please Jeongguk, just choose me, I'm begging you (Patreon)

“Don’t you know I’m in love with you?”

Jimin asks, on the brink of tears.

Jeongguk’s eyes widen, and his world stops turning for a moment.

He’s never once thought about it. He never saw this coming. Jimin has been his best friend for years and he never once doubted their bond. He’s never noticed Jimin being in love with him. He never knew Jimin was even into men to begin with.

They don’t talk about things like that. It’s taboo to talk about things like that.

But Jimin is drunk and so so sad, and he’s still holding onto his hand around the soju bottle, waiting for an answer.

“I.. didn’t know.”

Jeongguk says, feeling like a complete idiot. He thought Jimin was distant because he just didn’t want to disrupt his time with his girlfriend. He thought it was all good between them.

He misread Jimin looking away whenever he was holding her hand as just politeness, never as jealousy.

“How- how long have you-“

“4 years.”

Jimin says, letting go of his hand, averting his gaze.

Oh.

Jeongguk feels his heart clench as he sees Jimin just stare at the ground, looking so empty.

“I’m.. I’m so sorry..”

That’s all he can really bring past his lips.

It’s true, his friendship with Jimin has always been closer than anything else. He’s shared everything with him, they’ve cuddled to sleep, laughed and cried together, made some amazing memories, but he’s never.. thought about it like that.

That it could mean something else to Jimin.

“I know you’re with her now, and I.. want to be happy for you but I’m so fucking sad. And I just wish it was me instead.”

Jimin covers his face, tries not to cry, but he sniffles and Jeongguk automatically caresses through his hair.

“Don’t- don’t do that. I can’t-“

Jimin chokes up a little, grabbing his wrist to stop him from touching his hair.

Fuck.

“I’m sorry I- I don’t know what to-“

“Just choose me.”

Jimin begs softly, looking at him through his watery eyes, cheeks wet with spent tears. Jeongguk doesn’t think he’s ever seen Jimin so sad before, and he can’t give him the response he wants. He can’t comfort him, for the first time in his life.

“Please Jeongguk, just choose me, I’m begging you.”