ok so here’s what happened. (Patreon)

hello loves

i posted this last night:

https://www.patreon.com/posts/72565116

i read the 200 comments that came in.

the votes were are a 50/50 dead heat when i went to sleep.

i decided to sleep on it, and to see what the morning told me.

the vote stands at 43% to 57% right now, but i was more interested in the comments than anything else, and 90% of the comments said the same thing, and so many people echoed the refrain and wish for a third option: to just do what felt best.

i woke up at 5:30am, filled with the urge to fucking write and finish this thing, but also filled with relief because i felt so supported by all of you. so many of you articulated so well what is hard to put into words. what we are doing here.

i read the rest of the comments (there are 350 right now. and i love each and every one of you.)

the theme is clear…support is support. i have been crowdfunding for so, so long and STILL i know there are no answers to these questions. you all understand the ebb and flow. but what if i just stopped creating? how long is an ebb valid? who is to say? who decides this shit??

i also think it really may be time to move to monthly. i fear, mostly, that there are so many patrons who’ve tuned out that we will lose thousands of people who simple wont open the email and opt in. i don’t know how to solve that.

i’ll talk to patreon and the team.

meanwhile - you helped me.

i wrote from 5:30am til noon - about 6 hours straight. i took two coffee breaks. i’m sending the piece into my editor. i’m incredibly proud of it. and me. and you. and this.

i don’t know what would have happened had not put up that post with my tired brain last night …

but i know i love and appreciate you all more than ever.

see you soon, with piece.

peace.

piece.

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