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hi my sweet patron! 

First of all, thank you for your incredibly sweet response to this post. It really meant so incredibly much to me. I am still figuring out a better balance between things, honouring my own voice and daring to shed self-doubt and distrust in the process. I do believe I am making progress (even if it might not show yet heh!).

Before I left on my mini vacation to my mum's wedding I started writing a song, my phone was breaking down and I knew I had not written down everything I needed to remember the song (not even the chords were in my notebook!). I managed to transfer a rough recording of it from my phone and today I used it to remember how to play it. 

I realised it was a bit rushed at the end, a bit incomplete, not quite how I wanted it. So I picked it back up again today to rewrite the second verse and finish it.

Yesterday I got to experience the game 'Journey' while in voice chat with Cipher and my gosh, I was not prepared for the actual journey I would get to go on, (big recommend if you have not played it yet). I believe this experience inspired me today because when I sat down to write, I found a deep sense of honesty in front of myself. I wrote like I used to write, years ago, my very painful truth hidden in the text. I wrote and sang for myself, the idea of what someone else would think of it completely discarded.

Once finished, I went straight to my home-made studio (aka a wardrobe). And you will not believe this but I recorded the whole song! There is still some editing to do, mix to polish and of course the overall sound to listen to with rested ears. But I did want to share a little teaser from the song, with you. 

If you are interested I could share the early phone recording of it too, to see where it came from and where it arrived. Let me know. 🧡

Time for me to go to sleep! I have really missed writing to you here, even writing this post felt different (in a very very good way). A little love letter almost. From my heart to yours. Things are definitely shifting.

Many hugs to you! Thank you so much for your support and kindness, it means far more than you know.~ Joy