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MPL Ep 82 - High-Res Artwork + Discussion (Patreon)

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2021-10-23 01:01:00
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2021-11-16 09:46:29
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Picked this as a preview image because poppy looks so cute in here 🥺 I hope no one was too badly shaken 🙈 Let me know your thoughts! <33

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Sylvia

HOLY SHIT WAS SHE PREGNANT?

trunic

My girl 🥺🥺

Keely

Did Tora leave her or tell her something about Gil? Should have known Gil was even more messed up than I thought. I feel like like the toy being a Dino mentioned while Tora was there means something.

Rodi

Tfw you realize you’re crying as you get to the end of the episode

Kalyisah

Oh god I was STRESSED😰

Victoria Boris

I swear if fora walked away from our girl 🥺

Alyce Tarver

I am crying………….everything hurts and I’m dying

Leslie

I AM UNWELL. HOLY FUCK LILY YOU PACK A PUNCH WHEN YOU SWING. I will be in a ball in the corner. No one touch me.

Jaki

She's crying because Tora told her he had to leave to catch Gil because he is a conniving murdering fucktard right? Right?? 😭😭

ObstinateHeadstrongGirl

My heart hurts so much!! Gil’s baby he didn’t know about! Tora’s memories!! Him leaving to have to take care of business! Poppy crying!! So much sad! I’m gonna take some time before rereading.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Karyn Heisig

I’m already so sad for Tora, and our Poppy. I don’t know what Tora has said or didn’t say but this episode has me deep in my feelings. I know it’ll resolve itself Lily, but damn my heart hurts on that one 🥺

Jen Scully

I'm not crying 😭 your crying 😭

Yvonne padilla

“I I I’ll tickle ya” 🤣🤣🤣

Leanne DuPree

Omg, that was such a deep episode, on so many levels. 😭

EllieBear

Poppy!!! Why are you crying 😭😭😭😭?

Mater Portentum

Holy hell. That was a lot to process. I knew we couldn’t stay in the bubble of happiness and romance too much longer, but oooff. That hurt. Now I have to know what happened with Tora and Poppy!! Gah! The suspense!

Sarah

Excuse me? 😭 what

A

Wait what just happened? Did he leave her?

B00kie

LILY WHAT

comicbookwaifu

consider me heartbroken 💔😭 poppy’s crying face killed me

maggie

Lily, my feels. 🥺 This episode is so amazing and layered!

TicklemeAli

A gallon of tears for Mrs. Dusk coming right up!

CatW

What?? No. Why is she crying again?

Maria E.

DAMMIT I'M NOT OKAY

Shauna

Tora please not have done anything to send Poppy back to regression. Cause that sh*t is harder to come back from a second time.

Rachel LeeAnn

This one. Oof. This one was hard. Still such a great episode but, man. You DEFINITELY showed your dynamics today, lily!

Nordorr

She put up with those chin hairs and that's how he repays her? I hope we see him go down.

BegoniaRex

AAAAAHHH! GIL KILLED HIS WIFE AND UNBORN CHILD?!?! And what did Tora do to make Poppy cry?!?! GAAAAAAAHHH. (Love it as always FYI. Thanks for making Friday nights so damn exciting). But AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!

Alisha Thomas

Oh I see that what you did there Lily. Gave us all that cute shit to lead us to a false sense of security and then BAM. well played 😭😭😭

Amy 💕

Just read the episode and I’m so damn confused now! 🤦🏽‍♀️

V. J. Villamayor

This is a really interesting episode. Particularly at the end with Poppy crying. Poppy is a very understanding person and I'm currently struggling to remember the last time she cried in this story as an adult. I'm very curious to see what Tora said/did to her to make her cry.

Shauna

And Gil I wonder what his reaction is gonna be when Gil finds out his wife was preggers when he killed her....Or what Tora is gonna do to Gil when Tora finds out Gil killed his preggo wife....

Samantha Roberts

No no. I need answers. Did Tora say something impulsive and mean because he felt guilty? I mean unlikely, but that's a knee jerk reaction for a lot of people. How can Poppy come back from that when she just started to believe in herself because of him?

Kait Disney-Leugers

Well I’m going to go cry in the bathroom now. Good thing I started drinking before I read this episode.

Melissa Williams

Hooooooooly cow. My heart dropped the second she started talking to her stomach. Wow. Poppy I’m not happy that you’re upset but whatever is the reason, it’s probably justified if it means Tora going after Gil.

Kala

I. Am. Sad. Is basically how I responded to end of this episode. 😭

larosamorada

Holy hell 👀👀👀 I knew we were gonna pay for all the fluff we've had recently. But got damn! And if Poppy's crying like that, I gotta wonder what happened 🧐🧐. The font of those thoughts Tora was having...why do I feel like his "ugly" side is about to remind us he's grown up in the mafia? 👀👀👀

UghGabi

She's adorbs

VintageNerd

So did Gil know his wife was pregnant? Or did he not care and still killed her? Actually I bet he knew…..he kicked the toy……I think Gil is actually more dangerous than we thought……. Also Poppy is crying and I don’t like it….🥺unfortunately I think Tora has disappointed our girl by choosing work over their little date…..sadly his lifestyle already has him suspicious of everything which had him observing everything and being cautious not being able to be totally in the moment. And I Tora has a hard time going all in with public affection….he has to take baby steps. I wish he hugged her but, also Poppy is scared of receiving public affection as well or has to take baby steps.

LouCas27

Thanks for the warning, that was rough 😱. We know Gil committed an unspeakable act, but Holy Mother of God, that stuffed toy and what it represented had me 🤬😵‍💫😰😖. Like everyone, I can only speculate on the last image. Did Tora tell her “everything” as he told Quincey while in Moon Bright? Was it too much to handle? Did the awful truth/harsh reality just set in for our heroes? The plot thickens! 😳😳😳

Embo

Oof. This one hurts. Still amazing, but damn. My biggest worry is that Tora said something shitty to Poppy to push her away before leaving- the whole “I’m a shitty person so I’ll prove it so she doesn’t get close”. Those inner thoughts in the scary font might have taken over and his feelings for her got stuffed deep down. Ugghhhhhh my heart. Also, fucking fuck Gil you heartless bastard.

NurseLaura

Tora looks dead on the inside. Like he just cut out a piece of him. So I wonder if he laid it for Poppy or if he said something hurtful to cut things off with her. Ugh they are both so hurt

Mia

I'm really hoping this is just gonna be a misdirect. Like, it looks like Tora's probably pushed Poppy away to protect her and go after Gil. And I am ALL for him going after Gil. But I'm really hoping he isn't closing her out. They've come so far, and I just want a Happily Ever After for them.

Jenny Slusarz

Oof. That was rough. 😭😭😭

Darcy Wright

Hard! But it IS a mafia comic.

Rachel Salyers

That was very dark 😳 like wow I really hope gil is caught!! I felt sick reading that! Poor pops she just showed him her tits and then he bounces lol

Christina Agan

FUCKIN’ CHIN HAIR MCSHITFORBRAINS! I NEED TO GO SHRIEK FOR A FEW HOURS!

ObstinateHeadstrongGirl

Coming back to say Gil’s wife loved him so much! 😢 The more I think about all the sad it’s the part that kicks me in the gut the most. 😭😭😭 she just wanted him to do the right thing and for them to be a family, and it likely cost her life. The tears are real now.

Rdpz24

My mind is blown.. we knew Gil killed his wife.. but his expecting wife! 💔 and the dinosaurs.. we know the trex is from Toras past so this will become even more personal. And as for Poppy crying. Yes it's very heart breaking and awful to see at first. But I am thinking maybe they DID still get their little coffee break, and had a nice talk, not a bad one.. maybe she did tell him about why she was in the corner? And he said something nice and reassuring to her and those are just happy tears bc she isn't use to someone caring about her and not putting her down? And the two cups, is bc he had to leave, as they talked about earlier to take Quincey where ever!? But that's just my hopeful guess! ❤❤❤ So excited for next week!

Jud Cisn

Toras not in the sneak preview..he probably just ran out thats why she has 2 coffees and Poppy is feeling used, vernurable bc she finally made out w him, let him take a sneak peak of her goodies took the step to ask him for coffee..😫😫 I hate this!!! Gotta wait another week to find out._😭😭

Sakura Jane

What a heart breaking episode like I just cried. Moments like this gets intense and serious. Now Gil is on the run and doing his dirty work! Poor poppy is crying which breaks my heart 🥺

Keely

I have to comment again. I’m hoping that Tora didn’t just dip and or say something to her to get her to stay away from him because now things are getting intense. Maybe he did tell her he had an emergency and she was upset that he left? But she was pretty worked up so that’s a hard guess. But he could have told her about or some of what he knows about Gil and she’s taking it hard because it’s obvious there was now a child involved. I just really hope Tora isn’t hurting her to protect her right now.

Tora's Hamster

Man, it's always one step forward and two steps back with these two 🥺 I'm hoping Tora will be eventually share his history and worries with her so they can get on the same page. She deserves the truth, and he deserves to not carry the burden of their safety alone.

CaramelBombshell

Im more shocked he left poppy alone knowing he doesn’t really know where Gil could be. I dont really know how to take these last frames the more i think abt it. Lbs.

Italia Riley

Im crushed not so much at the gil and girlfriend part but what did tora say to her to make her cry? 😭😭😭😭 plus she was just getting her confidence and trust back after this she wont open up again 😱 she did look cute tho

Meghan

You just had to add in that she made the stuffed Dino so the hurt feels more real and sad, didn't you?! This ep took me a couple reads to get all the nuance, I'm so impressed every time with your detail Lily <3 I hate to see Poppy crying, but I'm actually kind of happy to see her expressing her emotions instead of hiding them and forcing them deep down. It hurts so much to be rejected, even if it's for a reason you can understand. I'm sure poppy was needing some reassurance after the make-out in the closet and to have him disappear really opens up the insecurities. Poor tora with his dead eyes in the last scene 😢 💔 I think the voice in the scary font is Quincy's dad. *shakes head* Tora is feeling so many conflicting emotions and thoughts.

SewLikes

What the?!?!??? 😭🤬 I’m a little sick to my stomach tbh, very good ep, though!

Embo

WELL HOT DAMN THAT UPDATE LILY PLEASE DONT BE GIVING ME FALSE HOPE!!! 😭😂

Ashley Kingsbury

*gasp* 😧 Lily! I have. . .so MANY. . .*unintelligible angry noises* BONES TO PICK WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!! 😫😭 Poppy can't cry. Nope. I don't allow it. ALSO, fuck. I didn't think I could hate Gil more. You made me go 0-100 real quick with hating him.

Julia

Another beautifully done episode Lily! There’s were downs but there were ups too, I can’t for the next episode even more so!!

Ada MC

I was like dannnng! What happened!!

Jud Cisn

Woohoo!! Something wrong! They didn't upload the whole episode! Gotta wait for the correction & it might explain why Poppy is crying!

Melissa Williams

What an episode to have panels missing 😂 we’ll all still have feelings, but at least we won’t be as confused!

Miriam Límová

I am gonna cry. Lily fix it please they need to be tooth rottingly sweet to each other! 😭

Life is beautiful

This felt like their good bye at the bridge. 🌉 🌁 😢 but damn!

CaramelBombshell

Phewwww hopefully atleast my question will be answered lol

TicklemeAli

Really??? I mean yay more goodies for us. But honestly you could leave it like that and it’s still DA BOMB… girl you so good

Italia Riley

I got a feeling he cut it off all together shes crying to hard for him to just have said can we do a coffee date next time

Olivia Cheney

Wait there are panels missing? Is that was Lily said?

Twice Upon A Day

It feels like my heart was ripped out of my chest from this weeks episode 😭

Daniela

I was hella confused too.

Erin S.

Holy fucking shit. I was *NOT* prepared for that. OOOF doesn't even BEGIN to cover it! I didn't think the recent good feels would be repaid by such a horrific reveal! I guarantee you Gil killed his wife the day she was going to tell him she was pregnant. And Tora's dark inner monolog. 😭😭😭 I know he probably didn't want to alarm or hurt Poppy with having to leave so suddenly, but clearly whatever message he relayed to her got lost in translation.

Ericha Gramblin

Welp There goes my night 🥲. There is so much to unpack… Gil is a psycho for sure. You murdered your wife and your soon to be child.. Who in there right mind does that?! That really makes me fear for Poppys safety. The last few panels really broke my heart. I assume those thought bubbles are what Quincey dad would say. Tora deserves so much better then that. I hope if has to get involved with clan affairs and the notebook surfaces again Quinecy will stand up fir him. I also hope he didn’t just up and leave poppy alone.. After all shes been through that would ruin her. Im really hoping he told her what is going on.. I hope she is just fearing his safety… While tonights episode was rough I just want to say well done! You keep us on our toes!

Mia

I'm kinda scared for the missing panels... How much more can my heart take tonight???

Christina Agan

-sees that some panels are missing- oh no.......-braces for impact-

Dessie1231

This chapter is kinda sadish but I really like it because even tho poppyland is upset, tora does have a job to do, he’s not programmed to be able to be with someone, and it’s frustrating on him and poppyland cause he can’t just be straight up with her AND THE HEART WANTS WHAT THE HEART WANTS but business calls

kinkajou

Omg thank god I thought I was just very dumb

Aly

I was pretty shocked, but it helps to know that this is fictional

CaramelBombshell

I can only imagine what the real cliffhanger is gonna be. Now we gonna fall apart all over again 🤣🤣🤣.

NoxOwl3

I’m gonna need my majestical fanfic writers to post/update with some happy shit this weekend… 💔

Do the art.

Well that was.... a ride.... I'm assuming shes upset he had to bail, I doubt he would purpose fully hurt her feelings Unless he felt like he had too. Or maybe he got wrapped up in his flash back and seemed cold to her when he left. Which might have added to the sting of him needing to leave? Not to mention Gill?

Nimbrennil

Wow. You are amazing. Thank you for not shying away from this. Lots of hugs cause I know this must have been hard to write!

NerdBae

I hate how so many people know about the potential danger and Poppy is not in the loop on what’s happening. She’s going to be pissed when she finds out. And probably feel really underestimated.

Mia

OOF. He done snapped at her. I'm sure the tone change must have been a huge shock for her. We got a peak at his thoughts, saw him diving into the darkness. For her, it came out of nowhere.

Jaki

Welp I still don't feel better 😭

Melissa Smith

**smashes glass mirror inside brain**

Christina Agan

-reads new panels- OH NO! -crying intensifies-

💕author eurydice fiori 💕

nothing worse than publishing something and then realising only afterwards that you made some mistakes 🤦🏽‍♀️ also, also... no wonder Poppy was so upset! 🥺 but I also wonder why Tora has to suddenly pick her up at 6:00??? 👀😩

NurseLaura

Ugh noooo. I forsee Tora being cold and distant and Poppy withdrawing too. It's no bueno 😭💔

Leslie

OH WOW THE UPDATE MADE IT SOMEHOW EVEN ***MORE*** PAINFUL HOORAY

Jud Cisn

I was a lil relieved but then i read your ' it gets worse" & im panicking again😭. Youre evil!! I love you evil genious!❤

Olivia Cheney

That snap must have been some real Julri-esque flashback for Poppy gottdamn 😥🥺..someone cuddle our little hamster and give her a warm blanket

Nikole

😱😭💗

TeHeeJones

I would first like to say that i can't wait until that shady low life Gil gets what is coming to him😡!!! Tora is a dinosaur man, so I know seeing and hearing that had some type of effect on him emotionally... Ah, I hate to see poor sweet Poppy cry after they just shared a moment 🙁. Tora unfortunately got some bad news at the wrong time and had to choose between work and his own self happiness... Sucks he had to pick work.

Christina Agan

-stares at “trauma inner monologue” font for Tora- -looks at Season 2 font- FUCK.

Frances Marie

Tora, just tell her whats going on! </3

kinkajou

Oh so thaaaaats why!! Omg I hope he explains himself at 6 and also learns to communicate a little better because I don’t think poppy can handle to be on edge all the time after Julri, our lil hamster

Alison

I feel a little better about Poppy/Tora. Misunderstanding/lack of communication is going to be a semi given still. F'n Gil though. I hope some bad stuff happens to him. I dont care who does it as long as karma hits back. His poor wife 😭😭😭

Yvonne padilla

My heart hurt, it’s like when the person you look up to most is having a bad day and snaps at you and your heart breaks a little because they hurt your feelings so much😭😭😭

Dani

Ohhhhhh, I just saw the missing panels. Yeah, it's time to have that heavy conversation SERIOUSLY!!!

Mater Portentum

Ok, it makes a lot more sense now, but still. Ouch. I get why Tora acted the way he did. Really, I do. When shits going down you want to protect your own and sometimes things come out wrong. But poor Poppy has NO FREAKING CLUE WHATS GOING ON AND WILL CONTINUE TO SPIRAL UNLESS THEY TALK TO HER!! I feel so sad for Poppy right now 😭

Embo

Well the update certainly wasn’t pleasant, but it wasn’t as heartbreaking as I had prepared for! NOW I am losing my mind realizing that I have to wait another week before we know what he’s gonna do when he picks her up!

Christina Agan

I sincerely....truly...hope Poppy snaps at Tora for that. That wasn’t okay. Period. I love Tora and acknowledge that he’s got a fucking graveyard worth of skeletons in his closet, but that was rude and he MADE HER CRY. I want Poppy to snap back at him. Come on, Poppy. You got this, Queen.

Crowley

Ah yes, that’s what was missing, more murder font. As if I wasn’t already unsettled enough.

LouCas27

Woah, just read the missing panels. You’re right, it gets worse 😱😱😱. From Poppy’s POV, he treated her like one of his minions. The cold demeanor would be a shock, since they were so intimate moments ago in the office closet. What if she starts questioning their past interactions and think that their Moon Bright escapade was all a lie? 😫 I wouldn’t be surprised if she doesn’t show up at 6:00 pm out of defiance (those look like angry tears to me 😖). Good luck Tora, I hope you know what you’re doing. Meet her halfway, man. 🥲🥲🥲

Christina Agan

Also....GIL. Just.....GIL. Lily just trying to straight up slay her entire fandom in a single episode? You win. Here are my coins. I’m gonna go cry. But also I really hope someone does unspeakable things to Gil.....

CaramelBombshell

He went from ill tickle ya ☺️ to im tellin ya 👿 in like 5 minutes. Did yall feel a quick chill in the air or was that just me! Geesh!

Boudoir_bear

Okay I’m missing something.. where’s the actual episode?

Dani

Poppy just needs to come right out an ask him what the heck is going on??? They have been able to read one another for a while now and I know she could tell he wasn't who she is used to and that something is seriously off.

Maria E.

My thoughts are a jumble. But I kind of hope Poppy lays down a verbal smackdown at some point. I understand why Tora reacted the way he did, but Poppy's been through the emotional ringer, and I'm getting flashbacks to their dinner the night after Regina's Peak.

💕author eurydice fiori 💕

last point: it is NO exaggeration when I say that I will pay TOP dollar to have this comic strip in book form 🤭😂

Rdpz24

I think I liked it better not knowing what had happened? 🥺😭 He didn't mean it to come out like that, the struggle was there for sure with himself. He definitely owes her an apology and I'm sure he will feel extremely terrible when he realizes how much he hurt her feelings, and will more than likely beat himself up about it.. BUT FIRST! GO GET GIL!

Mimi Mesa

Wheb she started crying 🥺🥺 her fear of him abandoning her came true 🥺🥺🥺 i was literally like noo my poor baby lol

Carla

Poppy does not deserve this. I hope She puts Tora in his place and he learns that he can't do that to a person who has been through the emotional ringer. He has trauma but so does she and she deserve respect.

Matcha_Cakes

Woahhhh. That was tough. I’m so looking forward to next weeks episode

Alayne Austin

It gets worse.... was an understatement... love your work but dang Madame Lily....

ObstinateHeadstrongGirl

Oh my God ok so he didn’t up and disappear but damn! He didn’t abandon her per se, but the fact that he’s coming back to get her means he probably wants to keep her close. And only dark Tora can get the things done that he needs to do. I have more questions!!

Keely

Well nvm now that the panels have been updated my feelings are hurt. Lily you are such a good storyteller. This has me feeling so many emotions

Nicole Vogt

DAMN. Those new panels are tough. We’ve known Tora during his “sabbatical” from the Mafia where he’s relatively mild mannered. This new Tora is something else. Lily- I LOVE IT

Shayla Carlin

Oh thank heavens I feel slightly better seeing the whole episode

Nicole Hurley

If he knew all of that why did he let himself get close to her, she started trusting him…..I want to kick him in the nuts now!!!

Tarra Solo

My poor baby Poppy. I’m going to wrap her in blankets and give her head pets until someone can be nicer to her. I’m looking at you, Lily. But I’ve def been in her situation and sobbing in public is the worst thing. Also Tora’s ptsd from childhood sneaking in there. Omggg his little fingies.

TeHeeJones

Lily your extra panals did not help lol. They only made me for more sad for Poppy 😢. Even if Tora needed to be serious he did not have to talk to Poppy like that. Makes me a little upset at Tora 😡. I would have cried too if I was her...

Keely

That must have been a flashback conversation with Vincent in his head. Like something happened it the past and with the current events are triggering Tora and he’s shutting down.

Bedtime4Jesus

I would feel so objectified. She showed him her boobs just minutes ago and then he does a 180 and talks to her like that? I wouldn’t be able to go back to work after that, and there’s no way in hell I’d be waiting around for him or even take his calls until the next day. He just put her in more danger by not explaining.

MrsSchmidty

I can’t tell if Poppy is angry, or sad, or worried or a mix of all. She has to realize that something has happened. She is too smart. She has to be scared because she hasn’t really seen that side of him and that would be terrifying.

Chelsea Bisram

Damn this was the most intense episode yet! I love all the twists and turns, hidden details and the detail in facial expressions!

Ester-bean

My heart!!! 😭😭😭 Poor Poppy wanted to open up and Tora just leaves... it was obviously a miscommunication but oh poor Poppy 💔😭💔 My masochistic side loves the multi-layered drama though....🥺❤

BumbleBlueBee

Read the part webtoons left out.... ouch Tora... ouch.

Mimi Mesa

If he tells her at that dinner that they cant see each other anymore i want her to get mad, i dont want her to think she needs to be all mature i want her to scream at him, to make him know she felt something, to ask him if that if he was just gonna leave then why put her through those hopeful moments, i want her to spill everything shes felt in the times shes been with him because if he decides to leave she wont care how he views her anymore, i really hope that if tora says they cant see each other anymore poppy doesnt shut herself in more and says fuck it and lets him know what hes doing to her hurts-- if anything else i hope she also brings up that she is part of the mafia and shes taken care of herself this far in life without anyone, so being with tora wont put her off that easily, i hope this becomes another conversation that deepens them together 😔😔

Schkaka

Damn man that was alot to process. That was some real life shit there....no one is perfect and we all do and say things we wish we didn't. 😥 hugs for Poppy and Tora

KJSOTO

Oh man, first off Gil is a maniac and needs to be stopped. Also Lilydusk, I mean …girl, whew you’re talented. My heart was so sad for Poppy did Tora ditch her…ugh. I need them cuddling and together…oh these two are killing me. I just love them so much and don’t want any bad things to happen to them , Tora you should have hugged her again….grrrrrrr. I love this webcomic so much. The anxiety for these two to get together is real.

Kyra

Well…shit. Lily, you win. This story exceeds expectations and then some.

steph

Oh, that was gut wrenching. I want to hug them both so badly. I know even the best relationships have their messy moments but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I hope they trust each other enough to work through it. Also, Gil killing his pregnant wife is just a whole new level. There's a special place in hell for men like him. Actually, my husband's hair, which he hasn't cut since covid first began, currently looks kinda like Gil's and the first thing I want to do tomorrow is drive him to the salon and get it all chopped off! 🙃

Jen Scully

This was intense. With this new information I honestly don't think Gil will ever get the punishment he deserves. Most bad people don't. But I do want to see him put down for good. And Tora! I swear the voice in his head was Vincent's. The one in the murder font. And the fade to black when he turns off his humanity. I mean he should have told her he had to go before it got to that point but I don't think that was actually intentional. He's gonna have some major explaining and groveling to do. Though, since he abandoned Quincy too, we may have hope for some sort of heart to heart. He's going to be worried about Tora and mad at him for messing things up with poppy. Ugh why does Lilly have to rip my heart out and make it a tasty meal...

TicklemeAli

That…. Was a big ouchie Big ouchie Huge…. I haven’t felt this desolate since last time’s hiatus Imma go cry now

Stephanie Bucciarelli

Uuugh noooo! 😭😫they JUST started to trust and open up and bit way too big of a shift from kind and laughing to straight up cruel and controlling. It’s even worse after they were literally just making out in a closet. 😑 yes he has trauma but so does she. He shouldn’t take it out on her when he knows how hard it is for her and seriously not in public. She should’ve kicked him in the nuts apparently. Ugh not where this was supposed to go 😞 I get that we know Tora is in the mafia and is one of the top guys with a reputation and probably mainly kills people after a bloody panel we saw a while ago that he hated doing. He’s been doing some mob stuff the whole time but has had reasonable transitions between mob mentality and his true personality. They needed to talk like he mentioned so Poppy knows the whole story. I get he’s telling her 6 probably to keep her safe or maybe to scare her away by showing her his job based on that inner monologue. I’m hoping it’s the keeping safe motive since he’s always done that related to Gil. I hope Poppy straight up rages at him and let’s him have it so he knows that’s not ok. Then maybe he can explain a bit. All that trauma he’s never dealt with and kept a lid on will explode at the wrong time every time. Uuuughhh!! We were doing so well and bringing a relationship in regular public view and not just controlled spaces. I get that this is a vital part to deal with in the story and even bringing back up Goliath. But omg why right after so much progress was made? And so harshly. I hope that when they meet that Tora can’t stand to do whatever nonsense he’s trying to do to run Poppy off when he sees her reaction. We do need more info on his job but I thought we’d get that info in a conversation with Poppy and Tora. I hope Quincy noticed what was wrong with Poppy too and just tore him a new one. If Tora is honest about everything they can have clear communication to make choices. That is ultimately what they and everyone needs. Communication in both directions. 😑 naturally that would mean Poppy knows of his crimes and could be an accomplice of sorts but I want to see what choices they make and hope poppy calls his bullshit and reins him back in and gets one hell of an apology.

Neumorin

Great plot twist and conflict! Tora is going to have to do major damage control after he gets past this tunnel vision with gil

Darla (Tora’s THOT)

Awww, ok so Tora’s love for the T. rex is obviously from His own experiences from childhood, and my suspicions is that that one stuffed animal T. rex toy was like his ONE thing he had for himself….like that one toy you cherish as a child and it’s like your best friend and shit and we all know he didn’t have shit as a kid…so the correlation between gils wife MAKING a dinosaur stuffy for her baby shook him to the core, especially because he had no parental figure. Hell- he prolly doesn’t even remember his mom/dad and the preciousness of a mother making such a precious gift for her baby was something he didn’t have….we all know a baby no matter how shitty the parent is is innocent when it’s brought into the world and I believe that tora is one of those selfless individuals that subconsciously allowed Gil to “get away” to give that future baby a chance to feel that love he never did. Tora obviously doesn’t know the extent of GIL’s shittiness and doesn’t know he would kill his own wife & child…I stg if/when tora finds out, I hope tora kills him with his own bare hands and rips his throat out cause he fucking deserves it. Selfish prick. Classic narcicisst psychopathic bastard. Anyway I love how he fucking yeeted out the window 😬😬😬 like “fuck this baby noise!!! But also triggered!!” And poppy- I feel her tears dude. I know how she feels 😭 she wanted to so badly spend time with him but his mob life be taking over- but all in all- for her safety of course and she doesn’t know that…hugs to her 😭😭😭

Reeree

Why are y’all mad at Tora? Did you not see that he completely shut down and went into full on real deadly tiger mode. And that dark deadly aura completely manifested. All the past trauma and manipulation from Vincent could be seen from his thoughts in the black bubble. My dude has serious trauma and baggage, for the most part we’ve only seen Poppy’s trauma. Not gonna lie that was intense, and yes l’ll cry if my crush treated me like that too!!!! Butttt we can’t only have vanilla, Lily’s been giving us vanilla and babying us all this while… it’s time for some dark chocolate and hardcore stuff!! Ahoy mateys, buckle up!! Lily I’m ready for take off!! Also still balling my eyes out for Poppy 🥺 P.S. * I reread and Gil does not know his wife is preggo?!* So maybe he wouldn’t have killed her if he knew she was with child??… or that’s just my wishful thinking?😭 Also shout-out to Lily and the team, loved the episode as always even though todays content was real steep! I love me a good story with all the pits and fluff

Christina Agan

So, real talk. Normally I go back and read the episodes a few times. Then I look for details and patterns. I don’t think I can do that with this episode. That was rough.

Chibi

Ooof my heart breaks for Poppy. Been there and it destroys. Trying to slowly pull back those layers and be vulnerable with someone is incredibly hard. Being the target of misplaced anger replaces the fallen layers with bricks, concrete, and steel gates. I can't decide between Poppy waiting for him later on or her going home, taking the day off and focus on herself. I wish I could give her a hug.

juju

I just hope Poppy isn't too heart broken. Awe 🥺🥺🥺

Sarah Hernandez

I know a lot of people are upset with Tora right now and no lie I too would be crying like (poor thing, I wish I can jump into the story and hug her) but did y'all not see the dark aura that just appeared out of nowhere as well as his trauma? Good thing I'm going on vacation this week so I can get my mind off of this😭

Nandi

Tora 🥺

Raquel

🥺🥺 What will tora do now? And poppy must feel something is off… 😭

Christina Kambouris

The emotional whiplash from last week to this is insane! Oh man Poppy has just gone through so much right now....I hope this isn’t a tipping point for her! A person can only handle so much. And it just seems like such a slap in the face especially after their closet moment 😭😥 Hopefully they bounce back soon! Also, fu*k Gil!

Maria E.

As frustrating and painful as it is from the unknowing reader's perspective, there's some really masterful storytelling going on here. So kudos to Lily for this. I haven't actively written in a good while, but the hurty scenes potentially make for some extra satisfying make up/recovery moments and story build up. And tonight delivered a wealth of building material, so to speak.

Bessie

*cracks knuckles* I know he is breathtaking, and built like a mountain but no one treats our Poppy like that... 😤😤😤😤😤 P.S. plus Gil can seriously go swim with the fishes, his death warrant is signed, sealed and about to be delivered.

Lunar Estrella

We must destroy Gil this boy getting in the way of me ship over here! 🥺

Evenstar

My heart hurts for both of them ☹️ Tora is clearly under a ton of pressure, like catch a killer before he gets your girlfriend pressure. It’s triggering him big time and as much as he wants to be present with her, there’s no snapping out of full protector mode. And poor Poppy, our baby girl doesn’t deserve for him to take his stress out on her. She’s got her own past trauma that she was finally starting to surpass with Tora’s help. Although, I think she’s smart enough to know that his snap had nothing to do with her and everything to do with his sad upbringing. Not justifying his behavior, just noting that they’re human and they have been making a lot of progress. I hope he comes with a super sweet apology at 6 and they make up.

Meghan Miller

Rereading and the part about Quincy’s “blind optimism” getting him into trouble and Poppy saying she can relate, that kind of makes the last scene hurt even more. One step forward for them but now they’re taken 2 steps back ☹️ I’m curious to see what Poppy will do after this because she never does what I think she’ll do.

Faith Ruiz

Officially mad at Tora after this episode. How dare he do that to our Poppy😩

Ashley H

This episode was so sad! So sad for Gil’s wife who finally was able to get pregnant but not ready to tell her husband, sad that she died at the hands of said husband, sad that Tora was hella triggered at the the sight of a loving mother giving a Dino gift to her unborn baby, sad that Tora has been suppressing all this pressure and stress to only have it blow up in his face in an instant, sad that he fell hard into the darkness because of it, sad that Poppy not only witnessed this but felt some of his darkness too, and sad that it made her cry. I can’t get angry at Tora for what he did, we’ve seen this side of him and worse. And even though it’s never been directed towards Poppy before, he’s not perfect and sometimes we hurt the ones we love. Every relationship has hardships and how the two get through it will either strengthen them or pull them further apart. It’s sad and it sucks, but they have a good foundation and I think they’ll be okay. In the meantime I’m just gunna put on Pride and Prejudice and try to get some good feelings back 😫

Echo Sketchy

Poppy getting a taste of what dating a pressured mafia boi is like 😅

Jessica Colella

I reread a 2nd time, cause I didn't understand why Tora snapped that way to Poppy. We've never seen him being so harsh to her. She's his heaven, just as he says, but work has a very big impact on him. I'd like to read more of his thoughts now that he's riding in the car alone. That last scene was very harsh to read, but we must keep in mind we're talking about Tora, who's a lethal thug in mafia's world. Okay, maybe that was a time he had very hard behavior on her, after Narin city's landscape... Hope they'll talk about it and reconcile like that time 💔😢

Nicole Nosek

Although I get why Tora is switching into „cold killer mode“, I am hurting for Poppy!

Steph Sim

I was wondering where the “knife” would come, cos we’ve had so much sugar these past few weeks

Bedtime4Jesus

Respectfully, I don’t think it should be all on Poppy to notice Tora’s mood shifts and analyze them, or blindly forgive when she’s unsure. They’ve known each other about a month and it bugs me when it’s expected for women to do all the emotional work. Especially the emotional *detective* work. There’s no reason for her to figure him out when he has a mouth and a brain - tell the lady what’s up, my dude.

Jasmine

I was WAITING for the shoe to drop, things were going too well. 😭 As disappointed as I am in Tora, I completely understand what he’s going through. It’s hard to move past trauma and being taught to think/feel a certain way. I feel so bad for Poppy though, just when she starts to open up. Hopefully, they are able to talk things out. (TORA YOU BETTER COME WITH GIFTS AND AN APOLOGY) 🥺 I’m happy that we get to see multiple sides to everyone. Relationships are not sunshine’s and rainbows. Thank you Lily for giving these characters three dimensions. So excited to see them grow and see the story pan out! ☺️ PS. FUCK GIL.

LyricWitch

Big ouch. That was indeed a rough one! The panels of darkness, the crying...broke my heart. 🥺 That being said, fantastic storytelling. I'm trying to stay positive and look at this one from the perspective of my future self, who will inevitably go back and re-read this arc and understand exactly how this all fits together. We just have to trust Lily, even though it's going to make for another long week, lol. Would I have enjoyed another sweet episode tonight? Sure! Am I super anxious about where this is leading? Absolutely! But the suspense of it all makes the storyline so much deeper and more meaningful, and therefore more satisfying in the long run.

Cassandra Reddick

Tora feels as though pushing Poppy away will be easier for everyone. You see it in his eyes in that last panel how much he regrets it, you see that old reasoning taking control. If Poppy is out of his life he feels he’ll get back on track with Gil, Poppy won’t get hurt, he stays in his ways and goes back to being mafia muscle. She is too “good” for him in his eyes. He has been taught abandonment and is now expressing those trauma symptoms bc of this new healthy relationship and the pressure of finding Gil’s fucking despicable ass to protect Poppy (p.s. my mouth DROPPED when I realized the body). What hurt the most is seeing Poppy’s confusion and tears of frustration. All I can imagine her thinking is “What happened?”. At that cafe everything as fine in her eyes. Even before that she believed their conversation to be light hearted with peaceful minds. But for Tora his tunnel vision and worries channelled his old beliefs again. Poppy is still healing as well from everything she has been put to deal with. It hurts even more that the one person who she thought would understand is now pushing her away. There needs to be communication on BOTH sides, starting with Tora’s apology 🥺!

Nisa Bizahaloni

I’m not gonna lie. Seeing Tora’s thoughts affected me more than Poppy crying. Does that make me insensitive?

Ravyn

Not telling the writers how to tell their story or anything, but I want to see Poppy truly and honestly stand up to Tora for that. Girl had a tendency to wait for permission to get mad at people, and despite understanding where Tora is coming from, she’s gotta put her foot down somewhere.

Nina Castelmonti

👏An excellent job in this chapter Lily, you have captured Tora's tension very well, and his dominant projection as mafia man, and Poppy being a collateral damage for it. I was surprised by the chapter, we can see the hard work in paying attention to the details of the plot.

emilyjean

This was a TENSE read and it really seems like it will get worse from here. 😩 I’ve been wondering when Dark Tora would emerge since we’ve only seen glimpses…and it looks like we've arrived! Poor Poppy has been going through it and I hope this doesn’t cause her to fully retreat. There’s such a marked difference between the end of this episode and their night in Moonbright in terms of tone, body language, and color palette. Tora could only enjoy being in Poppy’s world for so long before he’s dragged back to the world he knows. It was so stressful reading this I can’t imagine how stressed Lily must have been creating it. 😅😅😅 (If there are any Kdrama fans here…Dark Tora in this episode reminds me of Vincenzo when we saw his darker side towards the end of the series!)

Paulune

I may be pulling too many strings but it reminds me of the conversation Tora had with Gyu in the locker room of the Black swan bar & bistro about something he had to do because of him (episode 15). Tora may be remembering a real conversation he had with Vincent about a girl. Maybe Vincent already made him leave a girl when he was a schoolboy and Tora is remenbering a past conversation he heard. Words son and schoolboy "sound very Vincent" !

Tara Taylor

Oh jeez what an episode, Gils poor wife was pregnant ☹ and he killed her! I need to know though, did he know she was pregnant brdore he killed her? Did she tell him and it pushed him over the edge? Or when Tora catches him, will he be the one to tell him? I do get where Tora is coming from though, im presuming the black voice bubbles were Vincents words in his mind considering he called him 'mutt', but thats how hes trained Tora over the years, its automatic for him to hear those words when something bad happens, but he did go a bit OTT with poor Pops, i hope he apologises when he picks her up! I get that he is just trying to protect her and probably keep her at arms length for her own safety, but it was a bit much, and bless that coffee shop guy for checking she was ok 🥰

LoopyJ

It is heartbreaking to see how aware Tora is that he is shutting Poppy out, in that exact moment where the dark thoughts take over. The blinders are put up, he is on automatic mode. He must have been on edge for weeks (?) and after stepping out with Poppy, literally leaving a safe space, he is desperately trying to keep everything under control. Nervously scanning the surroundings. The lengths he and his team have gone to to keep Gil under surveillance! And just then at the coffee shop it all crumbles down. It always breaks my heart that Tora is constantly talking down to himself, on different levels of self-hatred. When has he allowed a kind word for himself... ? When the dark voice takes over in your head you hurt the people you love. I can relate. In the coffee shop, Poppy was in the line of fire. That must have felt like whiplash. Sometimes when you experience the negative, abrasive, hurtful side of a person close to you, it hits hard. An then you cry, because you don't know how to channel it. I am sure, that Poppy is more than emotionally perceptive and intelligent enough to eventually understand what happened with Tora in that moment. That does not make it okay, and I am also absolutely convinced that she will stand up for herself, just as she did with Julri. It will be okay. Sometimes you just have to let feelings wash over you and cry to let it all out. Just as I did after reading this episode.

Krystal

After last episode when he was in the literal light with her in that closet, for this to be where we are now is upsetting. I am PISSED at him. Tora might have to fight me at this point. I feel for him; I do. I'm aware he's triggered and scared and yada yada yada. I don't care. His behavior in this moment is unacceptable. He's going to have to work hard to redeem himself from this. If it was me he pulled this on he might as well be a ghost cuz he would have died to me in that moment. Poppy did have a moment before he snapped where she noticed something wasn't right with him and maybe that will be enough for her to actually be willing to hear him out but I would NOT blame her for cutting him off for this. Honestly, if she were my friend I would suggest it. His behavior is escalating and not in the right way. 🚩🚩🚩 no me gusta.

ReineK

It's heartbreaking......poor Poppy.

Paulune

As Sirius Black would say "We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on . That's who we really are." We can't be mad because he reveals his shadow areas after showing so much light .. he's just a human being 🥰

Megan

He snuffed out the little light he had on for her.... completely blocked her out. I hope she doesn't wait for him. I HOPE (because I'm sick in the head) Gil finds her and Tora gets a scare of his life 😤😤😤 I love how dark this is getting, Miss Lilly. You are a genius.

Catie

I’m glad Lily warned us. I would’ve been more of a wreck had I not known it would be a rough episode.

zoe

Before the episode updated, I thought maybe Tora had broken things off so he could focus on Gil. Now reading how it really played out... It's somehow so much worse. 😢

Arti

I feel for Both of them. It's so hard for either of them to step outside of what they know and and their traumas when they both just find so much comfort in each others presence.

zoe

Lilydusk the way your writing has us going from giggling to "oh shiii-oot" to nearly tears is pure talent. This story has everything!!!

Lily

Why do I have a feeling Tora is either going to be super late picking her up which will cause poppy's anxiety to spiral, OR he picks her up and checks her into a hotel to keep her safe......and then we get the SG #77 later!! EEeeek!

Rachel B.

Tora better do some serious making up after this because he made our little Hamster cry. On second thought, I vote for Little Hamster's left hook to be put to good use again.

Michelle Steele

I hope our dear Poppy is okay. Her and Tora shared some intimate moments in the closet, she admitted it was too much, but then asked him to coffee. She is letting herself fall. But then he abruptly left and was short with her. I can only imagine how upset I would be too with the knowledge of that's it's still been only a sheet amount of time. Do you guys think that Eredende will come find Poppy,?

Emily Baehr-Gruss

That actually makes a lot more sense (with the added panels), thank you for the context!

Julie F

It was a very hard episode. Gil is a horrible man! He didn't know his wife was pregnant, but strangely, I don't think it would have made a difference. Gil is selfish and heartless. This part is particularly cruel and reminds us that the universe of Midnight Poppy Land is not candy pink. And I come to Tora's feelings. My impression is as follows: I think that with Pinky's text message, he is taking full account of the reality of what is going on. HIS reality. In the company of Poppy, he briefly tasted some form of peace. He's fine with her and he lets his guard down. However, danger is on the edge of their lives. For a brief moment, he put it aside. And the result is that it turns out badly. While his men are working and putting themselves in danger, he has a good time with the girl who attracts him (and whom he loves). The way he behaves with Poppy doesn't shock me. I understand from A to Z his reaction which is logical. As for Poppy, does she understand what's going on? I'm not sure. Only what follows will tell. In any case, this episode announces a turning point and perhaps a fracture in the relationship between our two lovebirds. Either they'll get past that, or ... but I don't prefer to think about it. I'm waiting to see what Lily's up to us. In my case, I loved this episode even though it hard.

TicklemeAli

Guys we never thought this day would come, but we’re only human. We need to put our boyfriend in the doghouse #punintended Listen. 🤚🏼We know our girl is smart. We know her spidy senses are uncanny. She’ll know something is wrong, she knows. But right now,right this second, to me, she does not need to figure anything out and she’s allowed to feel hurt. I guess if I look at it from the context of Gudrun’s which was their first blowout, in that particular case they were both being on the defensive, they were both confused and hurt and lashing out was the way to go for both. The context here is very different for both. And while we love the fact that they have the ability to pull each other from their dark places, that is not their responsibility at the end of the day. I have a feeling this is the Big Bro Tora the thuglets are used too. The baddest bro who cares but expects to be obeyed. The one who doesn’t ask, but commands. It reminded me of his interaction with Pinky at the fallen, when Pinky corrected his name and Big Bro’s answer was “did I hurt ya feelings?” And while that’s ok in the context of his life. She’s not one of his subordinates, she’s not one of the thuglets. The tiger club shirt doesn’t count 🤣🤣🤣 He pulled rank on her. And at the end while she may on the long run understand him and his reasoning. she doesn’t have to take it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. What is even more sad to me is that I don’t think in that moment he realized exactly what he did. He was paranoid and in full on selfhate/sabotage mode. While in contrapost she was on cloud 9. Just imagine having the hottest make out sesh in the closet of your office with this cinnamon roll who has been kind and patient and vulnerable, whom you are just starting to trust, and maybe even fall for and then all of the sudden in the space of less than 5 minutes went full iceberg. The whiplash for her must be monumental, and even more so when her context at the moment, is the closet scene. The fact that he did it in public. I mean even the way he paid. I’m a shameless hoe and even the way he paid felt like a fuck-n-go to me. I can’t even begin to imagine what it must have felt like for her. And to top it off even the barista had to check in, confirming to her that yes in fact, this just happened and nope your alarm is not unfounded, and it was validated by a complete stranger. The fact that he left her right after is so frustrating. There’s no immediate resolution, she’s left alone to fester with her embarrassment and hurt for so many hours. Just imagine going through that and then having to wait till 6 to have some answers. Anyone can spiral. That was not a sad cry, that’s a full on pissed, I’m full of rage cry. And the saddest for me is that he, wether consciously or not, did the very thing she asked him not to do in Moonbright. Which was to not take her trust for granted. So yeah for this week only, im gonna be a butthurt petty ass bish and I’m gonna be team “Bobby you rip him a new one” I won’t go into Gil. Because that was a twist in the gut of it’s own. That little/big detail made it all the more sad and frustrating. As always a thousand offering to my Lilypad shrine. What you do every week is nothing short of magical, I can’t think of anyone more worthy of my tears. Imma go to my cave and have some ice cream and chocolate in the name of Bobby cause damn… this one hurt. Muah muah muuuuahhh

Sailor Mooo

Him killing the pregnant woman isn’t shocking or unsettling to me - he’s a dirt bag …I expect dirtbag things . Him telling her corpse she stinks - that rings WAY too unsettling for me . In our area in real life a convicted murderer was recently released - struck up a relationship with a mom he later killed and dumped in the canal - and he was caught because he was staring at the water and told his friend “damn that b&$@“ stinks “ . Just last week. That made this episode EXTRA creepy . Good work author .

Angeline

What an amazing episode. So much to unpack here. I think on some level Poppy must understand—she knows Tora is different from Julri, that he wouldn’t act like that for no reason, but it’s so hard being a sensitive girl! I feel for our girl because I definitely would’ve done the exact same thing. In fact, I’ve been in her shoes. I spend so much time relating to her 💜 I wonder if she’s going keep Tora at a distance after this or is she going to let him explain and apologize?

Emily Basso

Hollllllyyy fucking shittttt. WHAT AN EPIC CHAPTER. I finally got to read it and I’m half asleep but THIS WRITING. My freaking mind is imploding at the complexity of human nature displayed in this chapter. In this whole series!! Like. How lady? HOW!? My mind is reeling. We get deep glimpses into: 1. a true psychopath, 2. A traumatized but good woman stuck to that psychopath, 3. Childhood trauma 4. Relationship blossoming then those gooey lovey feelings cut shot by relationship trauma 5. Another (although sexy) psychopath and his manipulation of a boy 😭 6. Tora’s view of himself through the words of others 7. OUTSIDE views from bystanders. SO MANY MORE. How many POVS can fit into one episode? My mind cannot handle it and yet IT’S LIKE CRACK. There are so many ways to look at so many of these panels. Different people’s views on how one interaction went down. And I’m fucking losing it. SO GOOD. Need to read again and again. Also Shing Ma and Vinny in one episode? How are Saucy and I suppose to manage? Can’t…. But now I want Tora and Shing to work together…. If he’s such a great tactician maybe there could be a partnership down the road. Shing at least respects what Tora’s been through, and has enough fear of him not to fuck with him. I think they could be unlikely friends down the road 👀 or at least cooperate. Here’s to hoping ❤️‍🔥

Sybille

Oof! Well done this week Lily and team 👏🏾! Everyone was A MESS this episode and I loved how the story got even more complex and layered. Also, Tora better set his shit straight if he wants to stay in our girl's life 😤

Nancy

I'm so sad for poppy, her crying face just broke me 💔😭💔😭 Can't wait for next week

MrsSchmidty

This feels like the bath scene in Asuras Bride. Isn’t she doing a retelling of it if sorts? I have a feeling it’s going to be like that, a confrontation, they get together and then he is going to disappear for awhile.

Loddy Doddy

Those honeymoon chapters couldn’t last too long a bit of reality had to creep in and bitch slap all of us. Tora better grovel at poppy’s feet for making her feel like that in the next chapter. He has to spill everything for this to work

Bukgirl

Tora needs lots hugs, poppy needs a girl with Quincy to explain how to deal with the whiplash.

Amanda Patton

I’m having whiplash from that episode. Also I screamed so many times …. Gil killed his PREGNANT wife!!! Ahhhhhh 😱🤬 Tora and all his feels for Poppy and how he lives in such darkness. Ahhhhh😩 Poppy left alone and crying. Ahhhhhhh 😩 Can wait to scream some more next week.

Karla War

Where can I read the new issue? there are no speech bubbles im confused

Chai

And just like that, the tables have turned. Poppy, keeping him at arm’s length often, is in turn, put at arm’s length by Tora. It’s needed, because the trauma that has engulfed both their lives WILL and HAS to affect the relationship. Finally, two main characters that are both imperfect, making mistakes and mishaps and trying to navigate their way to each other, despite the hardships. No relationship is perfect, because no person is… and this is exactly what most romance arcs are missing. It’s usually one person that is saving the other. Rarely do we get a chance to see both sides of the coin; the struggles and issues with each, opening up and being vulnerable and watching past experiences throw monkey wrenches into the progression of a blossoming relationship. And the agony of them pulling away for what they can only think… is the greater good. This is great writing. I can’t express enough how much I loved this episode (despite the dark themes, which never bothered me) and is now one of my favorites. Keep on keeping on Lily and the team. ❤️

Jessica Tripp

Tora leaving that probably gave Poppy a flashback to her own mother leaving. Although, props to Tora for realizing he was blacking out and removing himself before he did something awful to really drive Poppy away. Also, unrelated, there seem to be lots of rumblings about 'Poppy's true identity' based on the fact that Granny has to have an important conversation with her. *IF* Poppy herself is biologically tied to another Clan, that would make this whole thing even crazier.

EmeryDiLoncrete

The fact that Vincent can make Tora's mood change in a flip of a switch is hard to watch. And that son crap ugh he knows exactly how that makes Tora feel.

Micaela Hoffman

This episode was a bit confusing. I feel like jumped around to much.

Christina Agan

-wanders back in- so......it’s the morning after. Everyone else feel emotionally hung over? Just me? I need hugs and maybe some hot chocolate......

Pria

I love reading these comments and can't wait to read the chapter when it's posted. I just wish the files were posted earlier so I can see now. Or maybe they are and I'm looking in the wrong spot.

JaxStarGazer

Well we were warned this was a bit rough, and I had no idea in which way that could be. But it’s been 5 hours since I first read this episode and I am so shook by it that I’ve grabbed the first opportunity I’ve had to come and write down my thoughts. Although at the moment I just feel all kinds of emotions. Kinda like Poppy I should think. It’s going to be a long week waiting to see how this one gets resolved, if it does. So first of all, Gil. Wow. I mean I am still shaken by the fact he’s a full blown murderer with absolutely zero remorse. So going straight into that where he’s still wherever they are and kicking the dinosaur that will later serve to be a big trigger for Tora, was not what I was expecting. I felt a serious drop in my stomach at this toy with blood on it. I suspected straight away what we later come to find out the truth on, but seeing it be kicked so carelessly onto her body like that...Go to hell, Gil and get those chin hairs roasted on the flames while you’re there. Yeah, I’m feeling things! Getting to have a deeper look into Tora’s thoughts added to the heaviness the episode started off with. Reading Tora admit he’s in over his head was a nice nod to, hey, this man is still human! I know I for one sometimes picture him as this mafia thug who lets nothing slip past him. But the fact is he’s got a shit ton going on and the sliver of happiness he’s feeling with Poppy is being totally overshadowed by all the danger she and he are in, really grounds his character for me. Though side note - I am curious what Vincent thinks of Tora having his ‘own men’ that aren’t clan branded and follow his rules? Presuming ol’ Vinny knows about them. Just something I’ve wondered about for a little while. He’s putting himself down in this chapter a little.. Like the door to negativity was blown wide open and everything is pouring in on him all of a sudden. ‘Because fuck if I’m not a criminal mastermind like Goliath...Or some intellectual scholarly type like Shing Ma.’ But I did love that nod to the fact he acknowledges he does have an ‘uncanny intuition’. I’m guessing that’s going to save him and others at some point in the story. Let your supernatural links freak flag fly, Tora! I’m all here for it. But I wonder WHY Vinny kept him away from team operations? Is it because he’s better than most? Because people would likely follow him more than the big bad boss himself? He’s isolated him in so many ways... In between these self-deprecating views of himself, I liked reading the light banter between him and Poppy. Her slip up of almost swearing made me laugh. But he’s not relaxed. I know being out in the open leaves a bigger target on them. From a personal standpoint I find it interesting that it's the light that leaves him uncomfortable, when that’s when most people feel safe. From past experiences for myself I hated the night time. That's when the curtains were closed and no one knew what was going on behind them. When, if you needed to run out into the street for help, no one would come. But during the day everything is better. And we’ve covered his comfort in the dark of Ares Street before, the familiarity of it for him. But I think this high alert mood Tora is in is what left the door open for old memories and triggers to come barging in for him. I see that twitch of your hand Tora - give Poppy a hug! He’s so cluelessly adorable sometimes, and his ‘threat’ of tickling her and Pops saying, ‘You can try.’ I really wanted to see it play out. She really sounded like she’d do something to surprise him if he did make good on that tickle threat. I’m so excited to read a bit more of Tora’s take on Quincey. His reassurance that she can trust his assessment of people is something I feel Poppy could really have in her corner. And I love that Quincey has ‘blind optimism’. He’s packing some serious emotional baggage too and if being that way is what helps him try and stay sane then who are we to crap on his parade? Same for Poppy. She’s had people show her how shitty they can be and she still tries to be upbeat. Also another side note, was I the only one who read Tora say ‘Jackfruit’ instead of ‘Jackshit’ at first? No? Just me then. Pft pft. Crap, we’ve reached another one of the parts that shook me hard. Not surprised Tora had broken into Gil’s place and found nothing. But having my suspicions about his wife from the beginning of the episode come true and reading it play out was devastating. I can’t even write the words so I won’t, but I just feel devastated for his wife. The way she was talking that led to Tora having that flashback to I presumed his mum? My heart is racing! Those little chubby hands reaching for the t-rex. He’s carrying so much, how long until he can’t contain it any longer? And then shit just goes south from there. That text from Pinky that sent him spiralling off the ledge and allowing his abuser’s voice pipe up in his mind...I just kept chanting, no no no! Don’t do it! ‘You could have put an end to this much earlier, you stupid mutt.’ Fuck OFF, Vincent, with the dog analogies! One day you’re getting yours Vincent. I don’t know who from yet, but one day… *Takes a deep breath* This was definitely rough. Throw in the way he spoke to her, completely out of place and unexpectedly and in front of the baristas and I’m chewing my nails to bits. I was about to write, Poor Poppy. But that doesn’t feel right because yes I am upset for her with the way he spoke and treated her. She is rightly shaken by what he’s done. But she’s not silly either. She saw something change in him. She doesn't obviously have any idea what kind of very fine line Tora is walking right now. But she was aware something changed for a reason. So I’m not going to say poor Poppy because I want her to get mad. I want her to have her moment where she’s crying - rightfully so. But then I want her to rip him a new one and lay some boundaries down. As for Tora, he’s got some hard core grovelling and or communicating to do. Time he did open up to her and let her into what’s going on. What life for him is like in the mafia. But it doesn’t mean he gets a pass with this behaviour. This is a great telling of how hard he’s going to find the balance of life with Poppy and clan affairs. Because it seems he’s being pulled back into it more and more. And I’d say this reaction is a badly mixed cocktail of frustration of how sneaky Gil is, his guilt at spending time with Poppy and his fear of what’s going to come with - well - everything. I’m not forgetting they’ve just had some amazing progress in their trip to Moonbright, their tryst in the closet and the developing friendship/relationship they’ve got going on. So I hope she digs deep and confronts him about this emotional whiplash he’s giving her, if not that day but soon. I wouldn’t blame her for not being there at 6pm after that either. Also, mad props to the guy asking if she was OK and calling Tora’s behaviour out as harsh. I won’t be forgetting the way she’s biting her lip and crying like that any time soon. Or the dark aura Tora is giving off at the end as he speeds down the highway either. My heart is lodged in my throat after this episode and I hope you took some time for yourself to decompress after too, Lily! This is where we’re reminded this is a mafia story. It’s gritty, it's harsh and there’s going to be some serious bumps in the road for them all. And though it was difficult to see our favourite characters remind us that they do have major flaws still, it was a brilliantly done reminder, because I felt it all! All the well deserved kudos, Lilydusk!

Wanders Through Books

I keep mentioning this particular art upload from Lily..... but..... remember Tora and Poppy's "first time" art that she did? Where they are on the floor and there are blood splatters and a gun and it's clear something happened and the two are just so lost in passion and like....... desperately needing each other? Yeah...... I feel like the story is leading up to this and I hope to God that artwork is cannon!

Sara B.

What a chapter. So much to unpack and so much great analysis. Was it a gut punch? Yes. But I'm so excited to see where the chips fall. How will Poppy react when 6 o'clock rolls around? Will that triceratops show up later in a devastating future reveal? I hope so.

Jennai

Not sure if this is the best place to post this but.. Congratulations on your wins at the Ringo Awards! I'm so glad that you (and your team) recieved the recognition you deserve for all of your hard work!

ALoverOfCake

Pops needs to give him the cold shoulder.

Vikki Smirnoff

Still holding off on reading this....my mom passed away on Friday morning. I really appreciate the warning Lily...my heart just can't take any angst right now. I'm a wreck💔

Asia Neal-Allen

I learned that there is something worse than trash....it's garbage juice. Now that I've taught this lesson let's use it in a sentence: Gil is not human, he is garbage juice. & Tora honey...what the hell was that! Poor Poppy 😢 you better show him who's boss when 6pm comes around.

Bedtime4Jesus

What was her name? I feel gross thinking of her as “Gil’s wife” after he did that to her.

Spopie

I didn't even realize there was a part missing honestly I was sad seeing our girl crying but now I'm even more sad cuz honestly if someone yelled at me like that I'd cry a river right there in the coffee shop

Paige

So confused with tora…

Chong Lee

Oh no! :( I get this is very important to progress the story and their romance,, but I just really hope Poppy doesn't regret allowing herself to trust him with her heart. Also poor Gil's wife or mother of his child. T_T

Jane

I completely understood why Tora as a character did what he did. I absolutely love the fluffy kind version of Tora and I think it’s easy to forget that he is someone with a lot of trauma and someone who can be extremely brutal. We mostly see the story from poppy’s view and up until now he has been hiding that part of himself. We haven’t seen him actually hurting people. Sooner or later something had to make him snap and him shutting down his emotions after being confronted with things that remind him of his past is completely understandable for his character.

Nicole Vogt

Anyone else love Dermot Kennedy like I love Dermot Kennedy?? 🎶 His song Better Days resonates so well with Poppy & Toras relationship 💙 https://youtu.be/emfoupUCFJY

Brittany Batts

All I can say about this episode is damn, double homicide…Lilly you went there. It’s about to get real.

Math’?

Will the high res artwork be uploaded soon ? 😅

Souhila Tsuki Himé

Hello everybody 🤗🤗 🇨🇵🇨🇵🇨🇵 Thanks for this épisode lily, Im gonna try to express my feelings with the help of google 🤣 I'm not going to lie, I was touched by this episode like a lot of people, but it's normal because we love this couple and this story so much 💗💗 Also thanks for the warning 🥰 We are on the dark side of the story, and we are there for that too, mafia, murder, violence ... it was to be expected ... I reread the episode several times, at the end Tora does not even look at Poppy, he is like a machine , he is lost in his thoughts, the dark side has taken over. Seeing Poppy cry because of him was very sad but had to go through this ordeal, and I think back to Poppy's words at the end of season 1 : " Love is patient, love is kind, love is understanding, compassion and forgiveness ... to make mistakes... and to grow from them... and to be perfectly imperfect" Poppy is his heaven and his light... I wait for the next épisode as always 🥰🥰

Vane

Hi Guys! A question that I’ve always been wondering about, can you see dialogues or you’re just guessing what happened because, I’ve always seen only the images of the episode all this time when a chapter it’s uploaded here no dialogue

Vane

Yeah! thanks that’s what I’ve been doing all this time, purchasing them in WEBTOON

moonchild

i-its gonna be a happy ending tho....right?

Mishmonster

Wow, that was quite the about-face...actually more like a sucker punch to the face. 👿 I feel like it hurt so much more because the first part of the day was SO uplifting. He opens up & admits he missed her. They have a make-out session with some exploration happening 😳 and then literally come out to Dene & Quincey that they're involved. Walking in public holding hands 👫 for everyone to see, and then.....💣💥

Monica

If I may Miss Lily, we are all but visitors to the world you have and are creating. Will we be disappointed with some of your decisions on how certain situations go, of course! But who hasn’t sat and watched their favorite show or movie and yell at the TV or in the theater or even yell at the book you are reading because you, the visitor, don’t like what’s happening. Game of Thrones fans know this all to well!!! But did we still watch? Yes, do we still read on, yes! You are giving us this little universe you are creating and who are we to tell you how we think it should go? You do appreciate our feedback and will tweak things here and there as you, the creator, can see how your universe could be changed for the better from it, but to want to make everyone happy, as a creator that will never happen. And us as visitors to your universe need to be more accepting of the situations being created. Did it hurt me when i read it, hell yes, sucker punch to the gut and I’ve been exactly where Poppy is, the rug ripped from underneath her. But this is the development of Poppy, who we all love and care for and we need to just sit back and enjoy the scene you create for us.

ashpea

I know it's a little late for posting on this chapter, but this has been coalescing in my mind since I read it, so I decided I needed to post. I know this was a rough one for a number of people, and that Tora may even have lost a few fans, but I actually kind of expected this from him based on how he has behaved throughout the series so far. While I've thankfully never experienced physical abuse, I did have a share of emotional abuse growing up. When you hear disapproval from people long enough, over time a version of that voice starts to develop in your mind. It turns on when people give you compliments. It tells you they are probably lying, or that if they knew you better they would take that compliment back because you don't deserve it. That voice is also quick to remind you how worthless you are when something goes wrong. It doesn't matter how small the issue was or how directly you were involved in it, most everything that ever goes wrong does so because you had a hand in it. While that dark voice forms inside your mind, two things start to happen simultaneously on the outside. First, you put off an air of anger. People misinterpret even your resting posture for being mean or bitchy, and they judge you for it. Sometimes that anger takes a physical form in lashing out verbally or physically, and when it surfaces it is extremely hard to take it down until you vent enough of it to regain control. The second thing that happens is an overwhelming need for someone to tell you that you are alright, that you are good and worth their time and energy. As much as that angry voice inside your head will not let you believe them, you desperately search for validation. Tora does it all the time with Poppy, wanting to hear that she finds him attractive and that she thinks he is a good person. The times we see his inner monologue during these moments he is incredibly self debasing, a sign of the broken self esteem he carries around with him every day. In my own life my abuse history provided me with a fairly robust level of emotional intelligence. I can read people and their deeper motivations/needs and past traumas better than most people can. Tora has this ability, too. He sees it in Poppy, struggling to overcome the years of gaslighting she endured by her ex. We've all applauded Tora's emotional intelligence, sad to say it was earned at a price. Knowing the fallout that comes along with that voice and the impact it can have on others when the anger slips out, I'm a little scared for Tora moving forward. I expect things are going to be tough for him for awhile. The good news is that, with the right people in his life, he hopefully can start slowly dismantling that voice in his head and see himself more clearly. That's what happened for me, and Poppy fits the bill for the type of support he's going to need. Fully believing that you're worthy of good things is a harder struggle that will probably continue even long after he and Poppy are officially together. Thanks, Lily, for writing about these topics with such finesse and realism. No love lost for Tora from me, just a deeper understanding of his character and a growing appreciation for your work ♥️

Lilydusk
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Thank you for posting even if it's late. Just wanted to say that I appreciate the validation and compassion you extend to these characters 🖤