Patreon requests #31 (Patreon)

Hallo everynyan..!!

MY TABLET FINALLY ARRIVED IM CRYING IM SO HAPPYYY... I had to file a missing package report and they tracked it down literally the next day like.. 🧍was it just sitting in their storage the entire time or wat... im crying, but IM SO GLAD I GOT IT NOW AND IT'S BEEN REALLY HELPING MY LEFT SHOULDER, my right shoulder is cooked no matter what though but at least im only in half as much pain as i was in before and thats a huge relief omfg.. im using the new tablet to do these patreon requests so i apologize if the lines are a little janky, im gonna try to get used to the new setup while i work on season 4 prep..

I think I've drawn 300+ patreon requests atp ( since each request update has like 10 requests ish) and i think i'm getting dejavus on some of these 😭😭😭 i know the kangshiro ones are new but the few cherie and crush ones i feel like i've drawn before? or maybe i've drawn them in a similar settings or something, but i'm getting forgetful about the stuff i'm drawing already.. even when i see cherie and crush pfps in the wild i always stop and go "wait did i draw that...? when did i draw that..." knowing full well it's 100% my art.. i guess once u draw a character over and over everything starts blending together 💀 ....imagine me with dementia in a nursing home in my 70s talking about cherie and crush like theyre real to some unsuspecting nurse im crying

Season 4 prep is still kicking my ass but im doing the best i can..! i think being scared and anxious that nobody likes ur comics is pretty normal but i really feel like as soon as the first episode of season 4 drops its gonna be the worst day of my life or something.. on top of that i kept having nightmares about dying and then i'd have panic attacks about whats gonna happen to cherry crush if i dont wake up tomorrow 😭😭 like does anyone else think about death this often? like u never know if ur gonna die in a freak accident tomorrow? i have way too many things i wanna do i cant die yet man... i gotta finish the worst yaoi of all times first

I kept thinking that if cherry crush ends and i become unemployed again i might just start streaming drawing these patreon requests cause they're pretty sillay but who knows, i love thinking about things but im always too scared to do any of them, i'd love to do a con with cherry crush merch at least once in my life though.. but that's way too far fetched and i dont think i'd ever make cherry crush into books just for the sheer amount of redraw and reformatting i'd have to do like its already free to read everywhere i dont want to kill trees for ts man 😭 but if i dont make cherry crush into books theres really no reason to do cons cause the whole point of doing cons as a comic artist is to sell comic books so what am i even rambling about jkdsafnjksan...its so dumb but its nice to think about at least.

Anyways thats all for the yap today, i gotta get back to doing season 4 prep but thank u to everyone who put in a requests, i hope u can forgive my janky drawings on the new tablet i'll try to get better next time, thank you and have a good day evernyan!

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