🔞Feeling her emotions... (Patreon)

I've been trying to figure out how to approach the style of the SWFTD revamp and it has me stumped, but I have a clearer sense of how to approach the writing. I need to draw more and try things out without getting to hung up on it looking perfect. I think as long as the emotions I want to convey can come through the image, it will serve my vision and purpose well.Aside from trying to figure out the overall appearance of the manga, I've been doing a lot of writing lately to reconnect with my own emotions. People use the word "sensitivity" in a negative way often. They mean to say that you are unstable and not in control of your emotions, but that's just not how they work. You don't control your emotions. They manifest within you and all you can do is feel them or split off from them and try not to feel them out of survival. Sensitivity just means you feel your emotions deeply and you have access to them, but it's what people do afterwards that can be problematic. I think people often want to control others to avoid feeling certain emotions because it can be too painful. It's understandable, but not helpful with understanding yourself or understanding others.My problem in the past was that I suppressed my emotions for so long and tried to split off from it to the point where I became numb. I could not feel very many emotions at all except for negative ones like melancholy, rage, confusion, and anxiety. I've done so much journaling and I had a sort of mental breakdown. All the emotions came flooding out at once. Everything felt so intense, I cried a lot thinking about how sad it is that so many people are hurting and they don't even know why. I want to explore what I think is going on in the world, and in my opinion, most of it dates back to childhood. Fear of abandonment and death motivates so much of what we do.I was thinking in this NSFW scene, Grave and Ellie are experiencing their emotions much more intensely. I imagine a lot of people use sex to distract themselves from their pain, but it would be nice to bond sexually in a way that isn't just a method of coping with one's suffering.