Achieving goals (Patreon)

You probably heard by now that I was accepted into the partner program on Twitch!! Just writing that sentence makes me feel like I'm dreaming still. It's been a goal for so long, a dream, for so long. One I didn't think would happen in a very long time. Maybe years down the line. And now here it is, and it feels so surreal. The amount of love and genuine happiness I've received from reaching this milestone has honestly left me speechless.

I'm not going to lie, I have been so anxious waiting for the reply from Twitch. Been waiting for a rejection for about two weeks time and last Wednesday I had a feeling I would get a response so I was updating my email more often. Cipher was playing Star Wars on the TV through my PC so I asked him if I could check my email real quick. My heart just stops, I see a mail from TWITCH, I open it so quickly I don't have any time to think and I read "You’re invited to the Twitch Partner Program". 

I seriously just burst into tears, kept saying to Cipher "I got it! I got it!". I was crying so much, I didn't expect it and it was at that moment I truly felt just how much it meant to me. I had been a wreck waiting for their reply, and I really didn't want to get my hopes up if they'd say no. But they didn't. We got it. FIRST TRY. We did it. Because ultimately, this is something I could in no ways have done without you guys. Our channel, our community, now have a beautiful checkmark and 26 (!!!) emotes! How do I say thank you for that generosity? For taking me on this journey and being a force bringing me to highs I've never been before? I have no idea. ❤️️ But I definitely am going to cherish this forever.

What I also do want to just quickly say is that, it's to be expected whenever we reach a huge goal that we feel a bit lost, a bit dizzy for a while. Bob knows I've been running around caught in a whirlwind after this and I'll need some time to catch up with myself to truly truly truly appreciate what an accomplish this is. I need to catch up, to slow down, but also enjoy this wave, because it's the start of something new.  It's not the end goal, as I believe no achievements are. They're a beginning of something new. ❤️️ Love you!