Working on music (Patreon)

Hello, since the last post I took a couple weeks off. I met with online friends in-person for the first time, and the time spent with them felt way too short. After that I passed into some post-event depression and sadness (which will pass.) I have made a tiny bit of progress on Grugga, but it has been very hard to focus on anything. What I was able to do was make Ambient Music 8. For some reason, when I feel listless, poetry and music are the only activities left that feel inviting and fulfilling.

When making these ambient tracks, I often have to start over dozens of times; I finally felt like I had something promising when LMMS suddenly crashed and left no backup or autosave. So a couple days later, I recreated the part I could remember, which ended up being the key change at 40 seconds here. The part I couldn't fully remember became the rest of the track, and it is all more somber than the original melody. I am very proud of the ending section, and though I wish the whole track felt just as impactful, there aren't any parts that I really dislike.

While writing the ending of this track, I had it in mind that this would be the final ambient music. But I don't think I really want to be done with them. Perhaps this will just be the "last track" when everything is said and done, like if I want to put them in an OST.