TizianaNeko

This is what’s got me on the dip out train. I can’t justify to myself to keep supporting when we arent even getting a message update to know she still intends on making content. I’m not one to bother in dm’s but its just gone on too long for me now. It sucks since ive been here for 6 years

My assumption is that it’s frightening to come back fully into this space when there is a lot of disappointed people who subscribed to her Patreon tiers and were expecting content, and the longer it goes unaddressed, the more tempting it is to avoid it and hope it goes away. I know this feeling too well, but I can’t imagine how it feels for her situation.

But who knows, she may also have some personal obligations that are impeding her ability to communicate.

Yeah I know she wants to come back and knowing her for as long as I have, I feel like she maybe wants to finish all the custom videos that she promised first before coming back, instead of coming back with a “simple post” and having to face an onslaught of dm’s asking about it. But she has some pretty serious perfectionist anxiety and so that may also be feeding her feelings of hopelessness. She’s scrapped more videos than she’s published over the years. So just imagine the stress she is under to make each custom “perfect”.

As someone with serious anxiety myself, I know what it feels like to be looking at patreon and all the upset people and be so scared of what will happen. I wish I had a way to contact her directly to let her know everything will be ok but I don’t. I can only hope she or a close friend of hers is somehow reading my dm’s and the messages here and is telling her that she still has support…

Just remember Tiz you are loved and in our hearts 💕

What kind of customs did you guys get? I just liked talking casually about life stuff and she’d do some triggers and words of encouragement. They explicitly aren’t roleplays. The customs realistically should be quite simple and fast, they were never supposed to be stressful just a neat little personal video for top fans. I heard someone requested a custom ASMR, I also almost worked out a deal like that with her as well, so im curious what the top supporters think. I told her no need to worry about the personal videos so much but DMs are not getting read most likely. Im inclined to think something is making her feel unsafe, but it’s true that her perfectionism was blocking her a lot. Think its fair to say we’d love what she shared even if its not “perfect”. Sharing stuff shes not sure on could also give her a good chance to get some constructive feedback from people who really like her videos first before commiting to youtube

Honestly I wasnt a top supporter for long before she dissapeared, I never got a custom but also I dont particularly care if I do. I just wanted to show support for her work at the time.

I also have DM’d saying that perfection is not required and that things she probably considers flaws we wouldn’t even notice and that we would just like the videos. However I also suspect DMs are not being read.

Not to speculate too hard (Chad’s right, we may or may not ever find out), but I want to suggest an angle that nobody else has mentioned. As a mid-20s person, it’s one hell of a time to be trying to survive. I don’t know how similar things are in Germany, but in the US, the economy is on the verge of crashing, housing prices are insane, and pretty much all of the statistics for Gen. Z are absolutely brutal. At 26, I know about 3-4 people my age that are living on their own, and all of them either have multiple roommates or are married (and thus split their bills). If memory serves, Neko moved to a new place a year or two ago, and I noticed that not long before she left she did the content pivot thing, created new tiers, and offered a limited number of custom videos. Financial stress is common enough nowadays, but for a self-employed content creator it’s probably even worse. There’s a possibility that doing ASMR full time isn’t economically viable, or that, even if it is, the stress of trying to create videos by a deadline, do customs, etc. just isn’t worth it. The amount we know about her personal life is limited, so there’s no way to know for sure, but at the very least, that’s another layer of stress on top of the stuff that everyone else has mentioned. Combined with hardcore perfectionism, occasional depression, and the stalker story (which I was unaware of, but holy crap, she needs to get a lawyer and/or the police involved), I can see why a break might be helpful. Being a professional artist (I’d say cosplay and ASMR count as art) can be fun, but it can also be extremely taxing, especially if you start feeling like you’re being forced to do it to survive rather than doing it for fun.

Wish she understood the people here want to support her and would show her more grace than shes probably thinking we would. But its hard to face people who trusted you to do something, something you enjoy doing, and disappointing them. As an artist that happens to me as well and it always stirs a feeling of “what am I even doing”. Even if you have a good reason for your absence its hard to shake the guilt. Im behind a month on some photos and I feel like a failure 😅. The client was very understanding but here I am struggling to take my own advice

mine was basically “face touching"for hands to go in and out of focus since thats a trigger of mine and simply words being “its gonna be ok” and supportive words pretty much because at the time i requested it I was in a massive depressive spiral for a few months. Nothing difficult. This was last year and I’m still waiting. Thankfully I’m out of the spiral i had atleast

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Take care too, sorry you paid though while she seems to be on a very extended disappearance. Hope you have a great day x

Hey, guys, I’m trying not to be alarmist or catastrophizing, but… do any of us know if Tizu is okay?

No

Knew she will come back! ❤️

WOOOOO SHE’S BACK!!!! THE QUEEN IS BACK!!!!

Belay my last. I just noticed she posted on YouTube. Glad she’s alright.

Still gonna wait a while before subbing again, i can’t trust that she aint gonna disappear again

24 min video on Youtube as well. Hoping for some Patreon stuff soon, glad she posted. Hopefully shes fully back

Our girl is back, woohoo, we missed you

Well, back on Insta mostly. But I have hope