin of anticipation wiping away tears and then there are no more pages! You cruel cruel lady...do it again :)

Carrie Brooks

My pre-read checklist was too short: ✔️ Tissues ✔️ Icecream Should’ve added a cold shower as well! But my gosh, do I ever love those two and their world. Sometimes it helps some of the holes in my heart not feel as huge. 🥺 You are a wonder, Jaysea.

Kaylie

Damn girl… Amazing chapter! They are all great but this one took it to the next level. The fact that a soul heading to The Void started this off is just brilliant. Absolutely speechless over here. ❤️

Alexis Crespo

Freaking fantastic. So glad to finally get the backstory on Bel's dad. Been waiting for that since the hot tub story lol. Can't wait for the next one

Ellie

Thanks for taking my imagination away from my hospital bed for a bit! This was lovely and well done!

Thomas Forrest

ABSOLUTE PERFECTION! Never did I ever think that this prequel would have me absolutely gushing, bawling my eyes out, and absolutely yearning for love and lust all in of itself, let alone ALL IN THE SAME FUCKING CHAPTER! This is by far my favorite chapter, and my favorite read! I will continue to read every single word, watch every single video, and absorb absolutely every bit of content you produce, create, and release. Thank you doesn’t even begin to cover it, but it is all that I can express in comparison. Thank you. Truly. For everything.

Jenny Shaw

I'm just speechless and all kerflempt. Your writing just keeps getting better and better. I get why you stopped there, but seriously?! Oof. My hubby's going to be happy with you tonight. Collateral sexy times are a thing. :)

Aj Holder

This chapter was EVERYTHING! I loved finding out who bels dad was, so happy they said I love you, I cried so much! If there were any errors I didn’t notice. But next chapter is going to be sooo good!!

Cra-Terra Barnett

OMG, that was incredible, I didn't know what expect. I was just as nervous as Bel for a minute there. Bel's story, I felt for him. The fun loving guy we get in the videos has come so far and I love it.

Arminda Gray

Not me bawling for sweet Bel and then giggling less than a minute later 🥰😂 you really are the best at bringing these *amazing* characters to life while also giving me things to address in therapy!

Belle

I’m CRYING AND SMILING AND SO BEYOND EXCITED FOR WHATS NEXT AND I WILL BE FOREVER GRATEFUL THAT YOU POPPED UP ON MY PAGE 2 YEARS AGO BC I NOW I HAVE A NEW FAVORITE AUTHOR THANK YOU

Arminda Gray
>>111026565

I’m living vicariously through these characters; I don’t know about the rest of y’all.

Ashley Poindexter

I had a feeling that what happened to his father. Nothing else made sense to me. I’m glad to know I was finally right about something. Lol. I’m dying for the spicy spice next chapter. I am Also dying to read Bel’s reaction to Lily’s story. Regardless, you broke my heart and repaired it in 15 glorious pages. I pray to what ever deity listens that you never quit writing, Jaysea. It’s a gift to us all, and I hope I can one day meet you to thank you in person for these characters, Lily and Sharkie especially. I also have my own personal head canon that IF Bel ever decides he’s ready for the void, that he and Lily go together. It just makes sense to me that Lily refuses to continue another day without him. I know in a previous HB ep or chapter (my brain is foggy on which it was) that Lily mentioned she’d ensure sharkie’s wellbeing & go to the void if he ever died in battle, but I just see them meeting that fate together as soulmates tend to do.

Embeth Arreyn

I had to stop, info dump the story so far on my husband, and then read it aloud to him. I've never done that with a book before. Well done ❤️

Embeth Arreyn
>>111027108

PS, he says I'm adorable and wants to know more, so I guess now I have to read him the book from the beginning and get him just as hooked as I am

Tiffany Nolan

All the feels in one chapter! You are amazing at what you do in telling a story whether it be the typed words of this story or in your episodes of HB, you are amazing dear.

Xypher SkotI

Omg I loved it, it was perfect and I cant wait for her to have the whole stay (living in the afterlife thing)

C Williams

I am torn between applause and having you arrested for cruel and unusual punishment. I did love it. It was a pre therapy session for this week, and I loved the vulnerability you are able to incorporate and make the audience feel. 2 very enthusiastic thumbs up.

Hannah Kuracina

Awww, I just want to give Bel a big hug. Also impatiently patiently waiting for the next chapter

DndGoblin

I love it ❤️

La Yuca Mala

Love the sweet moment turned horny 🤣🤣

Krysta Hurley

I am 16 weeks pregnant and this has sparked every emotion in me lol weeping one moment and holy shit its happening the next 💕 always a pleasure to ready a new chapter 🥰

Emily Anderson

I loved this so much I do not have words. But you are a cruel sadistic woman to end it there. I’m dying here!!!!! I need the smut! Especially after all that feels goodness!!!!!! It’s gonna get SPICY!!!!! Like burn your tongue, throat and asshole spicy and I CAN NOT wait!!!!!

Keith Frederick

Awesome. I wasn’t sure how you were going to make the two of them confess their love and have it hit hard, considering we’ve seen so much of their relationship in your videos. But there is so much emotional punch here. It’s very impressive. And if the next chapter is just smut, I am totally here for it. In fact, considering how well you write the teasing and the sexiness of these two, I’ve actually found myself wondering about the spicy books you like so much. Maybe something I need to take a look at?

Amanda Carr

OMG!! Such a roller coaster of emotion in this one! Very well done. However, reading this one chapter at a time is killing me 😂 I feel like that roller coaster brought me to the very top of a huge hill and is just dangling me over the edge but I have to wait and die from anticipation to be dropped aka. Read the steamiest spice scene ever I hope lmao.

?Eli?

Loved everything about this chapter!!! You did a great job and it was definitely worth the wait!

Sorkabeth

Amazing. Absolutely worth the number of tissues I went through! I may have more thoughts after I reread it tomorrow, when it's not well after midnight & I'm less tired, but I wanted to rave about how much I *loved* the chapter just a bit before I fall asleep. I hope you get to have a good night's sleep too, you deserve it!

Sorkabeth

Oh! Have you considered having the spicier parts be in a different font, so those who are more like Sharkie than me (I'm also Ace, but much less repulsed.) can easily skip those parts without you having to leave them out or cut things in places you might not have otherwise?

Mortan

I may not have been crying before but i certainly am now. Great chapter. So wholesome.

Robin Reed

Have to say, having lost my dad (Leukemia), this chapter hits different (not in a bad way). May have had some water leak out of my eyeballs.

Van Brewer

I think I get why you fretted about the writing of this one - this is a really intimate, complex set of emotions and emotional relationships to navigate. What you did, IMHO, turned out to be a really impeccable piece of writing. Being physically naked in front of another person is nothing compared to getting rid of one’s mental armor and emotional walls. This is the type of culminating moment all of your world building and character development deserves and needs. Also complements on your typically very thorough research. Samael, or “Venom of God”, also called “prince of satans”, was The original dispenser of judgment. Also: a very sensitive treatment of end-of-life decisions, actually lol’d at the universe sending a small mirror, and great choice to let us imagine what goes on behind locked doors (but it will sure be fun to read about it). Finally, it’s great (and wise) to worry about your commitment to the fans, but this reiterates that you should trust your judgment – you are your own worst critic, and when you think it’s ready to yeet it always has been. Thanks for yet another great read!

Kristiane Laucht

I....have no words. Congratulations Jaysea, you have rendered me speechless.

Alian Kasabian

I love that soul as the vehicle! Unfortunately, I read this chapter with the silence of the lambs in the background. 0/10, do not recommend.(great chapter tho)

Juliana

absolutely without a doubt the best chapter yet. your writing never fails to absolutely blow me away but this was just incredible

jessiee

it’s been a long time since i commented. i’ve been not great in myself with treatment and all that shizzle. I’ve been rewatching Hells Belles to cheer me up when i can manage and not reading as i couldn’t manage it. i’ve just read the past few chapters and couldn’t wait to get onto the next to leave a comment. but this is beautifully written in a way i can’t even fully explain. It’s wonderful. The emotional connection and vulnerability between them is powerful and so eloquently written. I do crave something steamily written from this scene where you left us. But completely understand if that’s not what you want to write. you’ve made one rather unwell person very very happy and ready to face the next few days of hellish treatment in this hospital. I’m so happy to have found this TikTok series and your amazing work on here of the prequel to all of this. It makes me smile and my face ache from smiling. It makes me cry at the sadder vulnerable moments. But most of all it makes me feel human that can feel emotional to read something so fabulously written. Thank you so much Jaysea, for another wonderful chapter and piece of writing ♥️

Leia Wilson

OMG I LOVE YOUR WORK!!!! Masterpiece as always!!!

Caz

Well, I used 3 hankies because I was crying that much, well done, fantastic chapter as always.

Rose Deleon

I practically jump for joy when there is an update!!!! Scared the shit out of my fiancee when this one came through. Please please please update soon. I am dying here

Helena Wigforss

I loved this! So Bel is a Lilim? I dig that! 🥰 don’t leave us with that huge cliffhanger!! Update soon!

Mariya Shahin

i’ve been so curious as to how Lily finds out how to stay in the afterlife and also Bel’s dad and you gave both in the same chapter!!! I love your writing and I got hit with a wave of emotions waiting for my train to arrive 💀

FreyjaBlight13

What an awesome chapter! You write so well! I love when A book can have all of my attention. This book certainly does that! I am so glad I get to cheer you on in this journey!

Anjuli
>>111030084

I second this idea. I’m more like Sharkie. It would be nice to know which parts to skip. But your chapter introductions are great, letting me know that there might be places I want to skip

Anjuli

Loved it. And thanks for breaking up the spicyness. I’m Ace and sex repulsed (like Sharkie). Though I’m sure other people must enjoy the smut.

Juniper Damon

As always, I’m excited whenever I get a notification that you’ve posted a new chapter and this time was no different. I’ve been so curious as to what happened to Bel’s dad and I’m so glad we got to delve deeper into his backstory. I love that giant cinnamon roll so much I’m so happy that he has Lily

Claudia

I am so stunned eith how well you made this unreveling go. I pray for a full smut chapter, but I cannot express enough how your writing is TOP TIER. Your character development is next level and adding the ancient soul as the trigger to Lily's eventual decision to forfeit was beautifully executed.

Autielin_the_witch

I am dying for the next chapter. I’m looking forward to so much to come. How Lily finds out she can stay and have a family with Bel. When sharkies pastor comes through or when the guy who assaulted Lily shows up. And maybe some background on Penny and Greg. I love this universe that you created so much. I can’t wait for more. You’re awesome! Keep being awesome!!

Elizabeth Werstein

This chapter was beautiful ❤️ Your writing is always stunning, but the vulnerability in this chapter is written so beautifully I cried. You’ve done a wonderful job and should be proud.

Teos

Teary eyed with a big ol smile. Excellent as always!

Sean

I loved the parallel between the ancient soul and Bel’s father! Wonderfully written as always!

Kat

👀 oh hell yeah

Kat 💜

OH! I'm so sorry, I almost missed it!! *clears throat* She mentioned Greg! That's all. Carry on...

Jessica Snyder

Even though I already know what’s going to happen ultimately, I was still so anxious for Lily and Bel. My heart was racing. Loved this chapter!

Jes Land

Oooooo so good! I can't wait for the next chapter!

Ben Preheim

Ooo...good chapter! Lily calling Bel all of his different names/nicknames/titles was probably my favorite. I can definitely relate to the staying-up-all-night-knowing-the-hammer-came-down Oh the slow burn! and that ending...what is she planning?! (Spoilers for anyone who hasn't read the chapter yet) Did they actually share their most vulnerable parts though? Bel never actually read the file (unless I missed something). They both dropped the L-word, and we learned Bel's secret, but it feels like there should have been more on Lily's side. More pushback. It doesn't have to be multi-paragraphs like Bel's was, just, something. What's in the file that she's the most scared he'd find? I was re-watching the ep the other day on how Lily lashed out and hurt other people when she was younger. Page 12, it's "clear conscience" instead of "conscious"

Eldritch_Spook

I admit fully with my chest I cried reading this! I love it so much!

John Baudry

If we got, as you say squicked, we most likely would not be here but I might be wrong.

Robert Waldbauer, aka Professor Greenman

Well... Damn! If Hell is actually anything like what you write, I want to join the line to sign up for working the Hellp Desk! The thought of possibly finding an (Actual) Soulmate makes this Hell seem Heavenly!

Erika McMichael

Ok but pleeeaaassseee write out their first time cause hello! We are ALL here for it!!!

Carrie Brooks
>>111028907

She’s got a book rec pinned at the top of her page, and link to a book spreadsheet in her bio!

Audrey

I feel like you are raising my standards for relationship way too high ! 😂 also going from tears to hot flash in less than 15 pages is quite the experience ! Congrats you did them both justice ❤️

Karen Wright

Even though I know they're married, my heart still ached and I teared up when Bel said no. And then giggled like a teen when she locked the door. Excellent chapter.

Ben Preheim
>>111064868

I kept thinking about this chapter and my thoughts all afternoon and I wanted to amend/clarify that I don't think Lily 'owes' us part of her tragic backstory, and keeping that part the way it is works just fine. It's wonderful of Bel to turn it down and not care what's in it. but the "they told each other the most vulnerable parts" bit in his narration was jarring as a result and took me out of it. "tell" more than "show" - I'd emphasize the weight lifted from Bel's shoulders about his dad, rather than imposing the plural 'they' on Lily as well.

William Lynds

I know you didn't mean to set the ninjas loose on the onion factory, but this was a major kick straight to the feels for me for three big reasons, Kyle, Joey, and Chris. All friends, fellow veterans, and Brothers. All lost by their own hands. I myself almost joined the ranks of the more than 22 veterans who commit suicide everyday in the U.S. Sometimes you think the best thing to do for your family is to leave it, it's a dark and terrifying place to be in your mind. You signed up to protect against the monsters, only to find that, in order to beat them, you have to become a little monstrous yourself. Coming home to your family, they see the change in you and sometimes you feel, they're afraid of you. I know exactly how Bel's father felt, and I know how Bel feels now.

Rachel Davis

This is the SLOWEST burn....it's killing me!!!!! I'm LIVING for it!!!!!

Peter Psareas
>>111097496

Thanks. I was a judge in a vets court before retiring. Still have some contacts. Would love to help if you need it

Campertrash
>>111030084

I also motion that two versions can be uploaded. One with the extra spice, one without.

Veronica Gordon

So glad I finished this before my phone went flat! Was NOT expecting the, as previously stated, ninjas in the onion factory but it explains SSSSOOO much. I love your writing ❤️

Scarlett_loves_Loki

I think you were right to send this out. It's great and you probably were overthinking it. It's so easy to do with your own work. (I do it all the time.)

Bryce Maryott

Have you figured out how many chapters this is going to be?

Alice

I have had the most stressful weekend ever, and I am grateful for you. My cat is currently being hospitalized and money and the rest of life is scary right now, but having this chapter I've been waiting for and looking forward to has helped. Vader is pretty stable now and if all goes well we can bring him home tomorrow. I love Lily and Bel, and reading this was just what I needed after everything. So thank you

Jackie Costa

Absolutely fantastic as always!! I love your writing and this series so so much! My only critique is that Lily still hasn’t shared what in her past has her thinking she’s unworthy. She says she's concerned about being too much but why? She offered to let Bel see her file and see everything about her mortal life but he said no. I feel like she still needs to have that conversation with him. We know Bel’s deepest wound, but what is hers? She has these beautiful internal dialogues and self realizations but that doesn’t always translate to having those conversations with Bel. She’s still feels like a bit of a closed clam.

Peter Psareas
>>111097496

Not a probate lawyer but know some. What’s the question and what state is the estate in

Van Brewer

I think I realized something today — did Bel ever read the letter from his father?? If not, that opens up a bunch of possibilities for further gut wrenching emotional investment. With much joy.

Jennie

I am in awe. I love that they were both vulnerable. Lily may not have gotten the chance to open up, but I think bel telling her no matter what happened in her past, he loves her was beautiful. Sometimes being through all that trauma, you feel like you owe it to the other person to explain everything you’ve been through so they have a chance to walk away before you get hurt. But the fact that she didn’t HAVE to do that with bel was perfect. It gives me hope for a future person who will give me the same type of love I will give them 🥰 also, to anyone saying your expectations of relationships is being raised, today’s “typical relationship” is BARE FUCKING MINIMUM! You deserve to find your Lily or Bel ❤️

Tina

Love love love! There’s nothing more for me to say

Leslie Hoggan

Well the tissues are a damp ball in the rubbish bin and the empty wine bottle is in the recycling bin but as always you've also put a smile on my face.

Leslie Hoggan
>>111241356

If your interested the wine was a very nice South Australian McClaren Vale Shiraz, I can highly recommend and not just because I'm a proud Aussie.

Nicole Mixell

You owe me a box of tissues... loved it so much. As always cant wait for more

Kyllisha

Ok i went from tears to blushing like ma'am way to give me whiplash emotionally.

Carrie Brooks
>>111028907

The Anchor and Aspect series (Ruby Dixon?) has wonderful character and world building with a slow burn that will give you plenty of time to decide about the spicy parts. Might be a good one to start with?

Cassie Tudor

Well that was a roller coaster! I love this!!!

Kali Chamberlain

I knew something was up with Bel dad but I had no idea it was that OMG! The emotional rollercoaster! But I love it!

Jared

Both Lily a Bel’s own perspective of their own situations was brilliant

Anthea ✨

Christ that was some emotional whiplash 💀

Daysi

So beautifully written! I am crying and laughing!!

Sienna

I was reading this befor work balling my eyes out

Peter Psareas
>>111097496

I truly apologize I didn’t see this until today. I’m rereading chapters and comments. My email is psareas5557@gmail.com. If I don’t know the answer I will find out. I practiced in Arizona