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Jordan

Oh this is so heartbreaking 💔 when my partner and I first got together a long time ago they had a lot of bad dreams bc of trauma around abandonment and it was the hardest thing to witness bc you both feel so helpless. My heart goes out to both of them 💜

Glenn

Sometimes just being there helps.

ACxo

Awww 😭🥺

Leonie

oh nick :(

ACxo

The way you draw their expressions always amaze me Alice you show it so well

Carina

Oh Nick 😔💔

Faye

Oh nick :(

ally

awhhh poor nick :((

Sarah Jacobs

How did a single tear make me so upset?? 😭😭😭

ferah

aw nick :( i know he and charlie will talk it out, but its still so sad to see nick so anxious

Olivia

aww nick, hes having a really tough time right now 💔💔

Audrina

NO ARE YOU KIDDING ME I CANT COPE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Hunter

Nick looks like he needs a hug

Jo

💔💔💔

laura

oh noooooo nick 🥺

Megan Chen

oh poor nick! i’m so happy charlie is right there to provide him comfort :’)

Nyssa Rawther 🍉

Awwwh...middle of the night cry happens sometimes. You just gotta be there and hold him, Charlie 🥺🥺💛💙💚

Audrina

Nick: 😭 Charlie: 😦 Kitty: 😺

Hanna Flick

The way my heart just instantly ached at seeing that fourth panel 😭

ryry

the tear!? I’m a wreck! 😭🥲

K

Noo 😭😭

tess ^_^

feeling very represented with this restless sleep and night-light combo

Ben

Awww

Irem7

Oh baby Nick 😭

Arakii

BABY NO :(

Wildallie Diaz

Oh no!😞… but does this mean that we are talking now?!

Barb

Is nick crying in his sleep??😭 what's bothering him so much??😭😭

Maisie

Oh Nick :(( my heart HURTS omg

Ashley Robinson

Well this is heartbreaking 💔. Glad Charlie is there for him.

Kore

Nooooo! My baby! Our golfer is sinking 😭😭

Mara

Charlie looks so worried :(

M R

Nick🥺🥺🥺

arlo🧞

oh nick🥺🥺 so happy that charlie will be there to hold him

springy

Oh I cannot cope with Nick Nelson crying. Give him puppies and hugs and puppy hugs NOW

Charlie

Oh no no no no. Gently wake him, hold him tight and never let him go. 🫂🫂

Caro

if it’s a bad dream, i hope that nick knows that they aren’t true and that he have a lot of people around him who loves him exactly the way he is, and that the people aren’t like his dad. most important: he will never be alone

Ciara

Oh the poor babies 😭 Charlie’s little face and poor Nick with his nightmare

Krystyn

Oh poor Nick! 🥺 And poor Charlie, he must feel so helpless. Those pages are so sad and so beautiful 💔

Rosie

That last panel…. 🥺 I don’t think we’ve ever seen those expressions from either of them before… Feels like completely new territory for our boys, and Charlie is properly understanding just how deep Nick’s troubles really are 😔💔

Liz

Nick 😭😭😭

Ashley Robinson

Reminds me of after the Halloween party.

Sarah

I know how Nick feels having Bad Dreams and Putting in a Smile every day. Yeah I can definitly relate. He is trying to Help Charlie even though He needs His own Help, but doesn't want to admit, so Charlie isn't worried about him. I Hope He will find the Energy to Talk about it soon and doesn't try to Fake it longer.

Loveislove

OOF- dreaming is when your mind tries to make sense of what you are thinking and feeling. Poor, sweet Nick 😢. Charlie looks shocked to see this. And he must not see it often with how Nick suppresses his emotions. I hope Nick can remember what he is dreaming about. Thank goodness he has Charlie there with him to reassure him that he is not leaving because Nick is crying but is definitely going to stay and support him. This is just devastating.

Megan Chen

alice, these tender moments you’re drawing are so beautiful. ❤️

Sonny

Nick 😭💔

Nikki

Oh Nick 🥺 I do love the little glow from the Christmas tree and the way they’re squeezed into Charlie’s single bed 🫶

CinD

Charlie is literally me as I take in this whole page panel by panel zoomed in… I just woke and now I’m like 🥺

Justin S.

Nicholas 🥺 I do love Charlie’s eyes in the last panel

Katie H

The single tear from Nick's eye is making me cry 😭

San

Nick 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Molly

Oh Nick! 😢😢😢

Jess

Oooh 💔😢

Antonio

nick looks like he is one second away from falling off of charlie's bed in fourth panel

Loveislove

Nick is going to be so disoriented and sad when he wakes up. I hope he can talk a bit to Charlie. I wonder if it will be about his childhood or another worry...

Katha

Are the shields down and the emotions break through? I love the expressions in Charlie’s eyes so much ❤️

s💫

nick 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Synz

NOOOOOOOOOOOO

Katha

And the Christmas tree is still glowing 🎄

Lauri

It’s time for Charlie to be there for Nick, in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health…. 🥺🥺 😭😭

Katrina

Oh Nick I just wanna give him a hug. I can tell Nick has finally let his guard down and is finally starting to feel all his emotions in front of Charlie. I hope they talk about it when they wake up. Dreams are supposed to be a safe space but Nick is feeling so much that they can’t be that for him.

Cole Morin

Nick 🥺 noooo it looks like a tear drop is on his eye?!? He’s crying in his sleep 😭😭😭 Charlie! Wake him up, tell him you love him and just hug him tight.

gabs

oh gosh this is breaking my heart, but at the same time i'm kinda glad to see nick having these emotions and being vulnerable ):

Ania W.

I really like how Alice portrayed Nick. Messy hair, one tear, clinging to Charlie, tightly wrapped in the covers. The sum of all his fears in one drawing. As if he wanted to hide from the whole world 🥺

Maddy

I would be crying too if Charlie and kitty were taking up 90% of the bed 😭😭😭. (Ik that's not why he's crying. I'm just tryna cope)

Ulises

Oh no 🥺 yeah maybe it was a good idea that Nick stayed at Charlie’s cause who knows how he would’ve been like had he not have Charlie

Lisa

Nick with the single tear 😢

Lauren

Oh no! The single tear is the worst 🫠🫠🫠

Scott Whittall

Sure do not like bad dreams....but I think I like where this is going. Nick's little tear is hurting my heart. But, for some reason, the two water glasses on the nightstand comforts me. Hopefully those two glasses will be on Nick and Charlie's bedside table each night for...well.....forever.

E

Nick needs a Kitty and/or Charlie cuddle

Sophia Furlano

Charlie has the same worried look in his eye that Nick did when charlie was at the height of his ed. 🥺🥺

Nicole

Alice I love how any time there’s a furry friend in the frame, real or plush, they always look so involved and helpful! Kitty, the parrot from the Halloween party and obviously MVP Nellie, etc. It’s always such a lovely touch! 💕

Steve

Oh my sweet baby angel! 🥺🥺🥺

Ariel

Oh Nick🥺 (the single tear is getting me🍂)

Chloe ♡

now i’m crying 💔 it’ll be ok nick 🥺

Brittney

Aww Nick, my heart 🤧🤧 our sweet boy. I know it's hard honey, I promise whatever is happening it'll get a little easier. Charlie give him a hug, I think he really needs one right now

aniatka
>>159033287

I hope this would help Charlie to understand how serious the Nick's anxiety is and push him to do sth seriously ❤️❤️❤️

Paola✨

Is that how I started Sunday crying? Yes. Oh my baby Nick 🥺💔

Claudine

Nick is struggling so much, I'm afraid it's too much for Charlie to be able to help him 😔

RyGy

Oh Nickkkkkkkkkkk

EC

Charlie and Kitty both looking directly at Nick in the second panel…. I can’t. ❤️🤣 the tiniest bit of humor in a sad moment on a page with no words. This! This is why I’ve totally fallen in love with graphic novels!

RCM

Nick has snuggled up to Charlie while they sleep so many times...it's just what they do, and it's familiar and warm and...just so good. But the word choice of RUSTLE takes this very familiar move to another level, and stirs Charlie out of his sleep...Nick's tears and sniffles aren't as silent as he may think, and I love how a very concerned and aware Charlie leans his head over to get a better look. Nick is again trying to get as close as he can to Charlie, the one person/place where he can feel grounded and stabilized and safe ("my life is way better since I met you"...), but, AGAIN, he is squeezing his eyes shut (one of his coping mechanisms we are seeing) but this time, his emotions are taking over, working their way out, in those "silent" tears. It's heartbreaking to see, but it's another baby step, too. (and I so appreciate Kitty's constant smile for a little levity and some reassurance!) I think back to when Nick was in Menorca and overwhelmed with worry about Charlie, he left everyone (including Sarah) to isolate himself on the beach, throwing rocks, not talking/processing his feelings, until Sarah showed up...NOW, I love that he is moving TOWARDS Charlie as he is feeling so overwhelmed and anxious, and well, sad for little Nick whose still stuck inside him. He could have easily faced away from Charlie, hiding his tears and staring at the warm glow of the Christmas tree until he passed out from exhaustion. As we keep seeing though, for Nick Nelson, the light and warmth seen and reflected in Charlie Spring's eyes is way better than anything else. Being close to it is FELT SAFETY. It's LOVE and it's HOME, and I know Nick is being calmed by being so close, by feeling Charlie's heartbeat, by smelling his familiar smell. SQUEEZE tightly, Nick. Charlie's got you, and you are so worth being gotten.

ambie

nick :((

Loveislove

Charlie must be moving from feeling concerned to feeling scared. I hope he advocates Nick speaking to Sarah just as Nick asked him to reach out for help to his own parents. He knows Sarah is a safe haven for Nick. Sad Nick and scared Charlie is hard to bear 💔

Merel

Alice is on a streak of breaking my heart with every new page 🥲

Loveislove
>>159035551

I just keep thinking of all the things that Nick said to Charlie when he needed it that Nick now needs to hear - 💔😢

laurimini

The "being a teenager trying not to wake your boyfriend while losing your shit and quietly crying" throwback is REAL

Andrew Pitonack

poor Nick 🥹, thank goodness he has Char.

artxsta

i can’t stop thinking about nick’s flashback of stephane telling him not to cry, contrasted with charlie telling him he can tell what a fake smile is, urging nick to talk about it and essentially let it out. while they haven’t necessarily had the conversation yet, i think an important step has taken place, and charlie basically opened up the floodgates. i’m not sure if nick cries in his sleep often, but i feel as though this is significant bc charlie might be the FIRST male figure in his life, a male figure who nick respects, who has urged him to be vulnerable. nick’s unrelenting kindness and people pleasing comes at a cost, which is his ability to express his emotions and be kind to himself.

Lolli98

He's probably dreaming about his sh.t father. Charlie, please wake him up and hold him soooo close for all of us.😪

Elfi

Seeing Nick cry always hits so hard. Probably because he does it so rarely and then even a single tear hurt so much. I wonder if he's asleep and dreaming or actually awake... Either way it breaks my heart. But I'm glad he's with Charlie and those two glasses of water comfort me. Really lovely detail!

NotSoYoung

The look on Charlie's face in the last paint, it breaks me 😭😭😭😭

Beam Bugge

1: nooo don't cry nick :( it's okay, it's gonna be okay! 2: charlie's "just woke up" face in the second panel combined with the giant bedhead is so adorable he's like a little puppy

Brittney Tarr

Is that a tear? Cause if Nick cries I’ll cry

Julieta

Nooooo baby 😭

ucfnurse

Ohhhh Nick!!!☺️😯🤞💞🫂🐇✨☕️💫🎄✌️🕊️☮️

Erynn

oh nick :(

Laura

Nick’s having a nightmare

Katie🐝

😭😭😭😭

Katie🐝

At least this is happening with Charlie so he’ll be able to be comforted right away 🥹😭

Loveislove
>>159037590

Well said! I wonder how Nick gets along with Julio. I'm thinking of Julio complimenting him in vol 4 in how he came out to his dad in a difficult situation and the really kind of absorbing look Nick was giving him with his hands held together - like he was starved for a kind word from an older male figure.😮‍💨

Holly Roberts

Seems, he has a nightmare… So Charlie will wake him up and comfort with him, unless Nick will tell him about his bad dream…

Neenie

Sleepy Charlie becoming concerned Charlie .png

Neenie

Also Kitty!

Dan

oh no, nick :(

Larisa

Baby 🥺🥺😭😭❤️❤️❤️

toneelspeler

when the adrenaline is starting to run out and you keeping it all together is slowly falling apart that just the simple question of "how are you... really?" is enough to make you have anxiety and stress during sleep.. too real. the stupidest thing being your brain not even showing you another way of responding bc "being fine" is all you've known. glad to know everything will be okay in the end, but man. such a heartwrenching moment to sit in now.

val

oh :((

elisa

oh no please i can’t deal with nick crying 😭

Elfi

The light from the little Christmas tree on Charlie's face and the back of Nick's head in the last panel - so good!

Noemiette

You can bottle things up all you want, one way or another, thise emotions will find a way out by making you breakdown, making you physically sick or find their way out while you are sleeping. I think Charlie's worry is gonna go up a notch now :(

Calfic

This page reminds me of a line in one of my favorite songs, The Manuscript by Taylor Swift:" Lookin' backwards might be the only way to move forward." So in order to be healthy emotionally, Nick needs to confront all his hurt, And I'm old enough to be his mom, so it makes me really sad to see him tear up, but maybe he has to breakdown in order to build himself up.

OSM

Oh no Nicky 😢

hollie

NO I MUST HUG HIM ☹️☹️

Lilly Mae

ALICE, my heart can’t take this 😭 Poor Nicholas

T
>>159042302

There’s a great podcast that I listen to about grief that goes into that question of “how are you… really?” It’s called Terrible, Thanks For Asking. You saying that just reminded me of it.

Ada Suzany

poor Nick 🥺 there are so many things in his mind

Elena

It feels like Nick was trying to tell himself all the time: "I'm fine actually, it's not that bad, I have to be strong, there is no 'real' reason for which I'm allowed to be sad, ...." when he clearly was and is not fine and thought he had to deal with his struggles - that he thought he shouldn't have - all by himself. And now the sadness, that he had repressed for so long, finally reliefs in his tears. 😥 Luckily Charlie is here now and he will comfort him! Nick really has found a safe place in Charlie! 🥺🥺❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Cliff

The memories of rejection by his father must be so painful still. I've experienced something like that, when the memory of a terrible incident popped into my head with sudden clarity with the full raw emotion that I'd been repressing. Let him know everything is OK, Charlie!

Elena

And it hurts so much to see Nick cry, while Charlie is asleep at first. 😥😥 Luckily Charlie woke up and he will take him in his arms!! 🥺🥺🥺❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Nils

Please Nick, talk to Charlie or even better seek professional help. You don't have to be in such a bad place as Charlie was to accept that you could profit from professional help as well

Claire

Oh my goodness. What emotion on that beautiful page. Nick's tears and Charlie's anguish. We know when Nick feels able to talk about it they will move together to some kind of resolution and healing. Right now though -- that page makes my heart hurt.

moon

i want to hug nick so bad wtf ☹️

Merel

The light from the little Christmas tree reflecting on Charlie's face, Nick's hair and the blanket is so well done. It makes the whole drawing feel so realistic and cozy (despite Nick's tears).

Oliver Midson

I was in this situation with my boyfriend last year. Not fun :(

Bob Scardino

I hardly ever ask for merch but i want that kitty cat!

Olivia Brookes

baby:( his dad is such a jackass omfg

David C Witkin

And now we begin to see the truth about intimacy: that when we let someone inside the fortress, eventually they will see us at our worst and most vulnerable. And it will break their heart at first, and then it will strengthen both people in their resolve to love each other.

Ash

Wait this makes me SO SAD 😩😩😩

Murgy

Now Nick needs a big Charlie hug, and just to know he's safe, as hard as it is to feel it when you're consumed with doubt and fears. Love may not be able to cure them, but it can make it a hell of a lot easier to face.

rickettyuncles

💔 💔💔 but it will be okay, it will!

Bianca

I see myself in Nick so much in this. All emotions bottled up and the quiet space and privacy of my bed is where they all come to ahead and are released and sometimes I don’t even know it. I’ll just wake up with wet eyes 🥺

June

Nick in the last panel broke my heart and Charlie looks so worried💔😭 Nick has held all of this in for so long, pretended to be this happy rugby lad who is always in a good mood and always there for everyone else. But now he has Charlie who has shown him it's okay to let his feelings out, that it is okay to be himself and be vonurable. He knows that Charlie will support him.. i really hope Nick will open up and let Charlie in on what's going on..

June
>>159079650

And Alice; Thank you so much for creating Heartstopper and these beautiful pages. We can all truly feel all the feelings just by the way these pages are drawn and the expressions on their faces. This volume is so far one of my favourites and so beautiful, can't wait to continue seeing where the story goes.❤️

Diana

The tiny tiny bed!

Fernanda Torres

Can’t even! 😞 this is so relatable, there’s a big conversation coming and it will only make them stronger, right? 😣

Ze

Hope the next page Nick finally talking to Charlie about what's going on, we've been focusing on Charlie a lot we need to start caring about our boy Nick. Hope Nick can start opening up more to Charlie.

Jazmine Terson

NICHOLAS LUKE NELSON. WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU. WE LOVE YOU. 🥺❤️