small update (Patreon)

Thank you all for sticking with me for so long, I'm battling the worst depressive episode I've ever had. I've had to try multiple medications over the period of a few months and so I'm sort of in the state of a emotionally unstable guinea pig right now.

My depression is so bad that I've become incapable of feeling anything. The most I can accomplish is getting dressed and staring into space, everything else is paralyzing and painful, including simple things like listening to music or watching a movie. Things I used to love only make me irrationally angry, incredibly sad and bored. I could die over how boring everything has become. Trying to find happiness in anything is like being mentally stabbed. I'm feeling increasingly imprisoned in a joke of an existence but I'm trying to have hope.

I'm working on getting well as soon as possible, I'm forcing myself to draw to see if it helps, but it's been a slow process. I really, truly appreciate your support and understand if you are mad at me. Hopefully as the weather changes I'll be able to get back on my feet again.