This was just for me. (Patreon)

I painted again!!!

I can't believe it myself, but I painted something just for me. I wanted to make an abstract piece and I knew it wouldn't be to everyone's preference, but I didn't mind. I wanted to create from my heart, and so.. I did?!

I left behind the thoughts of what other people would think, the idea of having to share it, even the expectations that it had to become something beautiful. This was just for me.

With the risk of sounding very "up in the clouds", it did make me feel more connected to myself. As if I was more myself.

The painting is finished, and it's called "anxiety changed me". Now I want to make a whole abstract collection!

I remember how in art school I would let myself explore different styles and expressions freely. It was honestly down right theraputic, and so was making this piece. I felt a whirlwind of emotions and it was something very healing about getting to turn it into something more tangible. Pieces of that pain were no longer "stuck" inside of me, and did not seem so scary anymore. I was already carrying it after all.

I hope this can inspire you to be bold with what you want to do. Even if you don't know what that is. Just to allow yourself to explore, try, (have fun,) make mistakes and grow. There is nothing that builds trust to yourself more than expanding that comfortzone and choosing to be brave for the things that matters to you.

Oh and, side note - speedrunning taught me how nice it is to laugh when it doesn't turn out the way I want. Compassion for myself is a GAMECHANGER.

Grateful I get to be on this journey with you 🧡🌻lots and lots of love, Joy