Why the zine is late (Patreon)

the short version is: current events, basically. Content warning for discussing those events.

It's funny, because I aspire to be one of those pulp writers who churn out adventure stories, rather than some important literary author. A lot of my role models as an author are people who just treat writing like a job and just... just do it. Just write. I can do that, sometimes. Not always.Yesterday there was a racist mass shooter who identified with the right wing and a second misogynist mass shooter in another state who identified with the left. Today I'm wondering how I'm going to tie up Escape From Incel Island and in part it sounds so nice to just keep talking shit on this fucking absolutely horrorific ideology. But it's so hard to poke fun at it today. Today is fear and anger and sorrow.So then I think about how I need to write the piece that explains to people why misogyny is such a clear and fucking obvious problem on the left as well as the right. That points out it's not about this Ohio murderer being anti-trump, it's about how girls in his high school were scared of him. About how he murdered his sister. How he was able to enter leftist politics without addressing these things, because it's possible to have massive holes in your politics and still be accepted in leftist circles.And the idea of encapsulating that just shuts me down too. I wish I were better at either of those things: responding lightheartedly, or always being able to just put everything into words clearly for the world. Right now I can't.Basically, I'm a terrible sensitive artist type, and every time I try to force myself to not be, my art suffers and my mental health suffers, and I promise you that I will have the zine out soon. It might be the last installment of Incel Island, as was my plan, but if my brain can't resolve around that in time, I'll probably write some memoir. Either way, I hope you enjoy it. And thank you. Thank you thank you thank you.Both podcasts are on their way (my fiction one and my history one). I've been able to make progress on those.