rest your eyes (Patreon)

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that's okay.
expecting myself to linearly increase my output each day is definitely unsustainable and definitely something i was already doing, so let's break myself of that habit early.
i catch myself thinking, okay, i have this time set aside, i should definitely be writing as much as possible, right?
but i must remind myself that if it is my contract that i am allowed to not write-- or as i remind myself, i am entitled to not write-- then it behooves me more to take that time and get the self-imposed pressure off, rather than continue to indulge in it. first and foremost, this needs to be sustainable.

besides, i had more fun today than the past couple days.
past couple days i was just methodically working forward through some stuff that was already drafted.
today in the course of my taking a moment to unwind, i had an impulsive thought to jump ahead and decided to just go for it.

somehow i always feel like what i've got in line to do next is less interesting than the fantasies of the future content.
still trying to unpack that.

okay so a few people were confused what meduça is and what it has to do with sight.
it is just an alternate spelling of medusa-- something to make it our own; to show that you know what this is, but it's also different.
as for what medusa has to do with sight,
i mean, everyone knows the myth, right?
don't look at her.
but, then, isn't it easier, perhaps simpler, maybe, safer,
to just not see at all?