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Instant regret 🥲

No page tomorrow! I'll be at Waterstones Children's Book Festival in Lincoln!

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ACxo

Yes Nick open the door for Charlie!!!

Nessa

🩷🩷🩷

ACxo

Charlie : 🕴️🥺

Gracie

Smart choice

Bevulio

I can physically feel the hangover that is coming for him.

Synz

NOOOOOOO LOOK AT CHARLIE I'M GONNA SOB

Tracy

Poor nick , open the door!

John Barrow

Have a great day tomorrow Alice!!

melly2oo

These boys 💔

Shin__

I’m crying

Nyssa Rawther 🍉

Awww noooooo. I feel so badly for both of them!!! Look at their sad little faces!!! 🥺🥺🥺💔💔💔

emily

NOOOOO 😭😭😭😭

Chloe ♡

nick is finally opening the door!! hopefully charlie hasn’t walked away yet

Susa Nodewald

I hope, Charlie is still standing there 🥺

emily

see you tomorrow at the nick & charlie anniversary event 💓

Merel

Oh my babies 🥹 Nick, please let him in. Charlie, show Nick that not everyone in his life will leave as soon as things get messy ❤️

Tina

oh charlie's gonna be gone now isn't he

Adara Martinez

Wow its weird being this early to this, but anyway, I might cry.

Jmejimz

Oh no, not little sad face Charlie 😭

Dionne Lakey

Enjoy the book festival and your interview with William, Alice! So jealous - he's one of my favourite YA authors and he'll have such amazing questions

ACxo

The way you draw their emotions is so stunning you capture it perfectly Alice

Elena

FINALLY!!! 🚪

Lissie

Oh I've been there with that feeling so I get it *sighs*

Summer Hales

Awh Nick. 🥲 I'll be at the Lincoln event tomorrow! So excited! 🥳🍂

ama

happy valentine's day, i guess?🥲

a

alice i was wondering, is there going to be valentine’s day art??

Barb

tears under nick's eyes😥...

KimS

I hope Nick acts on that instant regret instead of pushing it aside, or having to throw up again 😬 Come on my guys!!

Katie H

The tears and the sadness in Nick's eyes on the 3rd panel 💔😢 Again, this page symbolises that Nick will hopefully now let Charlie in and will open up to him about how he's really feeling 🥹

Audrina

Nicky 😭❤️‍🩹

Robby C

The last frame is so perfectly drawn! 🫂

Isa

this hurt to read on valentine’s day 😭😭😭😭

Ulises

All though this is making me sad I love that you’re showing the realness of not just their relationship but any relationship in general that is not always sunshine and rainbows. I remember the earlier volumes they rarely got into any arguments but now you’re showing that Nick and Charlie can have their moments of getting angry with each other ❤️‍🩹

Dean

See you tomorrow at the N+C event

Anne-Lise Torre

Oh their little faces 🥺🥺🥺❤️‍🩹

Katrin

Nicky 😢 Yes, open the door~ Charlie is still there. He wouldn't run away~ I think... I hope... ahhhhh 🙈 I love all of the pages so much!!! Even though it's an emotional rollercoaster!

aliceoseman
>>164688658

I don't think I'll have time to draw any today as today is my deadline for a draft of a project I'm currently working on! Maybe over the weekend but can't make any promises :(

Glenn

Charlie, Turn around and please call Sarah. This is a bad situation and you need support too.

Eileen

Oh here come the waterworks

Loveislove

I'm so glad when my catastrophizing is always wrong with the plot. Thank you Nick for opening the door, love.

Elena

Will Charlie still be there, when Nick opened the door?! 😱

C 🐝

Hoping Charlie Is still on the other side once that door is open.🙃😭

Chris

they both need a hug 🥺 (and I do too)

a
>>164688658

awh, no worries!! take your time 🤍

Krystyn

I always love that you are so real, showing raw emotions but it’s never too much. That page is heartbreaking, Charlie’s sadness, Nick’s tears but then a hand opening a door 🥺🥹 thank you Alice 💜

Robert

Well done Charlie for waiting.

Harriet Echo

So beautiful as always. Incredible depiction of Nick’s sudden regret and feeling alone 😭 See you in Lincoln tomorrow! So excited!!! 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

Katrina

See you tomorrow!! ☺️🫶🏻

JRob
>>164688558

OMG, I was just thinking "If Charlie isn't in the other side of that door, so help me gods...."

Chloe ♡
>>164688558

i think we’ll all have a joint breakdown with nick if charlie has gone 😭

Merel

Just when I thought you couldn't break my heart any further, you go and draw Nick in absolute tears

Carrie Lindley

Alice! Did you mean to leave us on a cliffhanger for Valentine’s Day? (Any chance you can just tell us if Charlie’s still waiting on the other side of that door?!) 😅

GirlHero

this page ❤️‍🩹 no dialogue, just their expressions. and i perceive a moment of quiet, or maybe stillness? it pulls you right in! wow, alice 👏🏽👏🏽

2catlovers

I don’t quite know how you manage to make Nick look green in a black & white drawing, @Alice, but you have!

Kelly

Making good choices Nick yes!

Merel

Alice is like "my Valentine's Day gift to you is dejected Charlie and miserable Nick 🤗" /j

Meike

❤️

Claire

💔 Oh no -- those tears -- the hand on the door. What a touching page. 💔 We know they just have to reach out for each other and it will work out. Come on do that boys.

Juliana Barhorst

Oh sweet boys. Poor Charlie little sad face. Please Nick go give him a hug we all need it! 💔😢

Kela87
>>164689683

Hahah there's nothing to laugh about it... yet I laughed 🤣🤭

Elena

It was such a relief to see Nick will open that door! That means, he doesn't want to push Charlie away anymore and that's so important for them right now! ❤️‍🩹 Hopefully Charlie's still there, when he opened it! 🤞🏻 (But I would understand, if Charlie already went away! 🥺) And I'm glad, that Nick immediately regreted his words before and realizes what he said to him! But also Charlies sad face and Nicks tears are saying a lot! 🥺🥺

JRob

Charlie, please stay. You KNOW Nick's been off for a while. You KNOW he's a drunk idiot right now. You a KNOW how screwed up unchecked emotions make a person. You KNOW he's loves you.

Glenn

The bathroom door is still locked. I hope they won't be forced to break it down.

Martine Scarabea

Yes, Nick, open Charlie the door, your mind, let him know you at all, all the best and all the worst 🥺

Nikki

I’m not sure which is makes me more sad, the fact that Nick looks so upset and having instant regret right now or the fact that Charlie doesn’t even look angry Nick yelled, he just looks sad 🥺

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have fun tomorrow alice!

Elena
>>164689683

Actually in comparison to the last pages, this page is making me way more hopeful, because Nick will open that door. So he doesn't want to push Charlie away anymore! That makes me at least a bit happy to see!

Loveislove

💔💔💔 omg - all of Charlie is so sad and hurt - even his curls are sagging. You can feel his spirit dipping. Then Nick's face. The tears, the utterly lost and regretful expression. What has he just done to the love of his life? He is about to wallow in some despair. Thank you to Charlie for, of course, staying and to Nick for, of course, letting him in. Are we finally on the other side? I just feel in my bones how they love each other and they are going to KNOW this next which will comfort the rest of us. So - thank you Alice ❤️

Samantha

I think Charlie will still be there. He can sense that Nick does need him even if he says otherwise. It feels like forever ago but when Charlie was working and Nick was trying to do his essay and told Charlie not to come over Charlie knew that Nick really did need him to come over. And this time Nick can't hide behind sex/physical intimacy to avoid saying or showing how he needs Charlie to help. So now we just have to hope that this literal spilling of his guts leads Nick to do the same thing emotionally.

Märta Birkner

Yes Nick, let him in, you'll feel better, both of you will 🥺

Aristine

alice my heart can’t take this 😭

Claudine

Could this be the turning point and he opens the door to Charlie to let him in (literally and figuratively) and tell him what he's struggling with?

Merel
>>164689683

Yeah that's true, it's definitely more optimistic than the previous pages! It's still ironic that on Valentine's Day we get a page where both of our boys are sad haha

Andruwu

Oh please open the door Nick 🙏😭

Astrid H.

It breaks my heart to see Nick feeling that bad 💔 The tears 😭

Justin S.

No more sad boys! I want them to have their smiles back

Jasollie

But what if Nick is only reaching to the door? I don’t feel sure he is actually opening it yet and I worry the next page we will see Nick has pulled back and still isn’t ready. Ahh… the valentine cliffhanger with no page tomorrow. This is wonderful storytelling by Alice and I don’t begrudge anything except today is making me think my heart can’t take a page a day on Patreon anymore. 😭

Laura

Post vom regrets, we’ve all been there!

Kela87

Let's look at the bright side, maybe Nick got it all out now and he's feeling a bit better... So IF Charlie really left, maybe we will have another lovely Nick-chasing-down-Charlie moment? I am delusional, I know...Nick can't even stand on his own probably 🤣🤣

RCM

Charlie looks so smol...and so sad. I get it. I can feel his "should I go? I don't want to go, but Nick said, I mean screamed, at me that I should go, but that feels wrong too, and, I've got this glass of water, the water, Sarah said he needs water...do I put it down, but what if he doesn't see it and spills it, who will give him water then...should I sit too and wait, because I am so worried. This isn't right, this isn't Nick, and I want him to be okay..." and so Charlie just stands there, thinking, waiting, still frozen and looking SO young and innocent (the slumped shoulders, the downcast eyes, the rejection and hurt written all over his face but also somehow with an awareness that this rejection is coming from something that is NOT about him, the loose grip on the glass like he could almost drop it but he just can't...it's his literal connector to Nick right now...) like he was really hoping this glass of water would somehow solve things for Nick and make him feel better, make him feel and act like "NICK "again. It's childlike and so sweet, but it also shows Charlie struggling to grapple with harder mental health issues with Nick, but not yet knowing what tools to use ( I love that we get to see this. Often we don't have the answers and we sure cannot fix anything, but we can just BE there, just STAND there, when people we care about are hurting)...and poor Nick, god, he feels so shitty...not only from his sickness but now from recognizing that he JUST DID THAT. I LOVE that he OPENS his eyes and lets the reality of his situation sink in. He just SCREAMED at CHARLIE....as CHARLIE...that is not okay, that is not what Nick wants, and it breaks HIM, too. But he lets himself FEEL this pain...the pent up tears are flowing, and the last two panels show how much effort and strength it takes for Nick to muster just to move towards the door ( aka towards Char)...he is literally as low as he can get, crawling on the floor, to be able to raise his very shaky, very unsteady hand up to the door handle...to LET CHARLIE IN. It's Nick, realizing he does need help, and he specifically right now needs Charlie's help, even at his lowest, even at his "not nice" state...I'm so proud of you, Nick. Recognizing you need help is a huge step...and requires so much vulnerability and dropping of the mask, and tonight has brought you to that place. Open the door, Nick, open the door. Another beautiful page with so much portrayed. This volume is breaking me and healing me as we go...

Noemiette

Will Charlie still be on the other side of the door ? Dun dun duuun Happy Valentine's to them I guess 😅

Lauri

cry number two… 🥺😣😭

Evergreen

Important step, Nick! What a cliffhanger. Will he actually open it? Will Charlie be there if he does? Probably can’t chase him down the street this time if he’s not. Who knew one door latch could be so suspenseful?? Reaching for the handle at all, no matter what he does next, is an important step, so I’m officially calling this page a small victory for accepting unconditional love.

Brandy78

Ohh, my heart with this page! Please open the door 😢

Elena
>>164691327

It's okay! 😅 If Nick really won't open the door, then at least my disappointment isn't that big, because it's also one possibility to expect now! 😅

GirlHero

oooh, fair point! charlie could be gone when/if nick opens the door. and poor nick; it’s frustrating & hard when you can’t always recognize, or explain, how you feel. n + c have to be patient with each other, yes. but, imho, there aren’t parts of their love that depend on the likelihood that they will be forgiven for their behavior. they don’t take each other for granted, even when things are hard. so there is that. i really respect that. good cliffhanger!!

Ava

YESSSSSS NICK IS OPENING THE DOOR💕🥺

Tanya
>>164689683

I'm sure Charlie will still be there when Nick opens the door and I love a caretaking moment so it truly is a Valentine. 🥰

olive !

HAS MY BABY CHARLIE NOT BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH 😔😔 /lh

Kristen

Already feeling guilty…not a good feeling to add to drunk and anxious and all the other emotions he’s feeling.

Kela87
>>164691327

Alice did write "instant regret" though... We'll see if he acts on that regret, I guess 😅

Ariel

Instant regret indeed - wonderful cliffhanger Alice!! (Also how do they always manage to write the best captions?? Like a winner every time I love being a part of the Paetron! 💕)

JRob
>>164688825

The anxious, depressed teenager that still lives inside me is terrified Charlie is going to flip into flight mode. It can take decades to completely change the core belief that you can't be loved.

JRob
>>164689511

Yeah, I'm fairly sure this borders on "cruel & unusual punishment."

isa💌

Yes open up the door

Lolli98

Charlie is breaking my heart.😥 How he's standing there with the glass of water, so tiny. He really looks crushed.💔 Please Nick, make it to the f...ing door and open it! Please Charlie, be still standing there in front of the door!🙏🙏🙏 This time Nick won't be able to run after you!

Xalek

I don't think Charlie will leave, he can see Nick needs help even if he doesn't want it. Nick did the same thing on the beach.

ucfnurse

Cheering Charlie on!!!☺️😊👏💞❤️‍🔥🌹🌟🏉💫☀️☔️🌅✌️🕊️☮️

Jordan

The next time these two make eye contact is going to be so intense 🥲

Lolli98

Although my heart could better handle an angry Charlie, I'm glad he didn't yell back at Nick. I think Nick would be too scared to open the door for an angry Charlie. Now he feels guilty, because he knows how much he hurt Charlie. And hopefully that guilt will make him open the door!

Loveislove

I was so focused on Nick opening the door it didn't occur to me that Charlie may now be gone. Let's hope the glacial one page a day pace sticks and he is still there and rushes to Nick. Alice has never been one to adhere to rom com tropes - especially in the comic. I think Charlie is still there.

JoJo 🫶🏻🔐🎨

Aww poor nick he needs Charlie hopefully he will open the door and realise he needs support from his loving boyfriend

The Sarah E

a cliffhanger on valentine’s day?!?! rude 🙃

Koko

Charlie is patient. He will wait for Nick

Pitter

Is Nick going to open the door because he is accepting help or because he doesn’t want Charlie to be mad at him, falling back into default people pleaser mode. Also is he crying in panel 3? 😭😭

Theaterboi27

Oh, the first frame!! Char's hopeless expression and deflated posture. Dejection at it's devastating worst. He seems lost in a rush of new dreadful feelings. He cannot ever ever unhear "I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP!!". And, from the one person, the one soul in his world who should always always need him. Not sure he is even aware the lifesaving glass of water remains in his hand. But just look at poor spent Nick. Alice, you captured the haggard aftermath of violent hurling on Nicks war torn face brilliantly. Now the question of this day; is Nick unlocking the door expecting Char to still be there?? Did we expect Char to still be there? Oh, my stomach....

Makeda

awww the hand

Brittney

Aww Nick.. my heart is breaking into pieces again... like Charlie's headspace is probably running like over a million thoughts right now, that's the one of many things I hate with the struggle of mental health is that the words can be the simplest of things but inside our minds it crushes inside and it keeps hurting over and over again. I know Nick will open up about his own demons soon enough, but never shut out the number one support of everything. But I can understand now the constant build up and that's why with their novella, I think it's all from these parts that does end up piling on both of their walls until it eventually collapses... Also good luck today

Jennifer Paddock

Oh the hope in that hand reaching for the door!! 🥹😱❤️‍🩹 I'm on the edge of my seat and I kind of love that we have to wait!!! Anticiiiiiiiiiii.......

rickettyuncles

Just me, perhaps, but I don’t think Charlie looks devastated: sad, of course—Nick’s shout hurt—but mostly sad *for* Nick, who’s still keeping his defences up

Andrew Pitonack

The look on Charlie's face breaks my heart 🥹 Come in Nick, let him in.

Charlie

My heart can’t take it. Will Charlie leave? I honestly hope he’s still there when Nick opens the door. He just looks so sad. He’s being pushed away, when normally his boyfriend holds him close. If he’s not there. Maybe it’ll be the last push Nick needs to finally open up, when he apologises in the mornings they can finally talk 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

Megan
>>164703409

I hope Charlie stays. ❤️Nick’s emotions and judgement are all over the place due to volume of alcohol. Especially after all the times Charlie lashed out at Nick when he was suffering with his own mental health and Nick only ever made him feel cared for and didn’t let Charlie push him away. ❤️

Isak

I’m a little worried that Nick will open the door and Charlie won’t be there anymore…

Beam Bugge

ending on a cliffhanger AND no page tomorrow? do you want us to suffer?? good luck tomorrow!

Lainey

Well happy valentine’s day Nick and Charlie😭😭 I’m glad it’s not vday in the comics yet because this would not be a very fun way to spend it! Can’t wait to see what happens next, I’m glad Nick has some regrets from the last page. Have a great time at the book festival Alice!!

hayley

nick just open the door, honestly if charlie went anywhere he might have just gone to nicks bedroom to wait until he was done (i really still don't see him leaving)

David C Witkin

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Maybe it's appropriate that today we get a callback to the day Charlie told Nick that he loves him, with Nick once again rushing out of the bathroom, chasing Charlie down, hoping to catch him and make sure that Charlie knows without a doubt that Nick loves him back as fiercely as Charlie loves Nick! It's poignant and bittersweet and totally appropriate! Thank you for the reminder, Alice!

Bina

first of all i dearly wish i could jump through the page and give Charlie a big hug in that first panel. 🥲 second, i’m almost certain that Nick will open the door to find that Charlie has left…but will he have just gone to Nick’s room or left the house completely? will we get a full circle moment of Nick chasing him down to apologize like their first ‘i love you’, or will he (more likely) just give up on talking to Charlie until tomorrow, given how defeated and exhausted he already feels? the anticipation will be real until the next page!!

artxsta

i think a lot of ppl are forgetting that they’re really just teenagers. nick is 18, charlie is 16, and they’ve already dealt with really heavy stuff at their ages. if nick lashes out bc he doesn’t want charlie to see him ill (consequently pushing him away), that is ok, and these are growing pains that just need to be resolved and addressed. and whether charlie is patient or gets upset, that is also ok. it’s really hard to see them deal w these big issues but that’s what makes it so deeply relatable and makes this story resonate w a lot of ppl. but it doesn’t change the fact that they equally and wholly love each other and while they are working thru their codependency, it has never been UNBALANCED when it comes to love and support.

Melanie

Charlie has been in this exact position before - lashing out at the person who was trying to help him. He knows how awful it feels to be walked away from. I really think Charlie will be there when that door opens because he knows how much Nick is hurting and how much he needs Charlie’s support ❤️‍🩹

JRob
>>164724067

Absolutely! I think the pain of dragging this out page by page feels harder than it'll be once everything is published together. Relationships take work, even as 40+ woman married for 15 years, I still have issues :D

Cliff

It all depends on how much time transpires between frame one and frame two. If it’s only a few seconds, Charlie will be there to comfort Nick (at least that’s what I hope will happen!). We’ll find out in two days!

Maddy

I miss being happy. Can we just go back to suppressing our feelings?

Maddy

Hey Alice, A few people noticed that 1741 isn't part of the comic pages collection. Just wanted to let you know in case you're going through comments. 😊

Emily

“We just want to be there for you. you have to let us”

Rosie💕

the cliffhanger for the next page!!!

PoppieBee

This is a very sad page :(

Murgy

From lashing out in frustration, saying he doesn't need help to a painful crawl/reach to the locked door. Nick regrets his actions, he knows he needs Charlie's support and love, and that he's only trying to help. But given where Nick is I'm not entirely surprised he did lash out. For months now his doubts have plagued him and its finally reached boiling point. I hate to see the state its put both of them into, the drunken wreck and soul aching partner. Hopefully this is the moment where Nick can start to move towards getting it all out and finding himself. Because if this isn't rock bottom I don't think we will survive seeing Nick hitting it. Given the instant regret look and comment, I suspect Charlie will not have moved, but might have time to put on a brave face once he hears the lock. Or they're both about to end up in tears from Nick seeing the hurt on Charlie's face, and Charlie seeing the pain that Nick is in. Neither of them deserve this pain, but teenage life can really do a number on a person. After all they haven't developed the techniques to manage life yet, are working out who they are and what they want to be, as well as building their confidence in themselves. I hope you have a good time at the Children's Book Festival Alice, along with those of you who are going as well.

Daniel O'Neal

Looking at these comments, y’all are making this moment way more dramatic than it is. We’ve got an embarrassed teenager who drank himself sick because he’s going thru a bit of emotional turmoil. It’ll be fine. We’ve all been where Nick is, and where Charlie is.

Jasollie

Breaking news, Alice posted on her stories what looks like a draft of the next two panels and it looks like the door opens and Charlie is there!

Embla Nyhlin

Just realised that this is the same bathroom where Charlie told Nick he loved him for the first time. It added extra depth in a way.

T

I had to be this way unfortunately with my loving and amazing fiancé when I broke my ankle last week. He was trying to take off my shoe and I was in so much pain I just had to yell out “stop playing doctor with me”.

Marina

Nick's regret face is so well drawn

Marina

cannot wait to see Kit playing this scene lol