Thank You (Patreon)
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I did see all the lovely messages and thank you for all being so kind and understanding. I don't want anyone here to stress - Patreon is the least of my concerns when it comes to comments. Everyone is incredibly kind.
YouTube is where I'll be stepping back the most comment wise on a temporary basis. I will also be doing that on Patreon too for a short while but more so to just get myself back into a healthier mindset!
As I said - no one needs to worry or fear that they are the reason why I feel the way I do. I have to stress that this is very much something I have to personally work on as perfectionism and anxiety are not new concepts to me. Like any mental health issue there are ups and downs that we must ride.
I think with how fast the channel has grown in the last year it's brought a lot of people into my small world and it's definitely an adjustment. I've never had so many people invested in me or my content before so it can be a tad overwhelming and I don't think I've ever really given myself the space to understand that not everyone is going to like / agree with me and that's not an attack ON ME or that I did something wrong.
Rather, that's just a fact of life.
I am very much that type of person that if someone doesn't like me I want to know why and try and fix it because I don't like knowing that people don't like me. I instantly blame myself rather than understanding that everyone is different. We won't always vibe or even share the same opinions or interpretations and that's okay. I just need to work through the fight or flight reaction that comes over me when it happens.
Again - this is very much a me problem so please leave comments and engage with one another. I will catch up on the comments when I work through my thought process!
On a more positive note I have been thinking about creating little Chat Rooms on Patreon for each series I am reacting to so that you can all engage and interact with each other. I will not be viewing those chats so no worry of spoilers. But I thought it might be nice to create a space for you all to speak with one another without worry of ruining anything for me.
Would that be something people would like?