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So I'm now going on a little break for Christmas! No pages for a few days but I should be back on December 28th!

Sorry to leave you on a bit of a sad moment - they are going to have a big cuddle on the next page ❤️

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!! xxx

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a

merry christmas alice !!! poor nick :(

Astrid H.

Oh Nick 🥺♥️

ACxo

Oh god that’s the worst dream you could have for a loved one. The fear of loosing someone is very strong. The way you draw their expressions always amaze me

Hollyh

Bless him x

Elisa Maria Vlad

Merry christmas!!! Oh my poor nick :( he is so scared

Christie

Merry Christmas Alice 💜

Lizzie

Merry Christmas, Alice! X

Caleb

My poor nick :(

Merel

Oh god

Femke

😭😭

Klara Dalgren

Merry Christmas Alice ❤️🎄

Ana Alicia Aranda De Contreras

Oh God, I have to survive days with this sadness but it doesn't matter, we know they will get through it. 🥺😭❤️ Happy holidays Alice, rest and have a well-deserved and comforting rest, enjoy these days of celebration with your family and friends, I send you a huge hug, Merry Christmas❄️☃️

Chloe ♡

nick 💔 i’m gonna cry that is such a devastating dream to have after the flashback he just experienced ☹️

Caroline

Someone is stress dreaming

Debbie

Aww I hate dreams where someone you loves dies! 🥺

John Barrow

Alice, Merry Christmas and enjoy your break away.

tess ^_^

HELLO???? i would say this is morbid for heartstopper but really anything can happen these days

Gabrielle

Merry Christmas Alice !!!!!!

qwerty

Awww

Emily Hopkins

Nooo Nick 😭😭 he's right there next to you 🥺❤️

Sue Branch

Merry Christmas Alice. Have a good break. It will get better for Nick he has Charlie. 🥰

Caitlin

Fuckin hell 🧍‍♀️

Loveislove

Jesus Fuck Nick/Alice! 2 more sleeps until Christmas 😭

eva cuervo

Merry Christmas!!🌲

Mario Bocanegra

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Alice!! 🥳

Isak

Merry Christmas Alice!

Laura

Poor Nick! I dreamt once my husband died. I felt so lost 😭 when I woke up, he cuddled me and comforted me. Losing my partner is my worst fear.

arlo🧞

oh nick 💔

Liz

I’m so glad Charlie was there when Nick had his dream. Bad dreams are awful but waking up to the person you need the most helps. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!! Enjoy your break! ❤️🎄❄️

Nyssa Rawther 🍉

Awww that's such a scary nightmare!! And such a traumatic one, too, considering Charlie's dark days. Poor Nick. Big BIG hugs to them both. Happy holidays, Alice! Have a wonderful break!

ambie

merry christmas alice!! thank you for blessing us with sadness

laura

happy holidays alice!! ❤️

Lemon

Alice how could you leave us hanging like this /lh

Sulagna Maitra

That is some cliffhanger Alice 😆😆😆 But super glad they are talking! There's always New Year! 🎊 Here's wishing you all a Merry Christmas!!🎄🎁

Kas

Happy Christmas Alice!!

Emily

I think I speak for everyone when I say, ouch🥺

Irem7

Oh my god😭 Happt holidays Alice, enjoy your break🩷

Prinsassy

Oh my god 😩 that's heartbreaking... 💔 I'll try not to think about it the next days... Lovely Alice, I wish you a wonderful Christmas Time with wonderful people 💚

Eryn Gibbons

:( woah, it's intense and heartbreaking to see Nick like that... but Charlie will be there for him as they are for each other ❤️ Merry christmas!

Antonio

WHAT, i was not expecting that to be a bad dream😭

Charlie

Have a wonderful Christmas Alice! I hope it’s filled with love, joy and happiness.

Lemon
>>159118753

But merry Christmas and happy holidays!! Enjoy your little break

gabs

oh my god my heart hurts so bad for nick

Sonny

Merry Christmas and thank you for everything, enjoy your holidays ☺️🥰❤️🎄 and about the page: 😭😭💔💔

Crow_pose24

You deserve to have a break. Merry Christmas!

Leonie

it’s giving when charlie said ‘i had a dream you were being mean’

Barb

Always the comfort of their arms😭😭, safe haven!

Chloe ♡

i love kitty peaking over charlie’s shoulder 🤍 merry christmas alice!!

gabs

merry christmas to you alice! 🎄

Jono

Leaving us in "a bit of a sad moment" and it's literally Nick's internalized fears and anxieties manifesting into his worst nightmare (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠) I think there's a bit of the Krampus spirit in Alice this holiday season ;)

Lissie

Oh no!!! *Hugs Nick* Those dreams are the worst 😭

Jo

Merry Christmas Alice!!!

Kristen

Merry Christmas Alice! Thank you for the constant gift of this world you’ve brought us! Heartstopper is the greatest gift and it just keeps on giving! Be safe and I’m sending lots of love, from Kentucky! 🥰🎄🍂

lexi

oh! :(

Melissa Delzell

I’ve definitely experienced this before with my husband. 😔 it takes days to scrub those intense emotions and images from the brain. Poor Nick. He needs to talk to someone to process all these things bubbling up before he heads off to uni.

ashley ✨

jesus christ nick😭

Merel

Alice!! How dare you 😭 Also merry christmas, I hope your days are filled with more joy than this page

Jennifer Cooper

Merry Christmas Alice 🎄 I feel this goes back to the conversation in Menorca that if Charlie doesn’t eat he’ll……Nick was traumatized.

Annika D.

Poor Nick, experiencing what must be his biggest fear in a dream! This really shows again how much he identifies through Charlie and how lost he feels without him 😢 Must be really deep in his subconciousness, hope he can start dealing with it ❤️

Jon Goerner

Merry Christmas, Alice! Anticipation will just make the cuddle better!

ellen de Ruiter

Big hug for nick. And for you Alice, thanks for everything! Happy holidays ❤️

Synz

☹️

KatieS

OMG!

Nilla Novise

Happy holidays! Poor Nick...😭

soph

uhhhhhh NICK WHY

Carina

Ouch my heart 😭

Oliver

Man tbh this kind of stuff doesn't stop when you're in a loving relationship 😭❤️ I have had nightmares about my partner a handful of times in the 7 years we've been together. But they're always there to cuddle me, just like charlie is here!!! ❤️❤️❤️

Sosha20

🥺🥺🥺

Robby C

Merry Christmas ⛄🎄🎅

Mikey Sams-Barnes

Wow. What a tremendously powerful page. I have never in my life immediately cried at a page of anything before, but that single line of dialogue hit me like a ton of bricks. Alice, the way you have drawn Nick’s emotion here is just… I don’t have words. You took my breath away. Literally. This single page encapsulates the entire series and reflects the bond they share. Equally, it shows just how deep the turmoil Nick is feeling, with a single line. Wow. Bravo.

lexi

kitty watching like 👁️👄👁️

Topi

Merry Christmas, Alice! 🎄

Merel

Nick is absolutely terrified of losing Charlie in any way. That might not have been at the front of his mind yet, but it for sure is now after such an intense dream. Here's hoping for a good cuddle followed by a proper talk (finally!) once they've both calmed down a bit.

ACxo

Have a good break you deserve it more than anyone! merry Christmas 🎁🎄✨

Bugtocos09
>>159118826

It says on the like caption thingy on the last page bad dream or something like that

Lolli98

Merry Christmas, Alice! Thank you so much for all the joy you bring to our lives through Heartstopper!❤🧡💛💚💙💜 Much more than any holiday could bring. 😊 Even though this is a sad moment for Nick. But we are looking forward to the big cuddling now.🤗 Thank you for always comforting us nervous bunch in your captions.😉 Sending you lots of love!!!🍂

KatieS

Happy Holidays, Alice! You brought me so much joy this year that I mentioned you and Heartstopper in my 2024 Christmas poem!

springy

oh nick :(

Rocky

Nadolig Llawen/Merry Christmas Alice - Hope you have a lovely few days.

Merel

This whole page is so sad but I'm giggling at Kitty's smiling face peeking out behind Charlie's concerned one

Hannah Howden

I know anyone can have nightmares about loved ones dying, but I wonder if this is a bit of trauma coming through from Charlie being so sick 😞

melissa

thanks alice, merry christmas!!! have a lovely one

Ania W.

Merry Christmas Alice! Enjoy your well-deserved Christmas break ❤️

KA

Merry Christmas to you, Alice! Thank you for everything - and for giving us all something beautiful to look forward to 💖

Tina

happy holidays!

Katie H

Alice, the way you have drawn the emotions on Nick and Charlie's faces are incredible. Nick looks so sad and lost, and is so scared of losing Charlie 🥹 Have an amazing Christmas break, Alice and thank you for everything 🎄

Glenn

Wow! Hope your Christmas is everything you want it to be.

toneelspeler

Intrusive stress dreams are so dreadful but i'm so glad you're showing nick having them bc stress and anxiety can be so terrible to experience, and it can happen to anyone. hope so desperately nick will talk to sarah about it!

JT

Thank you Alice, hope you have the best break and festive period too 💖✨️ and to everyone else whatever you're upto, with friends or family alone or working I hope you find some time to celebrate yourself and have the coziest time ever 🦄🫶🏻💙

RyGy

Aliceeeeeeeeeeee

Jo Mary

Merry Christmas Alice thank you for bring us a amazing year of heartstopper x 🩷💙x

Scott Whittall

Talk about heart stopper! Nick's wide startled eyes and then the sweet half smile when the sleep fog lifts and he realizes his Char is right there holding him. Nightmares suck. Nick is so scared about being away from Charlie. These boys need to talk this out soon. Happy Happy Christmas, Alice, and to all my fellow HS fans here. Everyone have a wonderful and safe Holiday!!

RyGy

Whoah

Nikki

Oh Nick, you sweet boy ❤️ Merry Christmas Alice! Thank you for the gift of Heartstopper and early access on Patreon! Enjoy your Christmas xxx

Cassie Law

Merry Christmas Alice

Nikki

There’s something really breathtaking about their eyes on this page. I don’t recall you, Alice, ever drawing their eyes full of such fear or concern before. Artistically incredible, story wise so harrowing…

Alexandra B

merry Christmas Alice! have a great holiday! 🎄💖

DogBefriender22

Oh Nicky baby 💔 🥹 Thanks for the heads up Alice about the cuddle coming up - we all needed that! 😍 Have a very well deserved Christmas break and thanks for EVERYTHING you do ❤️

Tanya

Oh, Nick... I will enjoy thinking of them cuddled up together over the holiday. 🥰 Wishing you a happy Christmas, Alice! 🎄❄️☃️ Thank you, as always, for sharing your work with us; it is the very best gift. 🎁🎁🎁

Maisie

Merry Christmas Alice thank you for everything this year and always ❤️

Sarah 🤍

i can’t help but laugh a little at kitty creepin behind charlie 🫣 but poor nick 🥺

Lisa Punky Girl

Merry happy Christmas!! We all need good cuddles! Hugs!! Hope you have the best holiday ever!!❤️❤️❤️

ucfnurse

Might be a good idea to call your therapist Nick☺️😥👍🫂❤️‍🔥💔🌟🌞🌻📲💜☕️🥞✌️🕊️☮️

RO

Oh poor Nick, he’s still got so much stress from when Charlie was ill 😥 I also really like your word choice on this page. I didn’t expect to see the word ‘dead’ in Heartstopper, but I think it works really well to encapsulate just how scary that time was not only for Charlie, but for Nick as well. Merry Christmas, Alice! Wishing you a happy and restful holiday ❤️

HLMac88

Poor thing those types of dreams can be the worst. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas! 🎄

Katrina Chavez

This is so sad :( I'm glad we ate seeing how Nick was affected by the situation. He experienced trauma too 😢

Krystyn

Cuddle and maybe Nick should think about talking to someone, like he encouraged Charlie to do. Alice I wish you a bright Christmas, enjoy your break ✨✨✨✨💜

lexi

methinks nick needs a forehead kiss

Gregory Toner

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to anyone celebrating. 🥳 thank you Alice for the wonderful gift of Heartstopper 💖

Elfi

The looks on their faces, Nick's tears, the light from the little Christmas tree on Nick's head, Charlie not answering but just pulling Nick to hug him - everything feels so realistic and sad and beautiful at the same time. Thanks for everything, Alice, and happy holidays! Enjoy your well deserved break! ❤️

Robert

Alice, very best wishes for a happy Christmas and all the best for 2025.

Cody

This page really hits me differently because my partner has these same dreams 💔

Jennifer Berry

alice … this is SO sad !!!! but also happy christmas !! enjoy the holiday !

Kayleigh Clarke

This is heartbreaking 🥺 I have hope that they will be all good in the end, but this is hard. I hope Nick speaks up soon! Have a wonderful Christmas Alice ❤️

Chris

Kitty is impassive though 😛

Beth Yoshida

Have a Happy Christmas Alice!

Ren

happy holidays!!

June

😭💔This broke my heart But i hope you have a lovely christmas and holidays, Alice.🤍Enjoy your well-deserved break! Can't wait to continue reading after Christmas🥰

ZooKeeperHere

Awwww that has probably happened to most of us! It’s always so jarring. Have a happy Christmas! ❤️

Nicole

Omg 💔💔💔 Enjoy your well deserved break!

s💫

merry christmas to you alice!

Claire

Oh -- those big frightened eyes from both of them. The emotion on this page. 😞 🎄🎅 Merry Christmas Alice. 🎄🎅 Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all here.

Ashley Robinson

Nick….he feels so hard. It’s catching up to him. So glad this volume is coming into existence. It’s so incredibly important. Have a wonderful holiday Alice! Thank you for everything.

Shane Green

Merry Christmas, Alice! Enjoy your time off 🙂❤️

Auna 🍉

Have a lovely holiday, Alice! Thanks for making this world a better place 💞

Lauri

Merry Christmas Alice!! Have a wonderful time with your beloveds

Beam Bugge
>>159120364

sadly it's not easy to get access to therapy, especially if you're over 18 and don't have any official mental illnesses (idk how rich sarah is, if she has enough money then maybe nick can get some help idk)

brie

😭😭😭

KathrynHarrop90

Hope you have a great Christmas Alice! 🫶 Here's hoping Charlie can make Nick feel better 🥺

toneelspeler
>>159120364

Considering she has a free standing house as a single mum and nick has the biggest house of the paris squad.. probably pretty well off

Elena

The fear of losing Charlie/beeing without him when uni starts must be so overwhelming for Nick! 😥

Tori-Gaye Atterbury

Merry Christmas Alice 🫶🏽🫶🏽 the reality of having such a dream is so terrifying because it feels all too real while you’re in the moment. Lots of cuddles for our Nicky baby 💗💗💗💗

Beam Bugge

hey so was it necessary to end it right there 😃 it's fine, everything's fine merry christmas though, enjoy your well earned break!

Holly Roberts

Ohh no!!! Look at Charlie and Nick!!! 😔 MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

CinD

Well damn Nick… 😭 now I’m sad just even thinking that for a second. Like no, Nick and Charlie are immortal in my mind 🥹

Jack Seyler

Happy Christmas to all who celebrate! This page was a bit startling for me.

laurimini

Ugh this broke my heart! Merry crisis 🎉🎄

Jo S

The only saving feature is that Nick had this dream whilst he was with Charlie! 🥹❤️ I love their expressive eyes 👀! I will look forward to seeing their cuddle , Hug first!! Merry Christmas Alice , enjoy your few days rest and thank you as always 🫶🏻🫶🏻

lous

Merry Christmas Alice!!!!💝🎄🎁

Anthony Mignone

Merry Christmas Alice. I hope you have a wonderful Holiday. Thank you for stepping into our lives and bringing us so many smiles.

David C Witkin

Happy Holidays Alice! And to everyone! I've never seen Nick's and Charlie's faces drawn so beautifully and with such loving attention to detail. The terror of losing someone you love from Death or Divorce or Relocation is very real. While dreams may be full of symbolism, the things the symbols stand for and the fears they help us process are very real indeed. When he gets woken up like this at this moment, Nick is given the opportunity to finally open up about the fears that have been gnawing at the back of his mind, and the things that have been making him sad. And Charlie will be given a chance to really stand up for Nick and help him through it. This will be another step forward in the growth of their relationship.

Maddy

Can confirm I've had a dream about my best friend dying. That shit SUCKS. My heart is broken for Nick rn.

Olav Gehle

Merry Christmas @alice Have some great days 🎄

Flavia Morlacci ☾𖤓

omg no 🥺this is so sad 😭 happy Christmas and happy holydays Alice ❤️💗

mal

Aww poor nick😞

Jo S

Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays to all ❤️

Shin__

Merry Christmas Alice 🩷 enjoy your very deserved time off

Cliff

Now that’s both intense and unexpected; I hadn’t anticipated that he’d advance to the most feared outcome of them all! Someone I’m close with always verbalizes in his sleep when he has dreams this intense. Most of the time, what’s being said is unintelligible, but the anguish is unmistakable.

Kassie K Wilson

Oh Nicky 😭😭😭 poor guy is really goin’ through it 🥺🥺🥺

brie

Merry Christmas Alice!!!!

Jennifer Paddock

Oof! Glad to hear cuddles are imminent ❤️ Have a very merry Christmas, Alice!

Jodie KH

Looking forward to their cuddle! Merry Christmas Alice and enjoy your break! Xxx

Loveislove

Sometimes dreams are of exaggerated circumstances and Nick does have abandonment issues courtesy of his father. But Charlie dying is trauma that, I think, feels close to the surface to Nick. It's something he couldn't bring himself to verbalize in Menorca. But the late night phone call prior to Charlie's admittance to the clinic and the relapse fight and aftermath from Solitaire Era involved some level of self harm that has varied depending upon revisions and editions. But I think Nick does make a connection with separation from Charlie increasing the chances of Charlie relapsing and self harming and Nick not being able to save him. The two need to talk through the last year's experiences as well as Nick seeking deeper assistance.

Doménica Dolly
>>159120364

I saw on tumblr lore years ago that Nick’s mum was supposedly a doctor, probably working under the NHS system so maybe she could give him easier access to psychiatric help…honestly maybe my memory is all blurry or my mind is making things up but I remember someone or Alice pointing that out about Sarah’s profession. Maybe she is not and Estefan is just very generous with parental financial support lol

Mara

Have a merry Christmas Alice!! Enjoy your break ❤️❤️

Allison Drevich

Merry Christmas, Alice! You bring joy to the world.

E

Ooof. But Kitty's face made me laugh. 😅

Katrina

Wow.. I am heartbroken and crying on my Birthday. Alice, this is so heartbreaking but I love how Charlie immediately grabs Nick because that is one of the most terrifying dreams you could have is losing someone that you love the most. Happy Holidays Alice and enjoy your well deserved break. Every detail in this page is so good!!!

Neenie
>>159128854

I just read the doc with changes between original and revised This Winter and oof

Lid

Merry Christmas, Alice! 🎅🏻☃️🎄

DD 🍂

Merry Christmas Alice!!💚❤️

DD 🍂

This is 💔, but I love Kittie watching over them so much ❤️

Amanda Wetterer

😢😢 I’ve had those dreams before about a loved one.

Ali Michelle

Merry Christmas, Alice!! Thank you for all that you do 💖🎄

Nicole Mizell

Merry Christmas, Alice! Enjoy a well-deserved break!

Jen

Merry Christmas, Alice🎄🫶🏼

Sarah Jacobs

Merry Christmas Alice 🎄❤️🍂 Devastating page to leave it on, but Kitty behind Charlie did make me smile.

Vantacy_1912

Merry Christmas Alice and enjoy your holiday!! Now I’m gonna go and cry for a bit..

Audrina

Merry Christmas Alice 💖

Faye

Marry Christmas Alice!!!

Hayden

I’m crying 😔😔🥺🥺

Ariel

😭🥺 have a nice long cuddle you two💕 Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays Alice!! Hope you have a lovely break🎄❤️

Button

Merry Christmas to Alice & those in the Patreon community that celebrate!! 🎄🎁

flynn tasker

happy holidays alice and see you for the bloopers! 🎄

Kelly
>>159120364

They spend three weeks every year on vacation on a Mediterranean island. Plus her objection to Charlie not going was that the tickets were already bought, not that it was too expensive for another person. I think they’re okay for a therapist.

Loveislove
>>159128854

It was some serious shit - not quite like that now - I think the cutting is more related to ocd, emotional release and not suicidal ideation but yeah the original version was very upsetting.

Darren🍂

ALICE THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO KEEP MY CHRISTMAS SPIRITS HIGH😭😭😭 Merry Christmas tho❤️

Bina

Merry Christmas, Alice!! i hope you have a lovely and relaxing holiday! ❤️🎄

Flor D. la Peña🍂

In my culture we say that when we dream that someone died it means that we are giving them more years of life

James
>>159128854

Oh wow I didn't realised these aspects had been revised. Where is this doc, On Alice's website?

Helen Povey

Merry Christmas Alice and everyone here who celebrates 🎄 I’ve had plenty of dreams like that don’t worry Nick , Charlie’s with you 🥹

E M

Have a wonderful Christmas Alice!! :33 (Also, Charlie dying was literally one of my MANY cai chats lol)

Noemiette

Gosh when you said Nick was going to go through it, you really meant it ToT Have a lovely Christmas break, Alice 😊

emily

Merry Christmas Alice, I hope you have lovely time 💓

Doménica Dolly
>>159140327

I remember I dreamt about my dad dying and I told my mom and she said that it meant he was gonna have a very long life then 😭😭😭

Brittney

Aww Nick... damn. You really made us buckle in for this volume and now you're pulling on that safety to make sure we understand this isn't going to be an easy journey wow... I wasn't expecting that at all. I know with everything that kind of happened since volume 4 and 5 it was quite the challenge for Nick but this... wow... I think everyone understands what I mean. Anyways I hope you have a good Christmas Alice thank you!

MippyMoo

oh my FUCKING god,,,, BAAABYYYYY, BABY NOOOOOOOOO

Cole Morin

I’m torn because I love them both so much and I hate seeing them struggle but also Charlie has gotten some bad attention when he was struggling people saying he didn’t notice Nicks anxiety and now here we are and Charlie is going to see Nick through this and support him I just don’t want Charlie thinking it’s his fault. Ugh my poor babies I want to hug them both and take their pain. Happy Holidays Alice! Thank you for all you do and enjoy your break!!!!

Calfic

I teared up. I have had those types of dreams about my closest family member, and it is never fun. Thinking about when they occur, it is usually when there is conflict or something like that. And I know in the depths of my soul, they would never abandon me, but when I'm upset with them, or some situation, involving them, it comes out in that sort of dream. (Hasn't happened in a long while.). For those worried, Alice has stated publicly that Nick and Charlie will grow old. together, and I don't think we are heading into a relapse story. I do think there is LOTS of stuff coming up for Nick though; his absolute poor excuse for a dad who threatened to abandon him if he cried (got to love toxic masculinity!), falling into a group of friends, but feeling if he didn't conform, he wouldn't have friends, and he wanted some connection to his peers, so he stomped down how uncomfortable they made him, and went along, because at least they had fun at school together , kind of . And he met Charlie, his one best friend , as well as his soulmates, and that porpelled Nick into learning who he was more . Then Nick discovered that Charlie was deeply unwell, so it was actually not that hard for him to assume more the caregiving role, and not focus on his needs, which Charlie sort of needed at the time. I think Tori would have told their parents , if Nick hadn't been around, but he caught it sooner, and he helped Charlie in a way, that gave Charlie the confidence to tell his parents.And I think Nick suspects that Leeds would be REALLY good for him, but he would lose his main support in his mind. (And yes, I have read the train posts in Discord, but I think in order to get to the logistics of it all, they have to deal with the emotional part of it all first.) . It is all just a lot! On a side note, really loved how Charlie woke Nick up, and just held him . Anyway, I hope you have a FANTASTIC Christmas break! You so deserve it!!

Breezy

This made me tear up but also kitty in the back going 😺

Calfic
>>159147366

Some people don't get it. There would be no way that Charlie could have focused on Nick at all, when he was deeply unwell. What Nick needed was therapy for himself to process it, and so much more. Now Charlie is in a place where he can help, but blaming Charlie for focusing on his own feelings when he was sick, is just wrong. It's like when I was VERY physically ill years ago, I knew it was effecting my then partner and family, but I was just trying to survive, and they needed to rely on each other.

Ania W.

Nick's greatest fear - losing Charlie 💔. Seeing Nick in tears breaks my heart. But you're right - kitty saves the day 😺 Merry Christmas to you all 🎄

Cole Morin
>>159147366

Oh I know!!!! I defend Charlie every time I see those comments anywhere lol. Nick was there for him, now Charlie will be there for Nick but Aunt Diane said it best! “But also knowing that sometimes, people need more support than one person can give. That’s love, Darling”

Daya

Oh my this is hitting home…🥺

aniatka
>>159119306

So well said 🙂❤️ Merry Christmas Alice. And thank you for all your love for N&C and for all of us ❤️🧡💛💚💙🩵💜

Teri Lyn

I know Alice has said before the talk is coming but Nick really needs to talk to Charlie. When he’s ready he will but it hurts seeing him like this 💔😭

Kenzie Mullen

Thank you, Alice. My husband died earlier this year and I used to have dreams about him dying, which would freak me out. We’ve been together 44 years. One of the things that got me through this difficult.period is heartstopper both the graphic novels and the tv series. Somehow they give me a great deal of comfort. Thank you.

RCM

Nick...tender, anxious Nick, dreaming of Charlie dying...his poor heart and breathing must be so awfully erratically as he awakes in a full awareness panic. I can only imagine the shock, the pain, and the fear he must have been just experiencing in his sleep, and we see signs of this with the outpouring of tears in ALL the panels, the juxtaposition of his WIDE EYED startled look (although a small part of me hopes that this terrible vision gives some insight into the depth of his buried anxieties and childhood trauma, like he might start to actually SEE it himself...) and the way he TIGHTLY SQUEEZES his eyes when he shares what his dream was about, sweet love is trying so hard to make it all go away, to be unseen in his mind..but those dark myriad of dots in the background suggest the pain and fear are still there no matter how tight his eyes get, and it breaks my heart! Charlie feels it ALL, and the concern reflected in his own wide eyed stare shows how he IS seeing it and is not going to let it go away...I so love the strong AND gentle way that Charlie draws Nick SO close, so Nick can feel SAFE and COMFORTED and CALMED. Research suggests such dreams of a loved one dying often symbolize a major life transition/significant change about either yourself or your relationship (both of which Nick is experiencing right now, as he has been silently searching for himself AND defining his future goals for months), and we also know that their relationship as Nick and Charlie have known it thus far (sleepovers included!) is going to change no matter where Nick goes to university. Change is inevitable for them... This type of dream can also signify feeling a a fear of loss, a sign of pent-up anxiety about potential change. I can see why Nick would dream this...not only does he DEEPLY love and care for Charlie, he still worries about him because being the one who has been in the strong supportive partner role doesn't just stop when your loved one reaches a thriving again place. Two other factors complicate this fear of loss as well. One is the family trauma that Nick absorbed as a child, where Nick internalized over time through his conditional yet absent dad's words and actions that HIS voice, HIS feelings, HIS struggles weren't as valid as other people's (like his dad's) were...and second is the fact that Nick feels most like HIMSELF and at home around Charlie...so if something happens to Charlie, he not only loses his best friend, his boyfriend, his PERSON...he also loses himself. It's another sign of how Nick needs Charlie way more than people think, and such a very real and very bad dream inducing FEAR. Pull him close, Charlie. Let him squeeze his eyes shut and just cry...I suspect Nick is going to have to have multiple "micro" revelations like this awful dream before he can really see how deep his childhood emotional wounds are...baby steps...

Sandra Day

Thanks Alice! Merry Christmas everyone ❤️💚 💙💛 excited to see the bloopers soon!

Elena

I'm so glad we have the captions! 🥺❤️‍🩹 Looking forward to their big cuddle! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Merry Christmas to you, Alice & everyone in the patreon community who celebrates! 😊🎄👼

Eileen

Happy Christmas!

Elspeth Fougere

Oh poor nick. The ultimate abandonment fear. I hope this opens the doorway for some really deep conversations about feeling secure together.. and not just in shallow I promise way, but in a way of I want us to be together and support each others freedom and fulfillment in life and stay together through it all and be alongside for the journey. I hope they are both starting to realise the complexity of deep relationship more than just fidelity

Murgy

Even though he got to escape the dream, wake up and find Charlie right there, the fear and pain Nick felt in that dream must be hard to shake. Being so involved in each other's life and being so emotionally entangled only makes these things harder, and likely the dream was drawn out by Nick's own doubts and fears related to is he being left behind/abandoned by Charlie. Nick's doubts about who he is on his own are only going to make things like this worse, but he needs to be ready to face it on his own terms, because forcing it when you're not can also make it worse. On a lighter note, Happy Holidays everyone

Brynn Rabinowitz

Merry always and happy everything! Happy holidays!

Michelle wright

Those kind of dreams are awful 😭 Happy Christmas Alice! Have a lovely break 🎄

rickettyuncles

Merry Christmas, Alice! Sad dreams almost worth it for consoling cuddles 🥰

Kristyn

Merry Christmas Alice! Thank you for Heartstopper 🍂 ♥️

Rebecca

Anxiety dreams are the worst

Olivia Brookes

you WHAT?! oh darling😭 you poor boy

DogBefriender22
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Thank you for sharing this Kenzie ❤️ sending you love and good wishes, and I’m so glad that Heartstopper has been a comfort to you - it truly is special in so many ways

K Lyn

This is so real of him though 😅

Elsie 3

Ugh- the poor bud. Processing the past- when Nick likely worried that Charlie might actually die, and stressing about the future- moving away to uni and feeling lost without Charlie by his side. I hope this helps him to gradually talk through both.

Melissa Delzell

These dreams are the worst! I always wake up and cry for a bit to calm down. :(

Jazmine Terson

AWEEEEEEEEEE NICKYYYYYYYY HONEYYYYYYYY