I met THE CafeEla! (Patreon)

Hejhej! In this post I want to chat about: meeting ela and my feelings about taking time away! 💗

FIRST STOPI just got home from my trip, Sunday evening. First stop I got to meet my niece and celebrate her birthday. There's a lot of imaginary games going on rn, my favourite being this one: "You are now passed out! Lie here, and you're passed out!" Then she cares for me with imaginary raisins and plushies.

SECOND STOPThen, at the second stop, I got to spend quality time with my partner. Which I want to talk about in a later post. We then travelled together to visit Ela! YES, THE CafeEla! We've known each other for 8 years - and you may know we have a lovely spicy dynamic - and still haven't met each other in person, until now!

THIRD STOPAt last, after all this time!!

It was even better than I could have dreamed up. She's somehow even more beautiful in person. I was genuinely taken aback!! She's every bit as funny, intelligent and kind as she is on stream. So considerate, sweet and overall just unreal. 😭 Ela is seriously so special it's not even funny!!! Joyfriend, being the best boyfriend in the world, decided to take a photo of the moment we met, to capture seeing each other and hugging for the first time!!

It actually was so weird to see each other in person, when you've spent so much time online but never seen someone right in front of you. Weird but so joyful and right! Joyfriend said it was like we were instant irl besties thehe. I must also add that the entire evening was perfect.

We talked and talked and talked and looked at tulips and ate at a wonderful Chinese restaurant that Joyfriend treated us all to! They were so good together too which is such a special lovely feeling when they're both so important to me. I want to live closer to both of them!! 😭

TIME AWAYI feel so refreshed and happy after my time away, meeting loved ones, challenging myself and getting to experience so much fun, life, love! But I really don't know how to marry it with my current home/work life yet. I feel like Twitch streaming asks you to be rigidly consistent and present, innovative yet predictable. On top of that, 4-6 hours of stream leave me so exhausted and anxious right now I can't do much else on a stream day! 🥺 What do I do?? I feel like I'm in such a pivotal time of my life right now, and there's a lot of questionmarks I don't know how to straighten out.

Which leads me to a question I have for you!

Would you be interested in a livestream on Patreon, where we talk about life and I get a chance to hear your thoughts on how to best move forward to nurture the stream, our community and me as a content creator? Many of you have been with me for years now and some have just joined, and I would love the perspective and nuance from the known and the new. Maybe you can help me figure out what is the path forward for true joy! Not just for me, but for the content I want to offer to you!

Let me know your thoughts on a patreon exclusive lifestream here where we have a cup of tea and a chat and get a bit more personal than on Twitch!

Time for me to have some miso soup! I'll be back with a post next week to share pictures and thoughts from part two of the trip + my thoughts on being in a hetero-presenting relationship! 💗 And then I'm heading to twitch-con!! So I'll be able to tell you about that when I get back!

Love youuuu, Joy 🌼