UPDATE (think I can pull it off?) (Patreon)

This is a comic script. I plan to start tonight. And post tomorrow.

Looks like it's going to be four pages. I'm going to "cheat" and cram all these abnormally long sentences (for me) into this intensely truthful "slice of life" comic.

July 24th - 2017

I finish perfecting a particular barbarian and feel immensely proud.

However.

The sudden loss of stimulation, coupled with the fact that I feel undeserving of my own accomplishments, triggers a mild anxiety attack.

I sleep 4 hours.

July 25th - 2017

I have a wonderful time celebrating a birthday party. I enjoy good food, and better company.

However.

During the course of the party my pronouns are openly mocked three times, unchecked. Nobody notices. 

My slow burn anxiety goes into overdrive.

I don't sleep. My insomnia medication does nothing.

July 26th - 2017

Without sleep I make very unpredictable decisions. I decide that today is the day I wear a dress to the office for the first time in my life.

I realize this is a mistake, on my way to the car. But go anyway.

The history lecture I'm listening to on CD* runs out. I switch to the news.

First thing NPR tells me is Trump/GOP wants to ban Trans people from the military.

NPR does not explain this is traumatic, systemic, Transphobia. They just move on to the next topic.

I survive the day. This is a milestone in my transition. Not a baby step but a huge step.

However.

I spend the entire day in state of terror. People want to see photos of how cute I am. Not understanding that my self loathing of my physical body/appearance is at an all time high.

July 28th - 2017

I spend my much needed mental health day creating this fucking comic.

I wish I could live on the moon, sometimes.

* public libraries are awesome