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0 words today :[[[[

so i went into write today coming off somewhat steaming from a chat about how i am just Not appreciating my mother lately !!!!
i still haven't spoken to her since the bullshit back in february, but it turns out her garbage is the gift that keeps on garbling.
the perseid meteor shower mention was the fluffy coincidental part of the letters i found from her in the basement...
but the rest of it was.
ugh.
somehow, despite being contained on 8.5x11 sheets of paper, she found a way to condense a metric tonne of manipulation into it.
ink doesn't even weigh very much!!!

so anyway i'm mad and don't like her very much right now.
so what do we do with our unprocessed emotional friction?
that's right! put it in a video game!

so i went into write with that fervor and frustration.
what i came out with was 2+ hours after a deep dive into 15th century art history
turns out a lot of stuff Just Connects to what i was already working with.
#justWriterThings

anyway i do have a really solid outline for this sidestory now.
unlike the last one, this was something i was planning on in the first place as a vague concept, just now i have the details that i can write out properly.
i suspect it will be my focus in the next few days.
no one's allowed to judge me if i sneak a line or two from my mother's letters in there wholesale.
her words are like gold... if emotional manipulation were a valued substance, and also radioactive.

grrrrrrrrrrr.

anyway word count doesn't represent that i feel good about the work and structure we've laid out today. and it was fun.

cass: we're really cramming a lot of shit into these and i'm really trying to make sure people don't suffocate under it and the game is still fun ("fun") to play. we're probably looking for fascination rather than enjoyment. if you enjoy the game, seek therapy.