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This was supposed to post yesterday, but I got completely swept away by Eddie's story and needed one more evening to get it right.

Also... it's a trilogy now.

shocked pikachu face

I know, I know. What was supposed to be a two-part snapshot has grown into three because I went down a research rabbit hole and fell in love with these characters. Eddie deserves to have their full story told, and I couldn't rush it just to hit a target word count.

This installment is 9,700 words with 13 images. Fair warning: it definitely starts out as a war story - both external and internal. Port Moresby in 1943 was brutal, and Eddie's inner conflict is just as intense as what's happening around them. But by the end of Part 2, it becomes something different. Something I hope feels authentic to the time and the people living through it.

I've done so much research for this (which I love). I hope it reads as real, even though the characters themselves are fiction.

Thank you for your patience with the delay and with me turning a snapshot into something much bigger. Eddie grabbed me by the throat and won't let go.

Part 3 will wrap up his story. I promise. 💕

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Robertlouis

Very quickly Emory, because I’ve just speed read this episode, but I can say that it’s terrific, and to re-emphasise that this prose format really suits you and gives your style wings. And the story itself is such an exciting departure, a shift into a new, and, dare I say it, more mature and neo-realist form of writing. I think it’s brilliant, and Eddie’s development is incredibly well executed. xx

Gemma

You beautifully capture the emotional turmoil and struggle so many of us go through. The attempts to manage and suppressing of ongoing internal conflict. Set in a time in which what was experienced and desired was not even a possibility. I am so pleased that Walt remains as Eddie’s unfulfilled romantic interest. Sad and heartbreaking at times with the tantalising possibility of hope that engages the reader with the possibility that true love will find a way.

Ellen Mellor

That was heartbreaking and glorious. I'm in tears of sadness and happiness. You capture the dissociation, the just existing, of dysphoria, of having to suppress who you really are and having nothing to put in her place. I read this instalment with a growing sense of dread. It felt like there was only one way out for her and she was inching closer and closer to finally opening the latch. And then her discovery of the bar and sisterhood and acceptance. I grinned with the 'dress go spinny' picture. I know the joy of the freedom of a pretty dress and feeling like your clothes aren't constricting your soul any more. The pronoun change in the last section is perfect. It's subtle and yet tells us who she is. I loved it Walt's sudden appearance was a shock. Hopefully, it's a good one and he's come to take her away from all this. Maybe the 'final' part will be sweetness and light and totally non-traumatic with no problems at all. Maybe salmon will finally start to live in trees and eat pencils. It feels equally likely. Once again, the art is amazing. The stand out for me was the portrait of Christine Jorgensen. It look to be based on what she wore when she received the Woman of the Year award but in your own inimitable style. It's beautiful and I'm sure she would be honoured to be portrayed this way. I'm glad you took the time you needed to get the story right. I can't imagine how exhausting it must be producing this much work to this standard every week - multiple times a week. I can't think of anyone, not even who writes as their only full-time career, who does as much as this. You are an inspiration.

Zoe Storm

Emory how dare you make me fucking cry at work I'm lucky no one can see my face from where I'm sitting lol

Kris Greg

What a pretty story of loss & self-discovery. Ilike the fact that you're using Christine Jorgensen as a catalist for helping Eddie realize that change is possible. I'm looking forward to seeing How Eddie is able to heal.

Maggie Heels

Thank Goddess I read that this will be [at least] a trilogy... (maybe some sequels and prequels in mind??? It worked financially for Disney you know ;) ) ❣️❣️❣️

Jenny S

Ah, Christine, you legend. Not the first American to transition, but the first to get major media attention for it. While transphobes have always existed, the initial reaction to Jorgensen was a lot more positive than you would imagine now. We were at that atomic age, marveling at all these new post-war scientific advancements, and the medical science of "making a man into a woman" fit into that trend. It was only when it became clear that us trans people weren't a one-off novelty that it started to sour. I figured Jogensen would pop up, I love how this story has been using real history to explore trans women before transitioning became public knowledge, and my heart aches for our girl. I have struggled with my own gender identity, but I had the privilege of growing being able to research it, coming of age with the early internet (though some of it was actively unhelpful. Looking at you, COGIATI test). I cannot imagine the pain of being trans and living in a world where you don't know transitioning is even possible. How cold my life would be if I lived then. Going to Japan and hanging out in Shinjuku was a nice surprise! I'll admit to the 1950s LGBTQ scene in Japan is a bit of a research blind spot for me, and this story's got me looking up all sorts of history this morning. Thank you for this! A beautiful story of heartache and numbness, but also hope on the horizon. <3

SYJIS

EST CE QU IL Y A UNE PERSONNE POUR M 'AIDER a lire cette histoire en francais???

mdaily

I have literally been driven to tears by this story. i was born in 1955, so I am younger than Eddie but probably much closer to his age than most of your readers . My parents told me when I was a toddler that I was crazy and there was 'no such thing" and that i would be 'locked up". if i spoke of it. I recall my dad shouting I'll have the kid lobotimized!" I never knew for sure that i was not the only one in the world who felt as I did when I saw an article in Life magazine, 1968 or 69, about trans culture in NYC. We were SO isolated in those times, and Eddie was born in the 30's. It would have been worse for him. We were taught to bury ourselves so far inside! Emory, this is simply brilliant! I can show this to cis friends so that they have some small idea of what it felt like to be "us" in that era.

Claire

Everything you said is the same for me… only I was born in 1954.

M Fielding

I don't know I picked up on this previously, but wonderful use of color as a metaphor. The use of black and white or washed color for Eddie's (pun sorta unintentional) drab life and the sudden explosion of color as Eddie discovers something hopeful to them.. Five stars, Emory!

SynGirl

Voulez-vous une traduction?

Emory Ahlberg

Le fichier texte est joint afin que vous puissiez le traduire.

Crewchick

Emory, busy week, only getting to read part 2 at the start of the weekend. Like part one, the writing and artwork are absolutely phenomenal. Like so many others have comment you use of color and lighting are masterful. And the transitions between color and black and white offer a bit "Wizard of Oz" influence and perhaps even homage to the film, and it's star Judy Garland. The artwork is without question stunning, but I think your writing is what makes this story a powerful as it is. It is thoughtful and mature with an ease of flow, but also detailed and visualizable descriptions for the readers. Your characters are three-dimensional and relatable on a very human level.

SingularCurve

OMG Mention of one of our (spiritual) grandmothers!! Christine Jorgensen!! She was always thrown in my face when I was a child as a derisive "what not to do." Later I learned to be proud of our history and the women who came before us! Ill have to go back and actually read this again to get another run but just had to comment now.

SYJIS

oui Celeste j'apprécie une traduction Merci pour ca je suis désolé de mon niveau d" anglais

Crystal Peaches

Loving this. such a great story married with artwork that is evocative of the era and matches the story beautifully.

Pet Jeffery

I finished reading this episode in bed last night. I'm a slow reader, which has advantages and disadvantages. It helps when I'm trying to pick faults in my own writing. The episode brought up a lot of reactions, which mostly have more to do with me than with Eddie. But I suppose it's a good sign if something leads me to self-examination. It may seem strange but, until I read this, I had never heard of Christine Jorgensen. I don't know whether or not, in 1951, the story would have appeared in the newspaper my parents read. But I was only five years old at the time, too young to be aware of news stories. The first time I was aware of someone transitioning in that way was in 1976 and I was approaching thirty. I can't help wondering how different my life would have been had I been aware at a younger age. If my mental arithmetic is correct, Eddie would have been twenty-seven when he became aware of Christine Jorgensen. Anyway, I've been thinking about what awareness might have meant at various ages between five and twenty-seven. I already knew how it was, for me, a month or two shy of thirty. So, my thoughts (so far) have been more about me than about Eddie.

Claire

I love these personal discovery stories. I love the subtle shift when her pronoun changed. That internal shift. Can’t wait for part 3 and at the same time I don’t want it to end!

Sarah-Wade Smith

I just wanted to let you know how really much I am enjoying this story. I think it is one of the best you have ever done. And I appreciate your making one of The Last Straw's crew from Pittsburgh.

Tamsin Davis-Langley

Oh, Emory, this is breathtaking. I’m looking forward to the final installment with equal parts anticipation and dread.

Sunflower

So glad Eddie's story continues! This one is so moving, you just continually blow me away Emory. Thank you for bringing all of us such beauty.

Emory Ahlberg

Sunflower, you are too sweet! I'm so happy you're still loving the story. Bringing Eddie's journey to life has been both fun and heartbreaking for me. I mined a lot of my own dysphoria for some of it - but hearing that it moved you means so much. Thank you! 💕

Emory Ahlberg

Yeah, Tamsin, I totally get the dread part! 💕 The tension is definitely ramping up, but I promise I'll take good care of our girl. So glad you're hooked!

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Sarah! That is high praise. 😊 And of course I had to throw a little Pittsburgh representation in there for the crew! I grew up in Pennsylvania.

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Claire! That pronoun shift was my favorite part of the whole chapter! It just felt like the perfect moment for her to finally start claiming who she is inside. I'm going to miss her so much when it's over. 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Yeah, Pet, this is exactly why I love sharing stories! It is so cool that reading about Eddie made you look back on your own journey. The Christine Jorgensen news really was a massive deal back then, and it’s crazy to think about how different things could have been if the world was a little more open. 💕

Emory Ahlberg

Honestly, Crystal, combining the art with the story has been really a challenge. I really wanted everything to have authentic details so you really feel like you're right there in the 40s and 50s with her. So glad you're enjoying the whole package! 💕

Emory Ahlberg

Honnêtement, Lagarde, s'il te plaît, ne t'excuse pas pour ton anglais ! Je suis tout simplement incroyablement heureux que tu lises cette histoire. 💕

Emory Ahlberg

I had to include Christine! 💖She really is such an absolute icon. I just knew Eddie seeing her on the front page would totally break her brain in the best way possible.

Emory Ahlberg

Diana, you're making me blush! 😊 The whole black and white shifting to color thing just felt so right for her, like she really was stepping right into Oz! Knowing that Eddie and Walt feel like real, three-dimensional people is really gratifying because I channeled a lot into them. Thank you!

Emory Ahlberg

Hehe - He's a soldier and a painter!? Boylikers never stood a chance. 😉

Emory Ahlberg

Yeah, M! I really wanted her regular army life to feel super drab and gray, so when she finally gets to be herself, everything just explodes into full color. Thank you so much for the five stars! 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Honestly, mdaily and Claire, my heart... 🫂 It's so heartbreaking to think about how scary and isolating it was growing up back then, and I'm incredibly sorry you both had to deal with that kind of fear from the people who were supposed to protect you. Sending you both the biggest hugs ever! 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Yeah, Jenny, Christine is an absolute legend! It's so wild to think about how she was treated like this fascinating atomic age science marvel before the backlash really set in. And oh my gosh, don't even get me started on the early internet and that awful COGIATI test... what a wild / horrible time to figure yourself out. Researching the Shinjuku underground scene was so fun for me. Japan had this really vibrant, hidden world back then that a lot of people just don't know about. So glad it sent you down a fun history rabbit hole! 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Maggie, you are totally cracking me up! The "Last Straw Cinematic Universe" does have a nice ring to it, right? Put me on the phone with Disney! 😂

Emory Ahlberg

Kris, I'm so glad you enjoyed that moment! Christine just had to be the spark for Eddie. It's like seeing that newspaper article finally gave her permission to realize she wasn't just some isolated glitch in the universe. She needed that little push to realize happiness is actually an option. 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Sorry, Zoe! 💖 I definitely owe you a coffee or something to make up for ruining your makeup today lol

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Ellen! 💕 I put poor Eddie through the wringer so I definitely owed her a pure, joyful 'dress go spinny' moment in the bar! you know I can't resist a little bit of drama, but I promise Walt isn't there to make her life worse. 💕

Emory Ahlberg

Thank you, Gemma! It really is so heartbreaking to think about how many girls back then (and before) just had to suppress all those huge feelings because the world wasn't ready for them. Let's just cross our fingers and hope these two can finally figure their stuff out now that she's starting to bloom. 💖

Emory Ahlberg

Robert, you're going to make my head even bigger lol. It's super validating to hear that it's working and feels like a good fit. I was definitely a little nervous stepping out of my usual comfort zone. Thank you so much for speed-reading and taking the time to leave such a sweet note! 💕

mdaily

I was originally drawn to your page by the pretty pictures and cute/sexy captions, but you have truly evolved as a writer/storyteller. Your ability as a member of your generation (whatever that is) to put yourself in the world of boomers and pre-boomers is remarkable and kinda spot on. I met people 20 yrs older than myself who had been full time as female since their teens. Hard to imagine today

Pet Jeffery

I have no idea how my life might have shaped up differently had I been aware of Christine Jorgensen. But I was too young to notice the news stories of the time. As it is, I can date precisely the first news story of which I was aware, February 1st 1953. There had been severe flooding on the east coast of Britain and there were pictures in the paper of people on the roofs of their houses, the roofs being the only part of the buildings above the flood waters. I gathered, from my parents' conversation, that some of the flooding was only a few miles from where we lived. Any pictures of Christine Jorgensen, not long before, wouldn't have engaged my interest. They'd have been pictures of a woman, and I saw women every day. It was only the flood pictures that I noticed. I was old enough to read some words in fiction, but my reading vocabulary was small and, in any case, I had insufficient interest to bother with any words in newspapers. Something else occurs to me, the world was a lot less interconnected in the early 50s than it is now. The flood pictures that startled me probably didn't appear in many (any?) newspapers in the USA. "A massive deal back then" probably means "a massive deal in the USA". I wonder how the Christine Jorgensen story was covered in Britain. My guess is that it may not have been covered at all in the staid, family values, paper that my parents read. (Although it would surely have been covered in the more sensational Sunday papers, such as The News of the World and The People.)