Tatianna’s Journal Entry # 1 (Patreon)

But it’s good. It’s soft and warm and safe in a way I’m not used to.

Stephano and I finally did it. And I know it wasn’t just sex. It felt like something cracked open inside me—something I didn’t even know was locked shut.

And afterward, the way he held me? No rush. No turning cold. No weird shift in energy. Just… stillness. That calm that people talk about when they say they’re in love.

I’ve never had that before.

My past? It’s always been chaos. Highs that left me breathless, lows that made me question everything. I thought that’s just what love was—loud, messy, complicated. But this… this feels different.

And for the first time in a long time, I actually want something more.

But if I’m honest, there’s a knot in my chest. Because I know what I’ve done. Not just years ago, but recently.

It all feels too good.

To the hope that maybe, just maybe, I won’t ruin it this time.

-Tati