Taking a Break until September 1st (Patreon)

Hey y'all, I've been having a bit of a mental health episode. Alongside being very nearly broke I've been struggling with very dark thoughts, depressive and anxious bouts, and increasing isolation and loneliness. I continuously try to distract myself and I fear that may soon lead to overuse of alcohol/weed if I am not careful (it already has a bit). I've also been feeling constant stress, sadness, and guilt in relating to content creation, and my managers have told me to take the rest of the month off and try to not think about making videos at all until September 1st. Thanks to their help I should have enough money to last until then, and once I'm back I hope to build a healthier and stable relationship with making videos. I want to do my best to give you guys content that entertains y'all and makes your days better, but I cannot do that until I am not in a severely unstable and depressed state. 

For the last year I've been trying to be stable enough to make content consistently but I fear that the guilt and anxiety of worrying about that near constantly has gotten to me. I know I say it a lot but I would not be able to do this for a living if it wasn't for your continued support and help, often overlooking my terrible consistency with perks and other Patreon content just because you want to prop up what I do. I cannot express enough gratitude for everything y'all have given me and I do not want to take it for granted (I fear my mind poison and fear and guilt surrounding content creation has made me jaded). Anywho, this is very temporary but I think I need it very badly. Thank you for reading this and I'll see y'all in a few weeks <3.

Sorry if this is repetitive or not phrased very well, I've just had a bit of a cry and my brain is all weird and also Ben Folds Five is playing?